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7.10.2013

***** (detail) 'LOVING IS, EQUALS, MEANINGFUL WORK = LOVING. IT IS THE ONLY PURPOSE, ONLY JOY, FOR ANY AND EVERY BREATH WE ARE GIVEN.' Loving

I've been reading a lot of Albert Schweitzer lately, and today, Eleanor Roosevelt.  Maybe these two
are the two icons I'd point to in the last 1000 years as our Purest Saints, really. 

I think Eleanor's biggest concern on earth was what I call Meaningful Work - enough Meaningful (Loving) work for everyone.  For Schweitzer his moral Holy Grail was Reverence for Life, but the expression of that is Meaningful Work! Loving Service - Loving!  And, Loving, Meaningful Work is my conclusion as the most needed thing on earth, the most needed thing by EVERY human being.  And we have almost no meaningful work left in the US.

Cancer update

Sleep, sleep, sleep... study, sleep, sleep, sleep.... WTF!?!?!?

Hopefully this will pass, soon!

I've been reading Eleanor Roosevelt's last book - "Tomorrow is Now."  They say, she literally used her last breaths, last days, to write this, despite dozens of books, thousands of speeches... before.

My God, what a book, what a Soul.  Has there been a greater?

THE STAFF HERE, IN THE INFIRMARY, ARE VOLUNTEERS!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh my God, am I HUMBLED.  4 shifts I guess.  Late 20's, and 30's guys, af am.  Nice.  Nice.  Humble.  VOLUNTEERS.  Part of CCNV 'programs,' graduates.  Here.  I've just heard from one, the one who helped me out with my 'midnight talker' of a roomate last night.  I'm a master in counseling.  I couldn't dream of turning around folks from drugs, alcohol, crime... the way this young man does, IN HIS SLEEP.

My God.

Ghost of Christmas Present, to Scrooge, 'In the sight of God you may be more worthless than MILLIONS like this mans child.'

5.26.2013

***** NO. REALLY. REALLY!!! Pls hear me, deeply. It is all that I've learned - "LOVING IS, =, IS, THE CREATOR. THE CREATOR IS, =, IS LOVING. WHEN YOU ARE LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF, AND BY THE CREATOR. WHEN YOU ARE NOT LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF AND BY THE DESTROYER, ENTROPY, EVIL. THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL I'VE LEARNED. THAT'S ALL JESUS, ELEANOR ROOSEVELT, GANDHI, KING, TERESA OF CALCUTTA... LEARNED. ALL THE REST IS DETAILS.' Loving

***** NO. REALLY. REALLY!!! Pls hear me, deeply.  It is all that I've learned - "LOVING IS, =, IS, THE CREATOR.  THE CREATOR IS, =, IS LOVING.  WHEN YOU ARE LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF, AND BY THE CREATOR.  WHEN YOU ARE NOT LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF AND BY THE DESTROYER, ENTROPY, EVIL. THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL I'VE LEARNED. THAT'S ALL JESUS, ELEANOR ROOSEVELT, GANDHI, KING, TERESA OF CALCUTTA... LEARNED. ALL THE REST IS DETAILS.' Loving

5.11.2013

***** the purpose and function of un violence is to penetrate, to rip away, the veneer, the facade, the camouflage, to reveal underneath the true violence knowing that human physiology and psychology, even unvoluntarily, cannot remain evil, cannot allow evil, when it is clearly, sufficiently revealed. By far the most clearly I've ever seen this is in reading the book Iron Jawed Angels. See library tab this blog.

* the purpose and function of un violence is to penetrate, to rip away, the veneer, the facade, the camouflage, to reveal underneath the true violence knowing that human physiology and psychology, even unvoluntarily, cannot remain evil, cannot allow evil, when it is clearly, sufficiently revealed. By far the most clearly I've ever seen this is in reading the book Iron Jawed Angels. See library tab this blog.

4.30.2013

***** This is horror. At 62 I'm reading what I should have read at 16...

How iat 62 can I be learning what I should have learned a 16?

How can I just now be learning what civil rights struggle really is? The rebellious Rosa Parks by theoharris.

How can I just now be learning what women's suffrage struggle really was? A woman's crusade Alice Paul.

How can I just now be learning of one of the only true Christians, the essential writings of Albert Schweitzer?

How can I just now be learning what true Christianity is - the gorillas of Peace in El Salvador and South America against the anti-christ Satanism of Ronald Reagan's Americans?

It would have been more sane if for my for 62 years I'd have been taught that health came from a diet of sand and breathing from the exhaust of a car's tailpipe.

We're a culture of the matrix for the matrix in by the matrix, as Creator is my witness.

It is not a plot. It is mass, a multi-generational, insanity.

Jesus told us to come out of society not to repair it. The only solution was to abandon Titanic not to save it.

If you love your children, if you love anyone, you simply must do what I've finally begun to do. You have to find sanity, you have to discover what that means in the matrix.

3.05.2013

***** 'THE MOST CRUCIAL BOOK ON EARTH (sadly): Book 2 - "Resurrecting Your Unviolent Warrior - a Personal Trainer." Link was broken but now fixed - Tabs above. Loving

Book 2: "Resurrecting Your Unviolent Warrior" (Personal Trainer)

My daily Personal Trainer, constructed from lifelong study and practice of history's greatest Spirits and Sages - Jesus, Gandhi, Schweitzer, Wilson, Corrie, Teresa, Eleanor Roosevelt, Romero, Diane Nash, Alice Paul, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Adler, Maslow, Csikszentmihalyi, Tolstoy, Montagu, Sorokin, Frankl, Tom Peters, Senge, MLK Jr....

1.04.2013

***** For Creation's Sake - READ THESE: "Gospel," Tolstoy; "Resurrecting," Loving

"The Gospel in Brief," Leo Tolstoy.  THIS IS GANDHI'S DNA.  YES.  WITHOUT IT, NO GANDHI.  HOW CAN YOU LEAVE THIS UNSTUDIED!?!?!?!

"Resurrecting your Unviolent Warrior - a Personal Trainer," Loving.
I USE THIS EVERY DAY, to build into MY DNA the Wisdom of Jesus, Gandhi, Teresa, Alice Paul, Diane Nash, MLK Jr...
"BE[COME] THE CHANGE THE WORLD NEEDS TO BE."  Gandhi

Hurry.

I know of no substitute on earth for this Personal Trainer.  If you do, tell me!  If not, USE IT.

We're out of time.

And then this:  "Global Warming's Death - Fast."  Loving

Our children are out of time:

6.15.2012

Personal Trianer Introduction complete. Awaiting final comments on Book 2





Okay, so if you're an insanely humane warrior or insanely humane warrior want to be by whatever name, if you feel that you need to become the caliber of someone that did the freedom rides, many of the activists in SNCC, southern nonviolent coordinating committee, many in Tahrir square….  If you have the guts to realize that you may not be of that caliber yet, but are yearning to become that caliber then that's what this personal trainer is for.   I've had that yearning, I still have that yearning, to be better.  I've been burning with the desire to become something that could significantly, for one person, stand in the way of environmental Armageddon and by using, in essence, this tool for the last 10 months, I dramatically, dramatically progressed, as the lead video in this book sequence shows you graphically, the progress I made, and at the top of the spreadsheet, the Personal Trainer I'm about to show, there is a link to that initial video, these two live links in column B, the first two live links in blue that you see on your page, the first two entries
will take you if you're online, right to those videos.   And if you haven't seen them they are the right place to start, now.

I hope you've read the book one or several times, trying to drink in deeply the meaning of each of the 95 characteristics.  Those 95 characteristics are numbered here in column A, the numbers in column A correspond to the characteristic number in the book, and each of these links in blue in column B will take you to an online site that's been built with each of those essays.  So even after you've read the book several times and then begin using this Personal Trainer, you'll undoubtedly come to a title that just doesn't ring a bell, or don't ring clear enough, or that you disagree with; click on that link and it will take you directly to the essay.

Now a standard feature of Excel is that in a workbook there can be multiple pages, or tabs, along the bottom starting at the left.  Each of these sheets is of the same format in this trainer.  The first three are ones that I prefilled for thinking about each characteristic relative to what I know about Alice Paul, and two groups from the movie "Battle in Seattle," and that's what we've been looking at here.  If I click on the second, this I went through and thought about what I had seen in the movie Battle in Seattle, the people that I call the window smashers, I don't remember seeing them a lot, but there was one brief point. For me it was in stark contrast to the third tab here, which are the WTO Crane hangers, the male and female leads who we see early on dangling from one of the few things that makes me really scared, which is heights, and they are hanging from a really high crane.   I and my rating, if by any chance you can see this cursor, I rated it once,  I thought of those two characters once and I did a composite rating of them, scale of -5 being, oh my God, just totally on the wrong planet, pulling in the wrong direction, to +5 being, wow, nailed it.  Not with any thought of influencing you, except to empower you with my views for the window smashers.  Most of my ratings, which are on your sheet if you fire it up, starting in column F, I rated it once, going down through all 95 characteristics, and then I simply copied right to give you a better visualization - black areas are clueless -5,-4,-3 ,the most that I found for the window smashers was, oh, kind of neutral, zero, so it begins to get a lighter color there.  The numbers you put in which could be 4, 4.1, 4.2, -4.01... this is a gut rating, you can put in whatever you want and it will it will give you a visual representation from - 'in the dark,' black, to 'bright hot blue flame,' which is what you find with a five.

The crane hangers again, not to bias you at all friends but I think I owe you a picture of where my head is at.  You see quite a bit of blue flame when I think about the crane hangers from the Battle in Seattle movie you must see.

Incidentally, in each of these first three, which refers to movies that are available, hopefully you have them, hopefully you've seen them, but if you haven't, let's see, row six or so in the column D,E,F area,  here you would see a live link to where you could I get the movie Battle in Seattle, and in a similar place on the page you find the same thing for Iron Jawed Angels.  And for the fourth or fifth tab which is Freedom Riders. 

Now for freedom riders I did not at all go through and do a rating, because I wanted to give you in this case the opportunity to not have my input, to see the movie, and a link to it in row six  I believe, column F, watch the movie and then do your own rating for all 95 characteristics.  One of the tabs is of course, 'You."  

Now, if I haven't mentioned it, on each of these,  hopefully you can see that in column B, over to the right in row 2, you see a button called "insert new column.'  You don't need to do that yet because this first column D, which is in gray will is fresh and ready to begin to take your ratings.  So let's say you are rating yourself - the first characteristic is '001. Every breath square in harms way, shielding the innocents with my own body.  That's what the heart does.'  That's how the first characteristic reads.  'Wow, I'm really there,' you say to yourself.  I'm a '4.'  It just color-coded your entry, and it so happens that green, not black, not brown but green comes up for a '4.'  The second characteristic - '002. My theory is that the best time to cure a deadly epidemic, mass disease, mass insanity is now; well before it goes terminal.   'Wow, I'm really on with that.  I'm just staying focused and my sense of urgency is huge.  That's a 4.6 for me,' and 4.6 it's getting toward blue, hot flame.

This tool, and the color coding, is very much biased toward someone that probably like a Gandhi, probably like a King, almost has a binary rating scale for themselves -  A. I'm either what the world needs to see, or B. I might as well be clueless.  The point isn't to beat oneself up.  The point is to save our target clients.  So, the difference between a -5 and a zero is not going to get a whole lot of a color change, not much progress indicated; I mean, what's the real difference between a horrible doctor, and a really, really bad doctor?  It's going to be pretty dark really up through 3.5, or a 4, a 3 anyway, up through there is not much of a color change but from 3 to 5, is where we begin to be significantly hopeful to the world, then the colors accelerate in how much they change a relatively small improvement. 

So the third characteristic – '003. I'm being the change, I'm dying, totally giving up my life to save the world.'  

By the way, were all dying for something aren't we?  A date with that girl, recovery of my marriage, the promotion, the car, the meal.... At least in this society those are the things, but among the potent activists, INSHE warriors, they're dying for the suffering to stop.  They're dying for the injustice to stop.   They're dying for a future for humanity.  Were all dying for something friends.  We're literally giving everything we have for something.  So hopefully, you'll not be distracted by some sense of morbidness with my frequent use of such words as dying.

The twist of this is, the insanely humane, you know what, you know where their bodies are always?  Literally or figuratively they're in the way of harm, that's what the heart does.  That's what the good mom does, that's what the good dad does.  So, you know, if you find my language of 'dying' offensive, or morbid, then you probably are going to know really quick that this material isn't for you.  If on the other hand, you'll pay any price, any discomfort to try and do your part of saving the world from the insanity that's in the final stages of dooming us, you're probably going to be okay with the language, and eventually you may be pretty glad someone had the courage to remind us of what humanity does - it puts its body in the way.  To die?  No.  To be reckless?  No.  To save the innocents, to shield the innocents.

So, coming back to the Personal Trainer tool, next characteristic – '004. I'm being the change, I'm dying, totally giving up my life to be the change the world needs to see, and needs to be.'  'You know, I really don't think, I'm so distracted, I just don't have that mental focus, yet. I think that's a -2 for me now.'  So now we are getting down and into the in-the-dark colors.  Next characteristic – '005. I'm living, I'm fighting, I'm worthy because I'm dying for, every breath, I'm devoted to our neediest family, that's a Martin Luther King paraphrase.'  'Wow, that just doesn't apply to me right now. I get it.  It just doesn't apply to me right now. I'm about a -4;'  giving you an idea what the colors look like for the different numbers in the too.   So now we are in dark territory.

So that's the process.  Let's put in some values as though you had just completed all 95 characteristics for your first time, and now four hours later, you decide, 'you know what?  I want to go through this again.'  And by the way, that's the way I am in the first weeks of using a tool like this.  I don't have time to let slip by, my clients don't need me to 'try' but to win; I need to get fixed in my mind, I needed to become top of mind, top of consciousness with these characteristics, I need to reshape myself so they are part of me.   I just clicked the button that says 'insert column,'  it just put in a column with today's date;  it doesn't have time;  I don't know if we should be that anal about things right now.  However, you can have it automatically put in the time, just learn a little about Excel.   So here, you have a new column - it has pushed your previous rating, it's retained your prior rating, and pushed it off to the right.  So if you keep rating and adding columns your earliest ones will be pushed further and further over to the right.  Your most current ones will be more toward the left, right next to the black column, which is right next to the 95 characteristics; and it's all ready for you to put in ratings.

It's a real good idea that when you save your work the first time you "save as" instead of saving 'to' what I sent you, or what you downloaded, 'Aspiring Insanely Humane Personal Trainer,' putting your name at the end of the title, using 'save as,' and save it.  So now you'll have the original file in case anything ever corrupts your working sheet, so you could start over again.  Hopefully that will never happen.  (However, 'Jesus Saves,' and you should too.)  I strongly recommend however that every once in a while you do a 'save as.' 

So every once in a while, every four or five days that you've used this, and again do a 'save as' and create revisions for yourself.  So this is the one with your name, let's do a 'save as' on that as though you've been using this for five days and let's do an 'r1,' revision 1.  Call it what you want but every four or five days do that, this has a macro in it, you'll start creating a lot of data, and every once in a blue moon a spreadsheet will go corrupt, and you probably just don't want to lose the months worth of visual reference for yourself. 

And if you follow the steps I just recommended, including doing a 'save as' and adding your name so that you left the original file intact, freely go do some experimenting, some playing, see how this works.  See how the various links work.   Actually, why don't we do that now, see if we can get lucky, let's pull up the link 'my personal trainer,' I just click on that link, it takes us to an online version of the book,  insanely humane warrior.blogspot.com, to the 'intro to your personal trainer.' So with that you can go to the YouTube video which hopefully you've reviewed first.  But if you haven't, now is the time to do it.  It's a good introduction of the version of this, more importantly, to the process that brought me to the point where I could finally see this way to stop environmental Armageddon, this death fast, why I'm here in front of the Canadian Embassy, with the first weapon we've had that can actually, that can actually stop this.  Hunger strike, Self immolation, too weak.  All of this covered in something called, "Global Warming's Death. Fast," a book which can be found on both of the blogs 'Start Loving' and blog 'Tracking Plan B.'  So, this is simply to show you that the links are live.  This link brought up that introductory video which is interspersed with me, but also graphics interspersed explaining the tool again. 

Don't struggle with this friends.  I have tried to provide you plenty of good material, please go to it, use it.  If you're one of the ones reviewing this soon and now, then for the next three, four days I expect to be available on e-mail start_loving@yahoo.com and by all means feel free.  If you do your part of the work, and contact me and let me help you through, and then maybe you'll become trainer to others.

So 'insert column;' on several of these, you'll see links to movies that by God you need to see.  I'm sorry, you just need to see them.   Battle in Seattle, Freedom Riders, Iron Jawed Angels, absolute must sees. 

Limber up by seeing those movies or recalling them if you've seen them, and then giving your own ratings for each criteria, and if you like, look at mine, and if you don't want to look at the ratings I gave, delete mine, but limber up without getting personal to yourself first, by looking at independent references, Alice Paul, Crane Hangers, the window smashers, the Freedom Riders.   After you see that movie, using the next tab, think about the environmental movement today. 

You know, Eisenhower, Allied commander of World War II was known as a consummate planner, and he said, 'Plans are worthless, but planning is everything.'  Preparing the mind, shaping the mind, developing the mind, that's what this tool is all about. 

Godspeed friends.

3.18.2012

det. 'Establishing the 'other side:' Luke Skywalker did, French Resistance did, etc, etc.' sLoving

I never saw this before.  How infinitely easier to become an opposition, an effective [unviolent] warrior, when one can see a True, Righteous, Goodly, Noble... 'side' to join.  'Be the change the world needs to be.'  They show a 'different way to be.'  That's the Start.  That's the beginning.

All hope springs from that.  Be the person fighting unviolently, as a way of Life, as a way of Being, for our Global Neediest.  Just being that, holding the position, being the position, being the 'way,' if the position is held long enough, despite overwhelming odds, THAT ALONE, makes it real, makes it something evident, something possible, something that can be joined - I can do that, I will do that.

At the end, when Luke is fighting the Emperor, I always saw that as Darth facing, seeing for the first time, really, the choice between his son, and Empire.  I now see it in a much better light.  Darth saw that there was a different side, a different way to be, a different direction to fight for, and he saw that it was preferable.

In the movie Iron Jawed Angels, we saw in the beginning, Alice Paul and her sergeant at arms, organizing outside a mill.  A thin, eastern European immigrant woman, a poor mill worker, dismissed them, at least that was her intention, but when she saw that they didn't brush aside, she saw they were substantial, that they stood for something, they became material, they became a real alternative way of being, and she made that choice.  Later in the movie, spoiler alert, a hideous matron guard, cruel, brutal, mean..., well, things changed.

'Be what the world needs to be.'  This is the work.  If you walk the 'Path,' you establish the Path, you make it real, visible, a choice, that others didn't have before, but they do now.

3.12.2012

BREATHTAKING SUFFRAGIST MOVE. MUST SEE: Iron Jawed Angels here

 Full series on youtube here. No excuses.

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Suffragist Sheroine Alice Paul. O.M.G.

12.19.2011

Note to a friend, my age, contemplating Leaping to a Life of Radical Service, Insane Humanity.

Wonderful, wonderful note.  I'm deeply touched, and honored by your sharing.

I consider your sharing Sacred.  I've chosen to reply forcefully.  YOU need to  decide whether it is Helpful, or not, to read my comments.........  Truly.

You are looking in the right direction, very much so.  Very much so.

I fear for you, and us, that it is too little, too late.  What I mean is, the direction of the path you lay out is Right; but the speed with which you outline traversing it, and all the caveats, and conditions...

'START, HAVE SOME SYMPATHY MAN!  IT IS DAMN INTIMIDATING LOOKING IN THE  DIRECTION I OUTLINED!'  'START, I JUST GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, BOTH LEGS ARE BROKEN, MY SPINE IS BRUISED, I ACHE ALL OVER... AND YOU ARE TELLING ME I'VE GOT TO SPRINT OUT OF THE WAY OF THAT ONCOMING TRUCK!!?!?!!??!!?'  :-)

'If you pick up your Cross, it WILL cost you son, daughter, wife, husband, farms....' Mandela, Gandhi, Jesus, Romero, Bonhoeffer....

'Let the dead bury the dead.'

'If you look back, you are not worthy [ABLE] to follow Me.'

'The parable of the feast - 'Oh, I'd love to come Lord, but I just bought an ox....'

Jesus, Our Father, they never tell us what THEY are going to do TO us.  They  tell us what we are going to do TO OURSELVES, if we don't bow to the Truth, The Truth, that They have outlined some of to us.

I hear you saying, in effect, 'YES START, I SEE that the roof collapsed on the  elementary school, with kids inside!  I'm gunna run in to help!  But I have to settle my affairs, take a course, get guidance, pack some water, and then I'll be ready!'  Yes, and the kids will be dead.

My God Chris, I am not belittling, but rather Honoring what you shared with me. YOUR INCLINATIONS ARE SO CORRECT!  But pretty quick after you begin to learn to hang-glide, you either leap off the cliff, or you don't, and if you kinda try to slide of the cliff gradually, you crash, or Truly, stay on what was to be only your departure point, forever.

You are seeing that you need to get out of the way of the oncoming truck, and to help others do so as well!  That's great!  But all that really matters is whether you actually GET you and others out of the way of the truck, IN TIME. Tho we must NEVER for an instant forget, 'FULL EFFORT IS FULL SUCCESS.'  Gandhi.  'WE ARE CALLED TO BE FAITHFUL; WE ARE NOT CALLED TO BE SUCCESSFUL.'

It can't happen nearly, nearly, nearly as painlessly, or as well calculated as you lay out. 

Pray on what the World, Our Father's Family needs from you.  How fast, how far do They need you to move?  Can they really wait?  Yes, the risks you lay out are real!  But can They, the neediest, afford for you to be so cautious? No.  Nor reckless.

Had I not been able to leave a fairly large pile of wealth for the woman I  was married to, and for my grown bio-kids for finishing college, would I have lept?  Possibly not.  Probably so.  John, Paul, Andrew... did.  By leaping as  I did my bio-sons totally severed relations with me; as the relations were  severed between the Prodigal Son and Father; Jesus and his bio-fam, pretty much; Jesus and the Rich Young Man, who Jesus loved.  But in all these cases,  by virtue of allowing the separation, the rupture, the distance... an opportunity was created for the Lost, to see, and Choose, and Return home.  'No one comes to me except that the Father brings him.' 

Jesus didn't decide for himself and his apostles to be bums, living off the land, etc.  He saw that what was required was total, immediate action, NOW, and the consequence was they were a bunch of bums, living off the land, and  what people handed out.  Things have only gotten worse, more desperate, more urgent.

Two last  thoughts.  Focusing on those 'farthest from God.'  This is really difficult, but very important.  I think I know what you are grabbing at, and that is Good! But we all need to learn a lot more about this.  The good MD, comes around the bend of a remote country road, and there before her are hundreds of bodies that have been thrown out in a terrible plane crash.  Does she go to the one furthest from life?  She goes to those she has the best chance of bringing the biggest distance from death, to Life, in time.  This is really, really, really tricky to see - I've not figured it out yet nearly enough. 

This is all I can share, so far.  When you go fishing, do you get down in the water with scuba gear and visually pick out which fish you want to catch?  No. You go to an area you guess is promising, and throw in the line, and wait for a while, and see if you get any nibbles.  Jesus told us to sow, sow, sow... on the rock on the path among the brambles.... but  yes, when we could SEE a swine, to not throw before it.  Who in Jesus day did Jesus assess were the farthest from God, the least likely to be helped?  The Church folk, (Jews), and the Priests and Pastors - they had devoted their lives to remaking God in their own image, and inoculating themselves to the Truth.  And so it is today. [Start, ARE YOU ASSUMING I'M NOT WAY AHEAD OF YOU ON ANY OR ALL OF THIS?!? No.  :-)  ]

Last thought, THERE IS NO CHURCH.  Don't shy from creating one - this is our work!  HOWEVER, THE CHURCH IS THOSE IN WHOM OUR FATHER DWELLS, IN TOTAL CONTROL.  Do they flock?  Do they build buildings for themselves? Do they sing for themselves?  Etc. Etc. Etc???? THEY GO OUT!!!!!! AND TEND THE SHEEP THAT ARE GREATEST IN NEED!!!!!  Did the apostles flock?  Did Jesus build buildings, organizations...?

'A church is the place people go out from.' MLK Jr.

'Go out into the houses, two by two; if they accept your Peace....'

'We must preach the Gospel, every day, all day long! And occasionally use words, to do so.' Assisi.

"Example is not the major thing in influencing people; it is the only thing."  Schweitzer.

With much Love,

sl

ps: 

xx sl

pps:
Your note of this morning brought this to my mind, too:


xx sl
ppps:   To my friends reply, and expression of profound agreement, to the long email above:

Friend, again, I consider this dialog with you on this immensely consequential personal journey, immensely Sacred.  But we are talking of the ENTIRE Gospel you and I.  NOTHING is as consequential.  NOTHING.  Everything else is symptomatic of getting the Gospel right, or wrong.

'Heart' IS OUR FATHER'S KINGDOM, and 'Head,' when Head is IN CHARGE, is Satan's.  I continue to do all in my power to make available at my blog everything I've been, and am being shown about the 'Path.'

I've been on that 'Path' for 13 or so years now.  I swear on Our Father that if I had doubts of that Path, that I'd found It, that the walking of it IS Heaven itself, IS Salvation ITSELF, I'd tell you.  IT IS HEAVEN ITSELF.  IT IS SALVATION, ITSELF.  Yes, it absolutely looks like HELL to the Head/Flesh.

FYI, if you've not seen this in my recent posts, my level of Hoplessness for the world is at levels in recent weeks way, way, way, way beyond anything I could have imagined even months ago, and my level of hope has descended each of the last 13 years.  Am I Hopeless, without Hope?  I am not.  I have no Right to be Hopeless.  Today's young, Eternity's Children, have a Right to my Hope.

But I think more and more of what little I know of the Monks that 1000 years ago went and lived in caves, as I understand it.  I think I get it.  They too, objectively, saw so little hope, they went to preserve what little there was of Goodness in themselves, for future generations.

No, I don't counsel anyone, me or you, to go into 'caves.'  No, you and I are at the scene of a planetary 'plane crash,' and before us are the twisted, writhing bodies of 7 billion today, and 10's of billions to be born, if you, I or someone(s)  don't bring Our Father (BY WHATEVER NAME(S), BY WHATEVER CREED(S)....)  DOWN TO EARTH. 

If you haven't watched these, PLEASE DO.  NOW. They are short.  If you HAVE watched these, DO IT AGAIN, NOW:



My point in all this is, YES, YOU ARE CONTEMPLATING LEAPING OFF TOTALLY INTO THE MOST DANGEROUS, MOST DEADLY, MOST CRUCIAL BATTLE IN HUMAN HISTORY. THIS IS IT.  How can we do less, if we love anyone at all?  I imagine sometimes, how the spouses of the one group in this country I have any respect for, our men and women in Uniform, how the spouses, and bio-children react when they hear from their spouse - 'I enlisted today.'  Some are proud, of course.  But it is the ones that feel outraged, betrayed, abandoned... that I find instructive, illuminating, of my own journey, of my own RESPONSIBILITY TO THEM, to those MOST DEPENDENT, MOST MY RESPONSIBILITY.  So, I offer you one last thought -


Not that you should care, but NEVER will there be a second when I will judge you, what you do, or what you don't do, personally.  How could I be that stupid? I'm not.  Only YOU know you well enough to possibly know what you should or shouldn't do from moment to moment.  However, to my horror, I find that I KNOW NO ONE ELSE BESIDES SL THAT HAS FOUND, AND IS WALKING, THE 'PATH' IN  THIS AGE.  I don't say there are none, I PRAY THERE ARE 1000's!!!!!! I SUSPECT THERE ARE SOMETHING FEWER THAN 1 IN A MILLION, ABOUT 7,000 today. But I say I KNOW  OF NONE.  Point being, to my horror, I, in horrible solitude, know a lot about the Path, and WILL offer, when it seems appropriate, about what I know of it.

xx sl

ps final:    

The greatest Revelation that yet Our Father has given to me, and just within the last 4 weeks or so, is the concept, and words - Insane Humanity, Insanely Humane.  This encapsulates everything, EVERYTHING I've learned of importance to day. 

If 4 years ago I'd had these words, my tattoos would have been different, if I could have figured out how to cram them on my face!  LOL.

If Jesus wasn't Insanely Humane, and Bonhoeffer, Camara, Eleanor Roosevelt,  Teresa of Calcutta, MLK Jr.... well, then I just don't know anything.

And of course by Insanely Humane I mean nothing more, less or else than - CLINICALLY SANE.

What you are contemplating is leaving the Clinically Insane, Deadly, Affloholic, Sodom and Gomorrahic domain that our sickest of all cultures fights to the  Death to defend as Sanity.  It isn't.  It is Satan on the verge of winning it all, forever.

For you, and us, I Pray for you now.  There have been only two Einstein-calibre psychologists - Viktor Frankl and Alfred Adler.  Adler said, as a clinical psychologist, 'The correct, the Healthy decision typically lies in the direction of Courage (Loving, the Heart, properly understood).'  Everything else is typically, Insane.

sl 

12.11.2011

SL here. A note to my 3 Friends.

Our words are so inadequate for all that is of consequence.

The word 'despair' is the best I can think of to describe what I'm feeling with respect to the future, the IMMEDIATE, and ETERNAL future of Humanity, Earth, Creation.  Anything less than despair
and I'd be quite a dead husk of a creature, and/or delusionalas to how bleak it is.  We don't have a technology problem, a resource problem, an energy problem, a social science problem.
We have a Heart problem, a Soul problem, a Humanity problem, a Sanity problem, clinically.  The problem with the world 'despair' is that it suggests debilitation or dysfunction.  I'm quite fully
functional, but yes, I feel despair, deeply.  
As to the outlook for my actions - in crisis, we only learn by diving  in - all Revolutionaries of Change, of Love, of Humanity, they dive in  first.  And so it is with me, and this is the choice I continue to make.  When the notion of ceasing food and water for days, weeks, months...  years (if they kept me on life support) came to me, I examined it  carefully, tested it, and when it seemed Right, seemed sound, I  moved in that direction, and alerted you.  Only when one leaps  into a situation can further, accelerated learning happen.  What  I may be learning, once again, more deeply, with more data,  more experience, is that
A.  In a graveyard, 2011 US, such a move is relatively  pointless;
B. I've been correct in recent months to place ALL hope,  for whenever there might be of Hope, in Insane Humanity, that  many of  us evidence from time to time, and that one out of a  million come to and Live with every breath.  (I like the term   Insane Humanity - it really captures, but like all our language,  'denial,' and our other defenses can trash it real quick. )  Therefore,  it may be that I am to serve by moving more deeply into, resigning  myself much more fully to living in a 'cave,' my ever increasing  solitude, isolation... devoting myself to the possibility that  directly or indirectly I ever meet someone that is desperate  to give their Insane Humanity control of their lives, but need  help in taking that step.  It may be that my primary responsibility  will be preparing centrally for such a moment, that I fully don't  expect to come. 

With amusement, and seriousness, the  image of Obi-Wan stays with me, and the WLODI (Wage Love  or Die) Warriors.  All hope, ALL hope lies in this.  Jesus would  agree I think - he and his hand-picked apostles were the equivalent.  I don't think He ever foresaw that more than one in a million of  us would find Life - our Insane Humanity.  I've resisted, and still do, this notion, but  that is out of cowardice and denial on my part.  "Many  are called by few choose to follow."  "The gate is narrow, and  few will enter in."  The Insanely Humane is who He meant.  Who do you know that fits this description?  Harriet Tubman  did, and Eleanor Roosevelt, Mother Jones, Dietrich Bonhoeffer,  Jesus, Assisi, Teresa..., the Insane Humane.  1 in a million.  The Yeast.  The Levin.  The Mustard seed.  The Yeast isn't the  bread, nor the Levin.  The seed isn't the tree.  They are but  trace elements.  I hope I'm wrong, but objectively, I think not.  And now there is no Yeast, no Levin, no Mustard Seed. 

There is a good chance that Christmas eve I'll begin yet another  hunger strike, but probably taking liquids, able to live off of body  fat recently acquired, but not much, for maybe 15-40 days.  I  foresee being much in front of the White House, possibly playing,  over and over, the Plan B 3.0 W/O the BS video, audio I'm half way through  creating now; for my own education / development, and for the rare passerby  with any Heart for Humanity.  In effect I must be on my 10th  reading of Plan B 3.0, and every day I read other sources on the  subject, too.  I'm not stupid.  And really, I'm not all that slow a learner.  The scope, scale, degree of the horror that we humanoids of  2011 are condemning all of creation to, forever, is vast, so unimaginable,  so totally overwhelming... that it takes so long for it to sink in.  Think Eternal Holocaust.  Studies reported conclusively that the  Germans were all very 'nice,' 'normal' folks.  And so are we.

My feeling that it was right for me to advise you three of my  plans has pretty much left me, I think.  I can and do manage  my work on my own.  I experience myself like a Space Probe,  fired off into the unknown, sending back what it sees, for whatever  Good that might do.  I expect to continue my practice of doing  so at my Blog, if you ever have interest.  I've pretty much discontinued
posting to my FB page, or YouTube (except as a video repository)  as these are pretty much sites of all talk, all spectating, no  action. 

Brother, my Will and Testament, should they ever be needed, will  be on my person, and will mention you as the point of contact for  any belongings on my person, and you know my intent that anything
I have be liquidated and proceeds to Diane for her work.  I'll probably  soon find, and resend the copy from last time so you have it.

xx sl

Note of interest:  Jesus, and Obi-Wan, for that matter, there came a point  where they served better by allowing their life to be taken by the raging  inhumanity around them, but not until there was, were, those of latent  Insane Humanity assembled that it might ignite.  I don't see that.  Yet.  "No one comes to me except that the Father brings them."  Maybe it is  for me to wait, prepare, get ready, in the unlikely event....