What an odd conception for someone that does not believe in a sentient creator.
There is low grade anxiety all day. James determined that the best plan was to leavesaul in the Walmart parking lot having amply informed to the management of Walmart and gotten their approval that it was fine. Several hours were spent at the library. Another several hours walking with another hour and a 1/2 left to go. And several hours in a buffet fueling the human engine.
James finds a useful concept, solace in creator's hands to do with what creator thanks. This after James sister on everything that he knows to be responsible. It is not that he doesn't care. It is a way