1. Meditate on this question for as many minutes, or hours as necessary to arrive at a deep, gut level, heart level answer: What would you do if - SUPPORT OF FUNDS, FRIENDS AND FAMILY WERE NO ISSUE?
2. When you arrive at a strong get sense, BEGIN. DO THAT NOW!!!!!!, or say goodby to Life, Love, Passion, Meaning, Worth to Humanity, Destiny, Calling, Fulfillment, God...; and say hello to emptiness, sadness, meaninglessness, harmfulness to others (you'll spread the disease), waste of life, joylessness, lifelessness... TRAGEDY.
This is the path to Life traveled by ALLLLLLL that have found It. Can you think of any exceptions? There are none.