***** James, how would you suggest we... Fill in the blank... Free Palestine, stop global warming, stop fascism in America...? My reply: If I want a Mercedes, new, from a showroom, it really doesn't matter whether I go in with dollar bills, the checkbook, a credit card, a bank check... Etcetera. What matters is the amount. And, oh by the way, if I instead of the amount I go in with lip service, conversation, begging, demanding, taunting, demonstrating, tantruming, Facebook posting, article writing, meeting, 2 hour demonstration... They might tolerate it for a few moments and then they rightfully are going to get me arrested, and no onlooker will object. Lip service, words... wanting... whining, demanding... does not achieve anything worthwhile, though it does give you the total Destruction of one's credibility, moral potential, respect in the eyes of onlookers , worthiness in the eyes of onlookers. Contrary to the criminally insane dictum of my boomer generation, there is no free lunch! When enough of us heroically, lovingly, courageously, selflessly, seriously... pay enough of our own personal lives to be the price of freeing Palestine it will happen. Lip service doesn't help, in fact, it disperses our energy, gives us the delusion that we're making any difference, and totally destroys our credibility in the eyes of potential joiners. An individual, then individuals, then tens of thousands of individuals devoted their very being to get rid of Mubarak and finally it was enough. The same in the American Civil Rights Movement. The same in getting rid of South African apartheid. It is not how we pay the price. It is that we pay the price. I cannot pay the price of anyone else, but I can, or cannot, pay the entire price of my own life.
***** James, how would you suggest we... Fill in the blank... Free Palestine, stop global warming, stop fascism in America...? My reply: If I want a Mercedes, new, from a showroom, it really doesn't matter whether I go in with dollar bills, the checkbook, a............
***** Truly, I have pretty much concluded that among the things I have been wrong on for most of my life, incorrect on, is the notion that during Jesus day he had many followers, if only for a hundred years or so. I no longer think this was true. I don't think anyone got him then, oh, there were probably a few. And no one has gotten him since. Well, I mean, Martin Luther King did, a handful of others, but tens of thousands, millions, a billion or more today? Not more than hundreds at most.
Truly, I have pretty much concluded that among the things I have been wrong on for most of my life, incorrect on, is the notion that during Jesus day he had many followers, if only for a hundred years or so. I no longer think this was true. I don't think anyone got him then, oh, there were probably a few. And no one has gotten him since. Well, I mean, Martin Luther King did, a handful of others, but tens of thousands, millions, a billion or more today? Not more than hundreds at most.
Pic. To be able to sit here and speak the truth has cost me everything. It has cost me nothing of value. It has given me everything of value.
***** SPDF Day 46: pic. The only purpose of my life is, was, and will ever be, to serve my global neediest. And you?....
SPDF Day 40: 'The people we call the prophets I think are the earliest dissident intellectuals, and they’re treated like most dissident intellectuals—very badly.....' Noam Chomsky
Gandhi was adamant and explicit that he was just scratching the surface of the practice, perfection, expression of nonviolent action.
So I'll not apologize for my own self recognized inadequacy in expressing, let alone fully grasping, my own attempts at radically powerful, utterly transformative, world direction changing.... If only in the attempt, efforts.
And let me be explicit on this last point. No part of me is interested in being a band aid, a slight dragon on, the extermination of the Palestinians, the elimination of the final shreds of democracy in the United States, or the end of all livable life on earth. I'm not interested in 'doing something about' these issues. I'm interested in stopping these atrocities, or failing spectacularly in the attempt as is of course profoundly likely.
I have no respect for the efforts of me or anyone to confront these issues. I disrespect that. I profoundly disrespect that. I see it as profound cowardice. If your child is dying and only an impossible miracle can save your child, I have nothing but the profoundest disrespect for the efforts of the parent that 'tries to do something' rather than devotes their very being to trying to be the miracle. And so I feel about my efforts, and those everyone else above the age of 12, in the face of these three unfolding Armageddon's that I frequently mention.
As I've spoken before, and as I will continue to speak, each time trying to better understand, and better articulate, what has me in its grasp... Why this playing chicken with death that I am now in the midst of being past 30 days of no food, and thereby passing the time threshhold when physical death, permanent mental impairment, blindness and such things become a physical potentiality?
Why playing chicken with death as I am? Well, I am not 'playing' anything.
I am waging every breath, every be of my heart, to beat all three of these impending Armageddon's. And that's impossible, and that has never been done, and no one has tried, and no one is trying, so I'm on my own to plan, strategize, analyze, attempt, invent, articulate....
Early in this death fast I wrote a centrally important post, must read, on the law of social change, which is the law of suffering, which is the law of paying a high enough price. If I had $1,000,000,000,000 it would not be enough to stop all three, or even one, of these impending Armageddons.
I do not have $1,000,000,000,000. I do not have $1000. I have no care about either because they are irrelevant to what is needed.
What I do have is that which is of ultimate value among the few human beings that are alive, the ultimate value, a human life, my own human life. This is what Gandhi recognized in himself and others as the ultimate value to be wielded for goal. This is what Martin Luther King Jr. recognized as the ultimate value that if wielded intelligently, boldly, aggressively, with consummate generosity, with total courage... could buy a substantial if not huge change in world, or at least national, direction.
What I'm doing is nothing more or less than what these greatest among us have attempted before. I have studied, and I study, with every fiber of my being, their examples, their lessons, their spirits, their essence, to attempt to incorporate in myself and in my efforts every drop of wisdom, of value, that is to be derived from their prior efforts, and dozens of those like them throughout history.
I am profoundly accountable for the constructive use of the life I have been given for the service of humanity. It would be practically impossible for me to take that responsibility more seriously than I do. I experience my life as a sacred trust I have been given to be used purely in the service of humanity. And I feel the profoundest joy and realizing that's the only reason I have that life.
I could not take that responsibility more seriously. I totally understand that that means that in the face of three of the greatest calamities ever faced by the human species, that means that if I am being conservative, if I'm being cautious, if I'm being careful, if I'm being timid, if I'm being self protective... I have already desecrated that sacred life that I have been given, and all of humanity that I was placed here to serve, just as you were placed here to serve all of humanity.
If I were interested in cars as I was as a sick individual in this culture through my forties; if I saw an automobile that set me afire with lust; lusting to possess that car, and I had access to the tens and tens of thousands of dollars that it would require to purchase that car, and maybe it was the only car of its type that would be available for many many months, I might figuratively yearn with all of my being that I could get immediate access those funds of mine, fast enough, and deliver them quickly enough, and favorably enough, then I could secure that car. On smaller or larger scales this would be deemed profoundly normal and appropriate and even admirable behavior in our sickest of all cultures.
Well, that is the desperation that I feel in my attempts to parlay my life, in whatever most intelligent form of delivery I can conceive from instant to instant, based on changing circumstances that I monitor instant by instant every waking breath. That is the same desperation I feel in delivering my life in the way that will best confront and thwart the three looming Armageddon's.
What I am attempting to do should be so easy to understand. It is so easy to understand for me that it is hard for me to imagine any other way. But I wasn't always of this mind. I was raised to survive and thrive in the Matrix, not outside of it, as I've been these last 10 years or so; well, really, for all of my life, but explicitly these last 10-15 years.
It is obvious based on my total isolation and solitude in my activist work, and never as much as in this final campaign, that no one understands what I'm doing. Yes, no one understands what I'm doing, because were there wiser than I, who understood what I was doing, and perceived that it was a suboptimal way of pursuing the goals I am pursuing, they would have the kindness and compassion and humanity to speak to me from that obvious depth of understanding that they had and to attempt to show me the error of my ways.
And it no time in the last 10 years of my devoted activism has anyone, ever, at anytime, even approached doing that.
***** SPDF vlog Day 33: I SEE NO LIFE, NO 'NEVER AGAIN,' NO HUMANITY, NO SANITY... JUST WALKING DEAD LIBERALS. NO?
We don't look down on them! We're not lead to be derogatory to them! We're not lead to feel superior to them! But absolutely we are led to understand them as not-alive, walking dead people.
And the one in a million that are alive don't go away on vacation someplace, they fight with their vary beings to try and give life to the millions or billions that have been deprived of it!
Tomorrow is Easter, a pagan holiday, candy, an orgy of food, surely one of the most segregated, least Christ-ian, least Universal-Family days on the planet. Totally un Christ like. But somewhere tucked in there is the memory of a man named Jesus who in the best way he knew how, gave his life exactly and precisely to wake up his fellow human beings who he's saw to a person to be walking dead people.
Were Jesus is to be alive today, were Neo and Morpheus to be alive today, would they see things any differently than they did in the time that they existed? They would not!
And in the case of The Matrix, Jean Baudriallard, the French philosopher, conceived of that story exactly to show us what he thought we were in his lifetime, which I understand was written in the late nineties or thereabouts.
Was Jean slandering, belittling, looking down on... us?
Was Jesus slandering us? Jesus was horrified for us. He did do anything and everything with his life for the sole purpose of trying to give life to us.
Morpheus and Neo did the same!
I see it the same way as they did that and do. EXACTLY.
I want more than anything for life to come to my current brothers and sisters for themselves and so that there is life for all of creation in the future. And like them, no credit to me, so far I am aware of no price I wouldn't pay to give a prayer of that happening.
NOTICE: The exceptions prove the rule. ISM, Indigenous peoples standing against the machine, some of the Christian Peacemaker Teams.... But that's about it. The chicken is involved the pig is committed. Jesus was committed. Morpheus, Neo, Gandhi, Selma marchers, Tahrir Square... were committed. 2015 US 'activists' are involved... walking Dead in the face of ALL THAT IS GOOD IN THE FINAL SECONDS OF BEING DESTROYED. WALKING DEAD... BY DEFINITION... NO VITAL SIGNS.
SPDF vlog Day 31: Paragons of mental health, who are they? Martin Luther Kin Jr., Malala, Gandhi, Abraham Lincoln, Malcom X, Oscar Romero.....
The greatest of all of the formal psychologists Alford Adler said that health, the healthy choice, tends to lie in the direction of courage. For him the hallmark of health was a social interest.
The greatest psychologist of all in that the truth of his insights have had a greater impact on humanity than the insights of anyone else, I'm referring to Jesus, his core notion was universal family, one Father making us all brothers, and his life and words commanded us to go and live our lives accordingly. Lay down your life for your brother. The good shepherd lays down his life for the flock. As you do unto the least of these you do unto me. Whoever would hold onto his life shall lose it, whoever would lose his life shall gain it. Love as I have loved, and of course he ran into the arms of death. King ran into the arms of death, as did Malala as did Gandhi, as did Malcom X.
Only the most twisted would perceive that they had a death wish, that they wanted to die, that they wanted to be Martyrs, whatever that means. And today it means some sort of twisted slender. They wanted to ransom and redeem their suffering brothers and sisters.
For all intents and purposes there is only one way for the human being to get what they want and that is to pay the price for it. The ultimate price that anyone can pay, and therefore the ultimate power that any individual has to affect what they want to affect. Is their life, paying their life is the ultimate price they can pay for the ultimate value that they want.
As Dr. King said so often and so many different ways, the person who does not know what they would die for is not equipped to live.
Whoever thinks that their own life is their ultimate value is already dead. All of the individuals I mentioned lived, live, accordingly by whatever belief they might have. They live accordingly because this is the law of our DNA, it is what is written in our DNA because it was ultimately addaptive for having our species produce generation after generation of human beings.
This healthy nature is rarely seen in our sick culture, our western culture which is more and more the world's culture which has embraced a lower side of human nature, the capacity for morbid and suicidal self centeredness. But this is not what we see in aboriginal cultures, human beings in an environment like that which we were designed for. This is not seen in other species, this morbid and suicidal self-centeredness. It is not seen in any species except for cells that become cancerous which no longer devote themselves to the well being of the group but only to their own selfish interests.
SPDF Day 30: "The "true martyrs" of today, men and women who "offer their lives with Jesus" for their Christian faith. Their witness, in imitation of Christ's sacrifice, "reflects a ray of this perfect, full and pure love [of Christ]," he said. Theirs, he added, "is a service of Christian witness to the point of bloodshed. It is the service Christ did for us, he redeemed us."... " example of a man of our times, and many others, strengthens us in offering our lives as gifts of love to our brothers in imitation of Jesus," he said.