[zero energy to proof this. maybe tomorrow.]
Cancer Update: Notes from deep in Purgatory - when your work has no support, it is worse; meds barely working, pain all over; hour hike for meds, glasses lost; what now?....
It's been a Hell of a day - meds haven't touched my pain all day, extremely painful to eat, with near zero support (no Family) horrendous logistical Hell - like walking 6 blocks to get meds (felt like 16 miles, almost couldn't make it).
This is the first instant I've had the strength to get online for even a few moments.
God save us from the healers - LOL. :-( :-( They have to pretty much kill you, to save you. NO COMPLAINT.
I think I've heard that weekends are the most dangerous time to be sick - staff taking weekend off. This sure is my experience.
I had an old, 'hospital floater' (no one wants her I suspect), know it all discharge nurse / nurse in charge this morning. Her process is to deflect every problem as something that can't be solved, saying so with ridiculously transparent, fake, authority. I didn't have the energy or time to fight it, much. I did get the pain med strength doubled, requiring a new script, which of course miss zero compassion did not have faxed ahead - so the hospital driver, kept waiting an add'll hour and a half, was unwilling to wait the 20 min at the pharmacy for me to get it filled, so that was a subsequent 60 minute hike from Hell.
Oh well. Very oddly, one day is horrible, and the next seems to be better, repeat. We'll see.
Back at CCNV Infirmary clinic - staff happy to see me - nice guys mostly.
That my work, and therefore I, have near zero Family support is a huge validation of my work. In a near totally cancer ridden body of humanity, I Stand as 100% indictment to virtually all of the cancerous practices - this will gain you support from the cancer, how? ZERO regrets, recriminations.... It is what it is. It will be what it will be.
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