The central questions of life are, right now, where does Creation need me to be, what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions, make of their life an answer to those questions, have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.
Showing posts with label Duty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Duty. Show all posts
11.11.2016
8.25.2016
Soon I expect to be unfriending those who have shown through their inaction that they are not. Through our Mass delusions we......
Soon I expect to be unfriending those who have shown through their inaction that they are not. Through our Mass delusions we are killing ourselves and killing all decent future. None of us should enable that, none of us should support that, should we? Let's be honest.
4.25.2016
***** This is horrible. This is wrong. I'd likely do the same in year 68 of being terrorized, tortured, terminated, exterminated. And Israel, America, would have damn sure done infinitely worse infinitely sooner. 'Palestinian bus bombing targets civilians....' For Gandhi the unforgivable sin was to not protect one's loved ones by whatever means necessary.
https://www.hrw.org/news/2016/04/25/israel/palestine-hamas-bus-bombing-targets-civilians
12.06.2015
The only possible Savior is a mass, sustained, mobilization of millions and millions of American citizens who take to the streets and for as many years as it takes to not leave until the non violent revolution is complete. Yes, this isn't going to happen. Yes, it is a pipe dream. But yes, it is the only way.
The only possible Savior is a mass, sustained, mobilization of millions and millions of American citizens who take to the streets and for as many years as it takes to not leave until the non violent revolution is complete. Yes, this isn't going to happen. Yes, it is a pipe dream. But yes, it is the only way.
7.13.2015
***** Sons of man have nowhere to lay their head. Loving without living in absolute solidarity is not Loving. That which is not Loving is exactly that which is at war against Creator, Creation.
Sons of man have nowhere to lay their head. Loving without living in absolute solidarity is not Loving. That which is not Loving is exactly that which is at war against Creator, Creation.
7.11.2015
***** VLOG. One microscopic step for humankind, one giant step in my personal attempts to serve humanity...... (click link for vlog and transcscript.)...
One microscopic step for humankind, one giant step in my personal attempts to serve humanity.
A few of you know that for months now I have been contemplating a radical escalation in my attempts to serve, a radical escalation in my personal commitment, a substantial escalation in personal risk my person and physical wellbeing.
Well, in the last month or so I have been working diligently to see if I could stabilize my body, and strengthen it enough, to move out of the shelter, far to traditional and comfortable a refuge, back into the streets where by every argument I would be consuming much less resources. And if I could determine that my body was strong enough then I needed to see if I could make arrangements that would provide me a modicum of material support, particularly the availability of my computer gear, and my advocacy gear, my posters, what I sit on, etc.
And then finally could I secure the financing, the Financial Resources, the donations required for what I had in mind.
What I had in mind is a self en closed, solar powered vehicle called the Elf from Organic Transit, a small company out of Durham North Carolina. A company that I visited a week ago yesterday traveling on Megabus, where I spent maybe 5 hours asking questions and pondering all the ramifications very deeply.
A few of you know that for months now I have been contemplating a radical escalation in my attempts to serve, a radical escalation in my personal commitment, a substantial escalation in personal risk my person and physical wellbeing.
Well, in the last month or so I have been working diligently to see if I could stabilize my body, and strengthen it enough, to move out of the shelter, far to traditional and comfortable a refuge, back into the streets where by every argument I would be consuming much less resources. And if I could determine that my body was strong enough then I needed to see if I could make arrangements that would provide me a modicum of material support, particularly the availability of my computer gear, and my advocacy gear, my posters, what I sit on, etc.
And then finally could I secure the financing, the Financial Resources, the donations required for what I had in mind.
What I had in mind is a self en closed, solar powered vehicle called the Elf from Organic Transit, a small company out of Durham North Carolina. A company that I visited a week ago yesterday traveling on Megabus, where I spent maybe 5 hours asking questions and pondering all the ramifications very deeply.
Yesterday, was the culmination.
A complete stranger emerged with 1/3 funds required, and the longest, lifelong supporter of my work for humanity (the only one) came forth with the other 2/3. No one else to did. But it was exactly Just enough.
So yesterday the seller of this Elf solar bike and I reached a verbal agreement, and roughly next Thursday or Friday by travel 30 miles from DC, to pick up the Elf, and drive it back to DC, a rather long virgin voyage for me, but this is not the time for timidity.
There are four aspects to my advocacy here in DC: full human rights for all Palestinians including the millions of refugees who have been brutally and mercilessly driven from their land against all law against all morality; the end of greenhouse gases from our burning of fossil fuels through the promotion of renewable energy; decency, respect and huma ity for the poorest among us including the poorest among us here in United States including the homeless; and a new way of being which is vastly less resource consumptive and vastly more contributory of our resources and varied being to the well being of humanity, and all creation. What I will be attempting to my satisfaction is the fulfillment of my best possible attempt to serve all four of those objectives more powerfully, much more powerfully, then I have been able to serve as far.
Within a month, much sooner if I am able, the Elf will include graphics promoting full human rights for Palestine, renewable energy, and LIVE FULL SOLIDARITY... START LOVING. The fact of my life, living on the streets at a projected cost of 100 to several $100 per month, will be the exemplification and promotion of an infinitely more joyful alternative to the life that I have lived even up until now, a life of ungodly resource squandering on my person and the few people associated with the closely. Sinful. Unsustainable. Suicidal for the species and for all creation.
Yes, I'll now be at substantial physical risk sleeping on the streets. This is unchartered territory. I will be easy prey including for rogue police who want to head off such a radical and potentially threatening form of homelessness. I'll be easy pickings for the Zionists who would love to see me tortured and go away.
My only concern with such issues is that I not throw away my body and therefore my ability to do my work so I think in detail of how to secure the Elf, though rarely if ever will it be out of my site, how to make it slightly less attractive to bash my head in as I'm sleeping, or to vandalize the Elf.
The biggest point of sadness is that it is too wide to fit between the security pylons that ring the White House where I'm sitting at this moment. Sometimes I will park it about two blocks away, and I've already discussed this with the secret service who are quite intrigued with the idea what I'm doing I think. I'll park it in a high visibility area where someone wanting to vandalize or steal would think twice, and I'll walk here with just the gear that I have with me now. Other times when I would have come to the White House on weekends I will park and sit with my posters in the Elf at the very top of the park on K street where there is a significant drive by and were many of the tourists enter the park. It might be that the Elf and the signage on the Elf will be a significant draw. I'm concerned this might not be the case but it's worth a try. And if almost all the time that I've been coming to the White House I now go down on the mall, most likely down by the Washington monument, and or near the (1st) Holocaust museum, I think that what I lose by being here in the park is gained by the much heightened statement that the Elf and it's signage and will make.
And when Congress is in session I expect that for the foreseeable future that will remain my top priority, being on Independence Avenue outside of their office buildings were they slither to and fro to the capital to do their token voting, their bidding for their corporate financial masters. And again my advocacy will be amped up in all respects by the presence of the Elf parked by where I will be sitting with my signs.
It is a miracle that that stranger emerged out of nowhere to cover a third of this project. It is a miracle that my sole, lifelong supporter stepped forward and had the resources at their disposal; truly, for anyone that knows the situation, a totally unexpected Marichal. But it happened.
A complete stranger emerged with 1/3 funds required, and the longest, lifelong supporter of my work for humanity (the only one) came forth with the other 2/3. No one else to did. But it was exactly Just enough.
So yesterday the seller of this Elf solar bike and I reached a verbal agreement, and roughly next Thursday or Friday by travel 30 miles from DC, to pick up the Elf, and drive it back to DC, a rather long virgin voyage for me, but this is not the time for timidity.
There are four aspects to my advocacy here in DC: full human rights for all Palestinians including the millions of refugees who have been brutally and mercilessly driven from their land against all law against all morality; the end of greenhouse gases from our burning of fossil fuels through the promotion of renewable energy; decency, respect and huma ity for the poorest among us including the poorest among us here in United States including the homeless; and a new way of being which is vastly less resource consumptive and vastly more contributory of our resources and varied being to the well being of humanity, and all creation. What I will be attempting to my satisfaction is the fulfillment of my best possible attempt to serve all four of those objectives more powerfully, much more powerfully, then I have been able to serve as far.
Within a month, much sooner if I am able, the Elf will include graphics promoting full human rights for Palestine, renewable energy, and LIVE FULL SOLIDARITY... START LOVING. The fact of my life, living on the streets at a projected cost of 100 to several $100 per month, will be the exemplification and promotion of an infinitely more joyful alternative to the life that I have lived even up until now, a life of ungodly resource squandering on my person and the few people associated with the closely. Sinful. Unsustainable. Suicidal for the species and for all creation.
Yes, I'll now be at substantial physical risk sleeping on the streets. This is unchartered territory. I will be easy prey including for rogue police who want to head off such a radical and potentially threatening form of homelessness. I'll be easy pickings for the Zionists who would love to see me tortured and go away.
My only concern with such issues is that I not throw away my body and therefore my ability to do my work so I think in detail of how to secure the Elf, though rarely if ever will it be out of my site, how to make it slightly less attractive to bash my head in as I'm sleeping, or to vandalize the Elf.
The biggest point of sadness is that it is too wide to fit between the security pylons that ring the White House where I'm sitting at this moment. Sometimes I will park it about two blocks away, and I've already discussed this with the secret service who are quite intrigued with the idea what I'm doing I think. I'll park it in a high visibility area where someone wanting to vandalize or steal would think twice, and I'll walk here with just the gear that I have with me now. Other times when I would have come to the White House on weekends I will park and sit with my posters in the Elf at the very top of the park on K street where there is a significant drive by and were many of the tourists enter the park. It might be that the Elf and the signage on the Elf will be a significant draw. I'm concerned this might not be the case but it's worth a try. And if almost all the time that I've been coming to the White House I now go down on the mall, most likely down by the Washington monument, and or near the (1st) Holocaust museum, I think that what I lose by being here in the park is gained by the much heightened statement that the Elf and it's signage and will make.
And when Congress is in session I expect that for the foreseeable future that will remain my top priority, being on Independence Avenue outside of their office buildings were they slither to and fro to the capital to do their token voting, their bidding for their corporate financial masters. And again my advocacy will be amped up in all respects by the presence of the Elf parked by where I will be sitting with my signs.
It is a miracle that that stranger emerged out of nowhere to cover a third of this project. It is a miracle that my sole, lifelong supporter stepped forward and had the resources at their disposal; truly, for anyone that knows the situation, a totally unexpected Marichal. But it happened.
Hamas working to stabilise ceasefire and lift siege
https://www.middleeastmonitor.com/news/middle-east/19759-hamas-working-to-stabilise-ceasefire-and-lift-siege
7.06.2015
Chile makes college free.... If I were young, contemplating raising a family... I'D MOVE FROM USA-IN-DEATH-SPIRAL... to a civilized, humane, sane... country... Scandinavia, Cuba, Chile...! Seriously. Not kidding. I still could, but my generation put the hole in the b boat, it is just me... I'm stayin; to try and ease the pain of the stragglers... and slightly reduce the collateral damage.
If I were young, contemplating raising a family... I'D MOVE FROM USA-IN-DEATH-SPIRAL... to a civilized, humane, sane... country... Scandinavia, Cuba, Chile...! Seriously. Not kidding. I still could, but my generation put the hole in the b boat, it is just me... I'm stayin; to try and ease the pain of the stragglers... and slightly reduce the collateral damage.
6.12.2015
I would rather stand apart from every human being if that is what is required to stand with Creator, than to stand with any human being and against Creator.
I would rather stand apart from every human being if that is what is required to stand with Creator, than to stand with any human being and against Creator.
5.13.2015
***** SPDF (Stop Palestines Death Fast) Day 52-20: Medical update, status, outlook....
SPDF (Stop Palestines Death Fast) Day 52-20: Medical update, status, outlook....
* For maybe 4 days now my body has felt very tired, as always happens after hospital visits for me, and anesthesia (colonoscopy), but other than that, I feel really normal... no obstructions, normal bowel movements for the first time in 3 years.....
* Note, when I broke the fast 20 days ago, that day I realized the farmers market was open, bought and consumed organic sauerkraut to restart the wee beasties in my gut... never paid attention to that... my bowel, when not obstructed, has bee NORMAL EVER SINCE! Greek yogurt, too.
* Sat and Sun I was at the White House to Free Palestine. Not since - too fatigued, weak, and too hot out, for me, yet. Today I have some tasks to execute. I expect to be on Capital $ Hill Thu and Fri; White House, Sat and Sun.
* Also, I'm spending time close to toilet while I learn the new rythms of my newly 'normal' bowel... when I can eat so I don't have to rush to toilet while I'm on post at White House... or Capital $ Hill.
* I am spending my time online in deep study of a range of issues - Israel's mutilation of Palestinians, TPP, chr'stian zionism, the Republican brain, Gross National Happiness (GNH) and related subjects, Happiness Psychology, Judaism (healthy and malignant cultism / zionism), etc....
* I expect this may be my last, or one of my last SPDF posts. I've always found that the end of the fast, trying to take food on a body that has forgotten, and in whom the wee beasties in the gut have died... is the most dangerous. This one was soooooooo dangerous that the docs kept me in hospital on watch for emergency surgery about 8 days due to 5 bowel obstruction events including a complete obstruction where the NG tube released a gargantuan 2 liters of stuff within 120 seconds. Hence the 52 days minus 20 days... a 72 day Offering, Ransom to Reedeem Palestine. Yes, to no avail.
* I now have the expectation of future bowel obstructions... due to the scar tissue from my cancer and other abdominal operations... and the damage done by each of the last 5 obstructions these last 20 days. The docs could operate but they are way loath to because, well, it would just create more scarring (the cause of the obstructions), and could damage the intestines... which is way dangerous. So, I just wait for the next one, and eat cautiously in the meantime.
* Within the next week I expect to finalize the Stop Palestines Death Fast Book.
* I have a thought I'm extremely passionate about for a way to amp up my four activist areas - Stop Palestines Death, Stop Ecocide, Creation Economy (near zero consumption, near total 'free' contribution living), and Humanity for we Homeless... all with one, relatively expensive (up front, zero over the years) tactic. It may push the boundaries of high-security DC tho my intent is nothing of the sort, and the limits of any financing I can secure... but I am exploring every option.... including something that would put my health insurance at risk, but for these causes, none of us can afford to be conservative... if there is anyone now, or in the future, on earth, that we Love. If I can work out the details I'll be providing the opportunity for folks to chip in to make it happen.
* For maybe 4 days now my body has felt very tired, as always happens after hospital visits for me, and anesthesia (colonoscopy), but other than that, I feel really normal... no obstructions, normal bowel movements for the first time in 3 years.....
* Note, when I broke the fast 20 days ago, that day I realized the farmers market was open, bought and consumed organic sauerkraut to restart the wee beasties in my gut... never paid attention to that... my bowel, when not obstructed, has bee NORMAL EVER SINCE! Greek yogurt, too.
* Sat and Sun I was at the White House to Free Palestine. Not since - too fatigued, weak, and too hot out, for me, yet. Today I have some tasks to execute. I expect to be on Capital $ Hill Thu and Fri; White House, Sat and Sun.
* Also, I'm spending time close to toilet while I learn the new rythms of my newly 'normal' bowel... when I can eat so I don't have to rush to toilet while I'm on post at White House... or Capital $ Hill.
* I am spending my time online in deep study of a range of issues - Israel's mutilation of Palestinians, TPP, chr'stian zionism, the Republican brain, Gross National Happiness (GNH) and related subjects, Happiness Psychology, Judaism (healthy and malignant cultism / zionism), etc....
* I expect this may be my last, or one of my last SPDF posts. I've always found that the end of the fast, trying to take food on a body that has forgotten, and in whom the wee beasties in the gut have died... is the most dangerous. This one was soooooooo dangerous that the docs kept me in hospital on watch for emergency surgery about 8 days due to 5 bowel obstruction events including a complete obstruction where the NG tube released a gargantuan 2 liters of stuff within 120 seconds. Hence the 52 days minus 20 days... a 72 day Offering, Ransom to Reedeem Palestine. Yes, to no avail.
* I now have the expectation of future bowel obstructions... due to the scar tissue from my cancer and other abdominal operations... and the damage done by each of the last 5 obstructions these last 20 days. The docs could operate but they are way loath to because, well, it would just create more scarring (the cause of the obstructions), and could damage the intestines... which is way dangerous. So, I just wait for the next one, and eat cautiously in the meantime.
* Within the next week I expect to finalize the Stop Palestines Death Fast Book.
* I have a thought I'm extremely passionate about for a way to amp up my four activist areas - Stop Palestines Death, Stop Ecocide, Creation Economy (near zero consumption, near total 'free' contribution living), and Humanity for we Homeless... all with one, relatively expensive (up front, zero over the years) tactic. It may push the boundaries of high-security DC tho my intent is nothing of the sort, and the limits of any financing I can secure... but I am exploring every option.... including something that would put my health insurance at risk, but for these causes, none of us can afford to be conservative... if there is anyone now, or in the future, on earth, that we Love. If I can work out the details I'll be providing the opportunity for folks to chip in to make it happen.
5.03.2015
5.01.2015
***** must read. Must read. Must read. In Baltimore violent protests are correct.
http://www.salon.com/2015/04/28/baltimores_violent_protesters_are_right_smashing_police_cars_is_a_legitimate_political_strategy/
4.24.2015
SPDF Day 52-1: To my sisters and brothers who watch and or interact with me - I am very harsh.... "What is to give light must endure burning" (Eleanor Roosevelt).... more
To my sisters and brothers who watch and or interact with me - I am very harsh, because I choose to live the harshness, the Apocolyptic Harshness of the 2015 and beyond world that I see. I know that is experienced by you as hurtful, 'insulting,' 'judgemental,' thoughtless, unkind, supremicist... by you at times. I understand that. 1. I always strive to avoid trying to hold on to you... to hold you close to the fire with me, unless that is YOUR desire; 2. I NEVER intend to hurt you; 3. I judge that as your brother I OWE YOU to burn with the fire of the impending Horror of the multiple Armageddons unfolding now to give you the option of seeing it, experiencing it, as clearly as I do that YOU HAVE THE CHOICE to benefit from that view such that you can learn and adjust as you see fit, or detach from me partially or fully if you judge that is best for you, in which case you must know it will not diminish my Loving of you or Respect of you one iota.
4.19.2015
***** VLOG. SPDF Day 48: THIS DEATH FAST IS NOT HARD TO UNDERSAND. HERE IT IS. MUST MUST MUST VIEW.
If YOU do not SHARE this... it WILL NOT BE SEEN.
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Note, as with everything I do in my life I strive to make literally every second count as best as I can. My point here is that as with all of these video logs I strive to offer you a visual record, at strategic times, of my efforts, and to provide a transcription of the video log at the same time. So I'm doing double or triple duty which may make this sound a bit stilted. I'm both trying to speak so that the voice to speech transcription is very accurate, and I am trying to remember to physically punctuate using my keyboard at the same time. Now for this video log which is clearly among the most important that I have ever provided to you.
Is this death fast so hard to understand?
Can you never recall a time or times in your life when you wanted to give something with every fiber of your being? Maybe to give something that was of immense or near total value? Some gift that you wanted for your loved one? A house, education, for your child? I can certainly recall, and I cringe at the thought, of many times in my life where I would give almost anything, did give almost anything, for something as trivial as
a fancy new car. Allow me to take the example of that a bit farther. Is it so hard to imagine that one would want something like a fancy new car so badly that they work, and hoard, and collect almost all of their money, almost their entire wealth, and once they collected all, can't we imagine that they would literally race to the dealership amidst a rumor that the car was on ration and that there were only a few models left,
you're yearning, yearning, to be able to give that total ultimate price so that they could get what they want... that car... NOW? Can't we imagine them feeling crushed, to arrive at the dealership to find either that the dealership was closed for the day and that they couldn't make the payment they wanted to make, or that the last model had been sold and would not be available for a long time, and so they could not paty that ultimatae price as they so yearned to do? Is that so hard to imagine?
Well, I want something so badly that I would gladly pay the ultimate price for it as near as I can tell. I want the 68 year terrorization, extermination, ethnic cleansing, torture, humiliation, starvation, murder... Of the Palestinian part of my family to stop. As near as I can tell I would, I will, gladly give my life if I believe it can save the life of even one Palestinian; be it their physical life, or more importantly their psychological, spiritual, emotional life. Is that so hard to understand?
I began this Stop Palestines Death Fast SPDF on the day that Satanyahu, I mean Netanyahu, was in DC to demonstrate that he and his Zionist crime syndicate continued to have total control of virtually every sociopath, which is 100% of them, in the U.S. Senate, and every sociopath, which is virtually 100% of them, in the U.S. house. It was such an obviously Satanic time, such a consummately dark time, that my sense, my extremely clear sense, was that unlike my brothers and sisters fighting such unfolding Armageddon's as global warming, the immediacy, the tangibility, the intense horror, of this 68 year small scale Holocaust being visited by the United States whites, and the Israeli whites, on the colored Arab population of Palestine, had associated with it people that were sufficiently alive to be shown, after I died of starvation I presumed, from my witness, that yes, indeed, the Palestinian people, even one Palestinian Life, is of course worth our own lives, in a heartbeat, with great passion, with great joy!
This was so clear to me. It was clear to me from the incredible, unbelievable, heroism and humanity of the Palestinians alive today in Palestine, in the occupied territories. They have been heroicly, humanely, fighting this vicious, sadistic, colonial occupation, and are fighting it today. It was clear to me from the heroism that I can barely imagine, of the Jews in Israel, and the Jews in the United States, that more and more are risking in losing their family ties, their community ties, presumably their jobs and careers, to fight for the human rights of the Palestinians.
All of this made me shore that the missing piece of the puzzle, the law of social change, which may be my most important post of all time written several weeks ago, that the historical law of social change, that social change only comes when righteous people give or at least totally offer, the ultimate price in sufficient numbers, is the missing piece of this puzzle.
It was clear to me that this would not be seen in my lifetime assuming at the start that I would die in somewhere between 50 to 70 days. That we were too blind, too selfish, to see it before I died. But there's this thing called the Internet, there's my website, most easily found at Start-Loving.blogspot.com (a relay site), with a record I intended to keep, and that I have kept, which could possibly be the key to what they were missing, and that I would also likely, I felt near certainly, save at least one Palestinian Life within the next 20 years. So with all that I was gratefully, joyfully, sure that I would be able to get to the store in time to pay my ultimate price.
Every day of the last 48 days on the Death Fast has told me that I am incorrect in those assumptions. I've had the privilege of meeting a dozen or so members, the most recent being 15 minutes ago, of the Palestinian Diaspora. To a person it is inconceivable, virtually inconceivable, that they would give their life to save their fellow Palestinians in Palestine. They are that corrupted by our western society. I'm not slandering them. I'm not condemning them. I'm stating my academic, scholarly, view from the perspective of my masters degree work psychology, and vast study, every day, beyond that.
Similarly, the other group in which I had great faith, was the group I referred to earlier, the Jews in the United States that are displaying heroism that I can only dream of in my earlier years, the American Jews in such groups as Jewish Voice for Peace, and Open Hillel, If Not Now When,... and others, that are paying a substantial price psychologically and materially to fight for Palestine.
But I'm finding they have the same disease as every other activist group in the country on any issue I can see, with the exception of of very few of the most heroic anti ecocide groups, particularly from among the indigenous Americans. They cannot see, they refuse to see, they work diligently to deny... that
A. They are absolutely and totally failing to stop the slow motion genocide of the Palestinians within the next 1000 years, and
B. That the only way to bring about that change is the only way that has ever worked in history, and that is offering and sometimes paying the ultimate price of one's life for in this case of life, and the full human rights, of the Palestinians.
So sadly, tragically, I am no longer at near 100% probability of the privilege, the joy, of taking this death fast to its final conclusion of, my preference, my strong preference, death by starvation on Capitol Hill here in Washington, DC; or the more likely termination of my life, my remaining years either in prison or institutionalized, a fate infinitely worse than death for someone like me. I'm no longer at a near certainty of that happening. I'd say that my best guess is only a 30% chance of that happening.
The 70% chance is that within the next 2, 3, 4 weeks, if mother nature, the creator, my metabolism... doesn't end my life for me without my choice, which of course now on day 48 is increasingly likely, that if the choice is mine, then, as I find that my body is reaching the very very very end, the likelihood is 70% that I will choose to end this death fast, and continue to fight as I am at this moment, with these pitiful signs, educating the thousands that come to the White House Park, from all over the country, from all over the world in these spring, summer, and full months.
Yes, it would be much safer if I stopped the death fast now. I'm quite certain that nothing of the sort will happen. I am my most suffering family. We are dying. I have not yet begun to state the measure of my horror, of my opposition, of the depth of my opposition, of my yearning to pay any and every price I can to make this horror stop. I have not begun to make that statement. That will require more weeks. And the risk of unintended death on my part is a trivial price to pay for the privilege, the honor, the loving, of completing that statement as best I can.
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Note, as with everything I do in my life I strive to make literally every second count as best as I can. My point here is that as with all of these video logs I strive to offer you a visual record, at strategic times, of my efforts, and to provide a transcription of the video log at the same time. So I'm doing double or triple duty which may make this sound a bit stilted. I'm both trying to speak so that the voice to speech transcription is very accurate, and I am trying to remember to physically punctuate using my keyboard at the same time. Now for this video log which is clearly among the most important that I have ever provided to you.
Is this death fast so hard to understand?
Can you never recall a time or times in your life when you wanted to give something with every fiber of your being? Maybe to give something that was of immense or near total value? Some gift that you wanted for your loved one? A house, education, for your child? I can certainly recall, and I cringe at the thought, of many times in my life where I would give almost anything, did give almost anything, for something as trivial asa fancy new car. Allow me to take the example of that a bit farther. Is it so hard to imagine that one would want something like a fancy new car so badly that they work, and hoard, and collect almost all of their money, almost their entire wealth, and once they collected all, can't we imagine that they would literally race to the dealership amidst a rumor that the car was on ration and that there were only a few models left,
Well, I want something so badly that I would gladly pay the ultimate price for it as near as I can tell. I want the 68 year terrorization, extermination, ethnic cleansing, torture, humiliation, starvation, murder... Of the Palestinian part of my family to stop. As near as I can tell I would, I will, gladly give my life if I believe it can save the life of even one Palestinian; be it their physical life, or more importantly their psychological, spiritual, emotional life. Is that so hard to understand?I began this Stop Palestines Death Fast SPDF on the day that Satanyahu, I mean Netanyahu, was in DC to demonstrate that he and his Zionist crime syndicate continued to have total control of virtually every sociopath, which is 100% of them, in the U.S. Senate, and every sociopath, which is virtually 100% of them, in the U.S. house. It was such an obviously Satanic time, such a consummately dark time, that my sense, my extremely clear sense, was that unlike my brothers and sisters fighting such unfolding Armageddon's as global warming, the immediacy, the tangibility, the intense horror, of this 68 year small scale Holocaust being visited by the United States whites, and the Israeli whites, on the colored Arab population of Palestine, had associated with it people that were sufficiently alive to be shown, after I died of starvation I presumed, from my witness, that yes, indeed, the Palestinian people, even one Palestinian Life, is of course worth our own lives, in a heartbeat, with great passion, with great joy!
This was so clear to me. It was clear to me from the incredible, unbelievable, heroism and humanity of the Palestinians alive today in Palestine, in the occupied territories. They have been heroicly, humanely, fighting this vicious, sadistic, colonial occupation, and are fighting it today. It was clear to me from the heroism that I can barely imagine, of the Jews in Israel, and the Jews in the United States, that more and more are risking in losing their family ties, their community ties, presumably their jobs and careers, to fight for the human rights of the Palestinians.
All of this made me shore that the missing piece of the puzzle, the law of social change, which may be my most important post of all time written several weeks ago, that the historical law of social change, that social change only comes when righteous people give or at least totally offer, the ultimate price in sufficient numbers, is the missing piece of this puzzle.
It was clear to me that this would not be seen in my lifetime assuming at the start that I would die in somewhere between 50 to 70 days. That we were too blind, too selfish, to see it before I died. But there's this thing called the Internet, there's my website, most easily found at Start-Loving.blogspot.com (a relay site), with a record I intended to keep, and that I have kept, which could possibly be the key to what they were missing, and that I would also likely, I felt near certainly, save at least one Palestinian Life within the next 20 years. So with all that I was gratefully, joyfully, sure that I would be able to get to the store in time to pay my ultimate price.
Every day of the last 48 days on the Death Fast has told me that I am incorrect in those assumptions. I've had the privilege of meeting a dozen or so members, the most recent being 15 minutes ago, of the Palestinian Diaspora. To a person it is inconceivable, virtually inconceivable, that they would give their life to save their fellow Palestinians in Palestine. They are that corrupted by our western society. I'm not slandering them. I'm not condemning them. I'm stating my academic, scholarly, view from the perspective of my masters degree work psychology, and vast study, every day, beyond that.
Similarly, the other group in which I had great faith, was the group I referred to earlier, the Jews in the United States that are displaying heroism that I can only dream of in my earlier years, the American Jews in such groups as Jewish Voice for Peace, and Open Hillel, If Not Now When,... and others, that are paying a substantial price psychologically and materially to fight for Palestine.
But I'm finding they have the same disease as every other activist group in the country on any issue I can see, with the exception of of very few of the most heroic anti ecocide groups, particularly from among the indigenous Americans. They cannot see, they refuse to see, they work diligently to deny... that
A. They are absolutely and totally failing to stop the slow motion genocide of the Palestinians within the next 1000 years, and
B. That the only way to bring about that change is the only way that has ever worked in history, and that is offering and sometimes paying the ultimate price of one's life for in this case of life, and the full human rights, of the Palestinians.
So sadly, tragically, I am no longer at near 100% probability of the privilege, the joy, of taking this death fast to its final conclusion of, my preference, my strong preference, death by starvation on Capitol Hill here in Washington, DC; or the more likely termination of my life, my remaining years either in prison or institutionalized, a fate infinitely worse than death for someone like me. I'm no longer at a near certainty of that happening. I'd say that my best guess is only a 30% chance of that happening.
The 70% chance is that within the next 2, 3, 4 weeks, if mother nature, the creator, my metabolism... doesn't end my life for me without my choice, which of course now on day 48 is increasingly likely, that if the choice is mine, then, as I find that my body is reaching the very very very end, the likelihood is 70% that I will choose to end this death fast, and continue to fight as I am at this moment, with these pitiful signs, educating the thousands that come to the White House Park, from all over the country, from all over the world in these spring, summer, and full months.
Yes, it would be much safer if I stopped the death fast now. I'm quite certain that nothing of the sort will happen. I am my most suffering family. We are dying. I have not yet begun to state the measure of my horror, of my opposition, of the depth of my opposition, of my yearning to pay any and every price I can to make this horror stop. I have not begun to make that statement. That will require more weeks. And the risk of unintended death on my part is a trivial price to pay for the privilege, the honor, the loving, of completing that statement as best I can.
4.02.2015
3.28.2015
nd. Thomas Jefferson: If a law is unjust a man is not only right to disobey it, he is obligated to do so.
nd. Thomas Jefferson: If a law is unjust a man is not only right to disobey it, he is obligated to do so.
3.25.2015
vid. 5 min. SPDF Day 23: Indian man thinks, 'Why not do something with my life that benefits all of society?”...
vid. 5 min. SPDF Day 23: Indian man thinks, 'Everyone makes money for themselves and then they die. Why not do something that benefits all of society,' he though?... vid
http://www.upworthy.com/they-told-him-it-was-impossible-it-took-him-a-hammer-a-chisel-and-22-years-to-prove-them-wrong?c=ufb1
http://www.upworthy.com/they-told-him-it-was-impossible-it-took-him-a-hammer-a-chisel-and-22-years-to-prove-them-wrong?c=ufb1
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