No discredit to Saul and maybe notice credit to James.
Imagine a conventional racing bicycle two wheels and everything is normal except for one thing. Instead of the seat being on a rigid bracket with no movement instead it is on a relatively fluid ball joint such that unless at every moment of the cycle the body's muscles are used to create what they fixed seat was able to create by way of stability oh, well, that's where James has been. But his wounded left leg forced him to find something different and no credit to him he found it today
Some time ago maybe Colorado or into Utah the notion of the pretty mm fighting such a planted position that it seemed that it was on a bicycle seat was helpful but not sufficiently helpful and after
Our society views physical abuse as a crime much more readily then psychological abuse. For James it's the reverse.
At least that's how my nervous system has always worked. I can take pain physically much more readily than I can take psychological pain.
I can think of so many times but at the moment an event in front of the White House, there was a recognized member of the activist Club, my disrespectful name for the Cadre, late at night, standing 6 in away from a secret service agent on duty, berating, screaming at this individual in their face.
I have a zero tolerance for abuse, of me, and more importantly of anyone else.
10 years ago, Within moments I was across the wide Street putting myself in between the secret service agent and facing
James preliminary Vision (WkInProg): Joy is at the convergence of these things, for the individual, for the community. Nowhere else to be found.
This document is a preliminary distillation, a 15% complete outline, of what James has applied throughout his adulthood in every community building Venture he's been involved in, and in building himself as best he can, to help others do the same. For the joy of it.
It is crazy. It is insane. James understands it to be exactly equivalent to what the lives of the individuals here speak of themselves, Lsgiabeing.com, and what some have spoken explicitly, like the man Jesus, if you would hold on to your life, you will lose it, if you would lose it for the sake of the neediest among you, you will gain it... Heaven... Joy.
If and when James fleshes this out in more detail there may be half a
onsistent with him suggesting that there were followers that sort of understood what he had to say. And the remaining third are by those that either through malice or foolishness attributed to him things that he never said and never would have said, quite the opposite.
Supreme Joy of building people, Souls, Beyond everything else. Not to be confused with building head and flesh. Community of Souls.
25 or so years of my adulthood was indulging my lust for building stuff, I I thought recently of those dozens of plants in my apartment, I didn't recall until now of the aquarium, LOL, software systems, hardware systems, algorithms, acoustic devices, businesses, Networks, new products... that was 50% of my time, the other 50% was building people and communities. They were created simultaneously. Communities of people.
This is day number 16 inside the household that James and Sol traveled 1100 miles, 33 days through the early winter cold, to arrive at to see if they could be of some help. Why? James some bleeding heart. Help anybody? If he ever was, he's not now. Triage. He sees barely a soul with enough life to be helped. It's horrible, it's tragedy, but that's how he sees it. But the parent in this household, incredibly wounded he thinks from lifelong series of abusers, and some self-inflicted wounds, is
I don't remember the following ever so crystallizing in my mind though in a hazier form it has been there. By way of Preamble, I suppose I have always thought, and maybe I heard it from my parents, probably my dad, and I think it's a platitude in society, if your house burns down but you're all safe you've lost little or nothing. In some form that Doctrine has always been in my mind, and my soul. But only sometime today did it come clear to me, and I might be wrong, but it came clear to me that all of the people I admire oh, and more importantly all those that I envied throughout history, that was clearly correct to my eyes. Oh, I'm Sophie Scholls, a teenager that was fighting the Nazi Uprising. You're going to kill me? Okay. It's a shame it's a nice day but it's time to go I guess, in the moments before her execution. And so it is with all of them. Do anything to their material environment and it does nothing to their quality of life. LSGIABeing.com
With my biological Offspring so many decades ago, the best I knew was to try and provide both, and there was much limitation in my circumstances, and I chose to have it constrain what I otherwise might have done. I tried to do both, offer them life, and survival in The Wider culture.
But James has not selected that as the optimal course for himself. Quite radically no. He has chosen to devote almost
Ever since the birth of my first biological I struggled with oh, well, the double standards idea. James, if it's right for your biological, why isn't it right for everyone? And the issue of devoting all my time to my Biologicals and not to others. I've made progress toward that over the years, but with significant progress last night or this morning. Something that had not clicked together in trying to see this whole picture. James, in at least Western culture, with your biological, of course you have a responsibility, and there's proximity, but there's something else that James just caught a glimpse of these last 12 hours or so. There is a legal right, a permission, by the culture, to intervene in the life of another if it is legally your child, that is not allowed in any other relationship. Room for creativity and contribution that is artificially inhibited, limited, prevented by our culture in every other relationship. Ants are much more extreme opportunity to influence another Soul than is available in any other relationship.
When he enters a new situation, a new manifestation of his mission, to raise protect energized and Power encourage the human soul, throughout his adulthood, he's learned to create devices like this to help him create build strengthen new muscle memory. It evolves and changes and it helps a whole lot. 0 is awful, negative, and 10 is satisfactory. Everything less than 10 needs Improvement.
Well, I've come too close to killing us both, me in the cold and travels, this heroic parent with unbelievable courage and stamina, with all my online incessant inquiries and chatter , in hindsight, draining hours per day of time that wasn't there to give.
I knew how much demands of time I was making, though not demanding it of course. But allowing it and being the instigator. I knew it, I often commented on it. But 1 person that didn't seem to really grasp it, was James. With all the right intentions, being as prepared as possible, using his time as well as possible while he was traveling for informed study, that's what he was trying to do.
But at what cost? So James is traveling for a month 1100 miles, and then in a freezing
I find it incredible blessing to have this potential opportunity to help this little family, and maybe a larger Community too. It seems an extraordinary fit to me on many levels but I don't know if it'll last till this evening or till the rest of my days. I take it one hour at a time. Hopefully I'll not lose track of that. My bags are packed
Neurotypicals or neurotoxics? Part of a brief dialogue with the parent on Whose property I'm quarantining.
J. This was rolling around in my mind this morning....I'm wondering to what degree there is a tendency among autistics toward some combination of the following. They actually refuse to not understand the real, concrete, world. They have to figure it out for themselves. Or how do they know it's real? They have to feel it and touch it in their own terms. Do they live the question 'why' more than the mass population? Are they Rebels in a healthy sense, they'll do something because they understand it's true, not because someone said so? I think this has very much been, and remains, my world. I have to be on the Spectrum
So up until 1100 miles ago, 35 days, the plan was that when the 16 months, nearly 13,000 mile, mission to travel through most of the Devided States was completed, Kansas was number 45, absolutely to head down to warm weather to rest, recuperate, replan, refigure... the wonderful decision was made, not so much, we're going to go to Central Michigan and help that friend, or at least try to, to raise those two wonderful special needs children.
That arrival was almost three or four da
Voice logs today and yesterday.
Roughly one week's worth of experience this now and fairly encouraging.
About 3000 watts of electrical energy are being applied each day. Roughly 1,000 Watts from the short solar days low on the horizon, which means 2000 Watts out of and through the batteries.
The batteries are in a soft sided thermal cooler of decent quality. 8 days worth of cycling has them at about 80° in this sealed soft-sided cooler. That surprised me. But there it is. A red cooler.
Last evening at 9 it was 36 degrees outside, quickly dropping 230 and below all night. This morning inside that cooler it was 40°. Safe for the batteries. Had I flipped on the $30 Walmart heating pad that snake through the batteries probably it would have been 60 degrees not 40 degrees inside this morning. Had I flipped it on for only a couple of hours. Or, had I filled the two hot water bottles with very hot water it would have been probably 70°.
Also, Oh my goodness a 15 or 20 mile-an-hour Tailwind reduces energy requirement by 50% and a headwind increases it by 50%.
James, instead of fighting for Humanity you're fighting for just two or three? You f****** hypocrite.
Much of the last two decades James has been scathing of those sitting on the sidelines instead of attempting to rescue humanity and decency. Scathing. Incendiary. And now in the final moments when the world's greatest criminal could be removed from office James has nothing to do with it and is racing to attempt to help one heroic soul in the work of raising to needy children. F****** hypocrite.
Except as for the last year or so James has admitted that his entire life he was wrong, the human species be on small tribes of 10,000 years ago was never able to be anything other than a cancer. This is history, and it is honest evaluation. Large groups cannot create the cultures that would create the majority of moral decent Humane people.
30 years ago my Elite dentist said, James, you could be a case study at the University classes that I teach on Dentistry. I've never seen anyone that does such grinding.
And over recent years I've lost some of those teeth so now all that pressure is distributed over less area, concentrated on fewer teeth.
And my night grinding is now all concentrated, all of that Force, on a tooth in the lower left and it is being pressed down into the jaw deeply terribly bruising the tissue and causing new bone to try and form. It's extremely painful.
Everything I've tried so far is failing. Two different night guards are now performed today and will be tried tonight but I'm not optimistic. I think it would require a carefully formed professionally done mouth guard to transfer some of the pressure to the gaps between my teeth and that requires being in one spot while the work gets done at a lab. And the earliest that would be possible would be Lansing about ten days or 15 days away.
I'm taking as little ibuprofen as possible, a third of what I would like, but well over what safe dosage probably calls for.
It is long since I've been so deeply moved, and that by only the introduction. Overwhelming.
A personal reflection really, but confession is more likely to get your attention.
For the last two or three months probably, after a long long long hard day in the last hour or so I have been having anywhere between three and five beers. I work online while I consume them and I experience them as a way to slow down and unwind. Not Recreation.
Now that cold weather has forced me to stay in one place for the first one of 4 days, my body is physically shutting down, paralyzed with fatigue. This is a cycle that I should know and recognize but it disguises itself from me mercifully until I have the opportunity to stop and slow down.
For the last month on and off I have severe mouth pain and I think finally last night it came clear as it did once before that it is a matter of extreme grinding at night on a mouthguard what is bruising the jaw on my lower left side, severely.
What's the connection of all this? I'm thinking that the substance, the beer, enabled me to unconstructive Lee deal with the huge stress that I put myself under but not as constructively as maybe meditation could do. And I intend to begin seriously experimenting with that starting now.
So beginning two nights ago I have dispensed with the beer and beginning today I will attempt to reinstitute and redevelop my meditation skills at least several times a day and I wonder if that might help a little bit with reducing my nighttime grinding.
Have I been hugely self abusing and the alcohol has helped me do that? I think so.
Are James and Saul in serious trouble? Don't know. Putting it out there.
What if this pain in James jaw becomes debilitating? What happens to Sol?
James is not concerned with himself or Sol per se, but with whatever value in Sol that otherwise might get to the mom in Michigan heroically raising two special-needs kids, that otherwise would be the destination for the value of Sol?
The pain in the jaw on the left hand side is generalized. Can't tell where the hell it's coming from. It was a two on a scale of 1 to 10 several days ago and is now up in the 7 range. James is currently 800 miles from where that Mom is and where he's headed. 10 miles an hour is the maximum speed.
And the weather is turning extremely adverse.
He has been doing 50 miles a day. Personally providing about a marathons worth of energy per day. Tomorrow he's likely to begin to try and double that, not the personal expenditure but figuring out how to recharge the batteries multiple times during the day.
Maybe the pain will go away. But 600mg of ibuprofen is barely touching it these last three hours. What if he becomes debilitated?
But he figures the closer he gets to Lansing the better the chances that someone could retrieve the vehicle. It is so vulnerable.
This may be my great, and sobering rediscovery.
The likelihood... of a population being made up of mostly great artists, Rembrandts, Monets, is the same likelihood of a population of mostly really good people, Lsgiabeing.com. Nil.
It may be that we are all born with the potential to be great artists but it takes such a rare extraordinary set of circumstances and environmental factors to bring that out that it's one in a million.
And so it is with the moral geniuses. I think we're all born to be that but only in an environment that optimizes it and that has always been and will always be extremely unlikely for we humans to provide to each other.
Our free will, our consciousness, our ability to understand ourselves as individuals, is our downfall. Eagles cannot decide not to be great fliers. They don't have that choice. We have the choice to decide not to be great human beings, great to each other. Unlike Eagles we have the choice to turn away from being great and instead to be small and selfish. And we almost invariably cannot resist that choice.
And above I say this may be my great rediscovery. I think it was first discovered by Jesus. The gate is narrow and few will enter in. He did not understand that at the beginning but by the end it was clear to him.
So we've been doomed to live beautiful small lives from the beginning with rare exceptions, and to exterminate ourselves as a species as we're now in the final stages of doing.
But there is still the rare soul it might be Unleashed we're protected from extermination, and that remains our work
46 States will not be achieved in 2020. 8 days additional would be required to achieve that by going up to North Dakota and it's just too late in the year to do that.
So, Creator willing, it's 20/20 it will only be 45 states with Kansas being number 45. Then depending upon whether James expect either to head West back to Lone Pine Whitney for several months to regroup, or more quickly South to Southern New Mexico to regroup.
Uncertain what comes next.