***** After all these years I think I figured out how to offer a way that I don't waste people's time. For those who find a deep Envy for the quality of life of a Martin Luther King jr., a Gandhi, Malala, Jesus..., and yearn for such a quality of life for themselves and those who they love, I think I have ideas and example to offer. For those who do not feel such deep Envy for the quality of life of the likes of these I think I have nothing of value to share.

***** After all these years I think I figured out how to offer a way that I don't waste people's time. For those who find a deep Envy for the quality of life of a Martin Luther King jr., a Gandhi, Malala,  Jesus..., and yearn for such a quality of life for themselves and those who they love, I think I have ideas and example to offer. For those who do not feel such deep Envy for the quality of life of the likes of these I think I have nothing of value to share.

***** How the f*** is it that it takes a lifetime to become an effective surgeon, years to become an effective nurse, years or a lifetime to become an effective artist, years to become an effective Soldier or police person, years to become an effective gymnast or skier or a surfer... But two hours, or just a momentary self-declaration, to become an activist? 'Act' the change.......

***** How the f*** is it that it takes a lifetime to become an effective surgeon, years to become an effective nurse, years or a lifetime to become an effective artist, years to become an effective Soldier or police person, years to become an effective gymnast or skier or a surfer... But two hours, or just a momentary self-declaration, to become an activist?

'Act' the change you want to see?
'Pretend' the change you want to see?
'Occasionally use' the change you want to see?
'Mimic' the change you wish to see?
'Put on' the change you wish to see?...

(BECOME, and) BE the change you wish to see in the world... Truth-force... Soul Force... Anti-violence... Loving.

Gandhi devoted a lifetime to trying to be, trying to become, the change he wished to see in the world, the embodiment of Truth Force, the embodiment of (TOUGH) Loving, the embodiment of Soul Force. In the end he said he had just barely scratched the surface. Was he a fool? Did he have no idea of what was involved? Was he lying? One would think so if one looks at nearly all of the so-called activists since King's assassination who think it is something that they learn in two hour training, or a decision that they make, a self-declaration, or that it is as simple as not using physical violence, and then they're all set... they're activists, just like King, just like Gandhi, and the thousands alongside them that would pay any price even death rather than violate that spirit. Magic!!! So, it turns out there is a free lunch! Would it not be so nice if Muhammad Ali had not had to devote his life to becoming the greatest at both boxing and anti-violence? Would it not be nice if the Freedom Riders, if dr. King and those fighting alongside of him, had not had to go through rigorous rigorous rigorous, in King's case, lifelong training, to become that change, to become the embodiment of non-violence, to become the embodiment of loving, anti-violence?

How the f*** is it that it takes a lifetime to become an effective surgeon, years to become an effective nurse, years to become an effective gymnast or skier or a surfer... But two hours, or just a momentary self-declaration, to become an activist?

Ah, the magic of self-delusion. Sadly, Now such self-delusion is planetary suicide. Does anyone love the future enough to wake up in time? If not you, who? If not here, where? If not now, when?

***** It's a curious thing with activists in the last 40 years. Somehow they gleefully embrace the notion that, whatever I feel like doing is better than nothing. I like the idea so it will work. The opposite of SNCC. The opposite of Martin Lu.....

***** It's a curious thing with activists in the last 40 years. Somehow they gleefully embrace the notion that, whatever I feel like doing is better than nothing. I like the idea so it will work. The opposite of SNCC. The opposite of Martin Luther King jr. and those that worked with him. The opposite of Saul Alinsky. The opposite of Gandhi. Very much the stuff of the neocons. Very much the stuff of the conservatives. Very much the stuff of Wall Street, the hedge fund managers. Very much the stuff of the religious fundamentalists. Very much the stuff of Mission Control that sent up the space shuttle Challenger. Very much the stuff of the Pentagon. Hey, it seems right to us, let's do it, it's better than nothing. No discipline, no academic or theoretical rigor, no historical grounding, no humility, no self-restraint, no solemnity, no Soul, no dignity, no paying-the-price.... Hey, I'm an old guy. It really doesn't matter a lot to me personally. I just hate to see you younger ones pissing away what little chance you had.

***** The True human rights activist is the ultimate 'starving artist.' Creating Human Right is Life itself for them... the ultimate Art, Life, form. Jesus, Gandhi, MLK Jr, Alice Paul .......

***** The True human rights activist is the ultimate 'starving artist.'  Creating Human Right is Life itself for them... the ultimate Art, Life, form.  Jesus, Gandhi,  MLK Jr, Alice Paul .......

***** Watch MLK Jr. Explain How Government Handouts Created the White Middle Class (VIDEO)

http://usuncut.com/class-war/watch-martin-luther-king-jr-explain-how-government-handouts-created-the-white-middle-class-video/

***** Dr. Martin Luther King Jr: Our Nation was Born in Genocide

http://nativenewsonline.net/opinion/dr-martin-luther-king-jr-nation-born-genocide/

***** pic. Your help is welcome. Suggestions, recommendations? The final version of this will be my new every waking second uniform on shirt, jacket, etc. Please share with me any strong comments you have. Thank you. I am NOT meaning for this.......

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**** Your help is welcome. Suggestions, recommendations? The final version of this will be my new every waking second uniform on shirt, jacket, etc. Please share with me any strong comments you have. Thank you. I am NOT meaning for this to be cute, pretty, catchy.... I am meaning for it to be the best expression of the essential truths of human sanity, humanity, Joy and Salvation from this deadly 2016 world as lived and taught by Jesus and the other great laborers of love throughout history, that I have yet learned to see and express, & I think it's getting pretty close. This has come to me in pieces, in the middle of the night, over the last few days. I am deeply moved and grateful.

To a law officer I have been blessed to know for years; concerning the possibility of police brutality and violence in America today: Our conversation......

To a law officer I have been blessed to know for years; concerning the possibility of police brutality and violence in America today:

Our conversation yesterday got me thinking. And it helped me understand something about myself, maybe for the first time.

I have known about myself that I am a fiercely loyal individual. I'll pay a personal price that most people can't imagine to fulfill my duties within a group with which I am affiliated, and/or responsible to.

But I have never been able to stop there. My ultimate loyalty is never to the group, or even individual, with which I am affiliated or to whom I am responsible. My ultimate loyalty has always been, will always be, to the whole, all of humanity, all of creation. This is not something I sought out. I think I got it from my father. Wherever I got it it has always been part of me.

It has always made me an outsider. And has always made me distrusted, and alien to others.

It is a quality about myself that I deeply value. I think it is what others might call ultimate loyalty to God.  I see it as a central quality in those throughout history I revere, Jesus, Martin Luther King jr., Gandhi....

I find this lacking in almost all of my sisters and brothers.

I refused to become a licensed psychologist because I came to see that psychologists are ultimately loyal to themselves, to the group, and not to their clients.

I think this is a central failing in what calls itself the church.

I don't see an institution today, maybe with the exception of Nursing, that isn't plagued by this.

But few places is it as dangerous as in and among men and women in uniform who carry weapons of death. And with few exceptions I see their ultimate loyalty to their group, not to those who they have a duty to serve.

Optimism, especially the naive optimism fed to us by the corporate state, engenders self-delusion and passivity and is the opposite of hope. Rebels who are self-aware, who are possessed of sublime madness, are also often plagued by a gnawing despair. When the movie producer Abby Mann, who wanted to film Martin Luther King’s life story, asked King facetiously, “How does the movie end?” King responded, “It ends with me getting killed.” As Mann recalled, “I looked at him. He was smiling, but he wasn’t joking.”36. Chris Hedges

Optimism, especially the naive optimism fed to us by the corporate state, engenders self-delusion and passivity and is the opposite of hope. Rebels who are self-aware, who are possessed of sublime madness, are also often plagued by a gnawing despair. When the movie producer Abby Mann, who wanted to film Martin Luther King’s life story, asked King facetiously, “How does the movie end?” King responded, “It ends with me getting killed.” As Mann recalled, “I looked at him. He was smiling, but he wasn’t joking.”36

Martin Luther King Jr: the greatest purveyor of violence in the world is my own government.

Martin Luther King Jr: the greatest purveyor of violence in the world is my own government.

***** It is the example of others lives that has moved my life back in the direction of.....

It is the example of others lives that has moved my life back in the direction of sanity, humanity, compassion, empathy, decency... the self into which we are all born. The lives of those like Eleanor Roosevelt, Malala, Teresa of Calcutta, Alice Paul, Dorothy Day, Gandhi, Martin Luther King jr.... It is only then that their words have helped me understand how to accomplish that move.  "Example is not the major thing in influencing people.  It is the only thing." Albert Schweitzer

nd. WE NOT LIVING AS EXTREMISTS FOR LOVE... ARE THE PROBLEM.

WE NOT LIVING AS EXTREMISTS FOR LOVE... ARE THE PROBLEM.

***** All, everyone, that are moderates in 2015, in the face of near certain doom for all that is good on earth, are extremists for hate, wittingly or unwittingly. ”We are all extremists, extremists for love or extremists for hate," Martin Luther King paraphrase.

***** All, everyone, that are moderates in 2015, in the face of near certain doom for all that is good on earth, are extremists for hate, wittingly or unwittingly. ”We are all extremists, extremists for love or extremists for hate," Martin Luther King paraphrase.

***** SPDF: WOW WOW WOW. SO THAT'S IT ABOUT CREATURES LIKE ME! HUH.

http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/beautiful-minds/2015/05/04/shades-of-sensitivity/

***** SPDF Day 33 vlog: Why play chicken with death , or worse?

Gandhi was adamant and explicit that he was just scratching the surface of the practice, perfection, expression of nonviolent action.
So I'll not apologize for my own self recognized inadequacy in expressing, let alone fully grasping, my own attempts at radically powerful, utterly transformative, world direction changing....  If only in the attempt, efforts.

And let me be explicit on this last point.  No part of me is interested in being a band aid, a slight dragon on, the extermination of the Palestinians, the elimination of the final shreds of democracy in the United States, or the end of all livable life on earth.  I'm not interested in 'doing something about' these issues.  I'm interested in stopping these atrocities, or failing spectacularly in the attempt as is of course profoundly likely.

I have no respect for the efforts of me or anyone to confront these issues.  I disrespect that.  I profoundly disrespect that.  I see it as profound cowardice.  If your child is dying and only an impossible miracle can save your child, I have nothing but the profoundest disrespect for the efforts of the parent that 'tries to do something' rather than devotes their very being to trying to be the miracle.  And so I feel about my efforts, and those everyone else above the age of 12, in the face of these three unfolding Armageddon's that I frequently mention.

As I've spoken before, and as I will continue to speak, each time trying to better understand, and better articulate, what has me in its grasp...  Why this playing chicken with death that I am now in the midst of being past 30 days of no food, and thereby passing the time threshhold when physical death, permanent mental impairment, blindness and such things become a physical potentiality?

Why playing chicken with death as I am?  Well, I am not 'playing' anything.

I am waging every breath, every be of my heart, to beat all three of these impending Armageddon's. And that's impossible, and that has never been done, and no one has tried, and no one is trying, so I'm on my own to plan, strategize, analyze, attempt, invent, articulate....

Early in this death fast I wrote a centrally important post, must read, on the law of social change, which is the law of suffering, which is the law of paying a high enough price.  If I had $1,000,000,000,000 it would not be enough to stop all three, or even one, of these impending Armageddons.

I do not have $1,000,000,000,000.  I do not have $1000.  I have no care about either because they are irrelevant to what is needed.

What I do have is that which is of ultimate value among the few human beings that are alive, the ultimate value, a human life, my own human life.  This is what Gandhi recognized in himself and others as the ultimate value to be wielded for goal.  This is what Martin Luther King Jr. recognized as the ultimate value that if wielded intelligently, boldly, aggressively, with consummate generosity, with total courage... could buy a substantial if not huge change in world, or at least national, direction.

What I'm doing is nothing more or less than what these greatest among us have attempted before.  I have studied, and I study, with every fiber of my being, their examples, their lessons, their spirits, their essence, to attempt to incorporate in myself and in my efforts every drop of wisdom, of value, that is to be derived from their prior efforts, and dozens of those like them throughout history.

I am profoundly accountable for the constructive use of the life I have been given for the service of humanity.  It would be practically impossible for me to take that responsibility more seriously than I do.  I experience my life as a sacred trust I have been given to be used purely in the service of humanity.  And I feel the profoundest joy and realizing that's the only reason I have that life.

I could not take that responsibility more seriously.  I totally understand that that means that in the face of three of the greatest calamities ever faced by the human species, that means that if I am being conservative, if I'm being cautious, if I'm being careful, if I'm being timid, if I'm being self protective...  I have already desecrated that sacred life that I have been given, and all of humanity that I was placed here to serve, just as you were placed here to serve all of humanity.

If I were interested in cars as I was as a sick individual in this culture through my forties; if I saw an automobile that set me afire with lust; lusting to possess that car, and I had access to the tens and tens of thousands of dollars that it would require to purchase that car, and maybe it was the only car of its type that would be available for many many months, I might figuratively yearn with all of my being that  I could get immediate access those funds of mine, fast enough, and deliver them quickly enough, and favorably enough, then I could secure that car. On smaller or larger scales this would be deemed profoundly normal and appropriate and even admirable behavior in our sickest of all cultures.

Well, that is the desperation that I feel in my attempts to parlay my life, in whatever most intelligent form of delivery I can conceive from instant to instant, based on changing circumstances that I monitor instant by instant every waking breath.  That is the same desperation I feel in delivering my life in the way that will best confront and thwart the three looming Armageddon's.

What I am attempting to do should be so easy to understand.  It is so easy to understand for me that it is hard for me to imagine any other way.  But I wasn't always of this mind.  I was raised to survive and thrive in the Matrix, not outside of it, as I've been these last 10 years or so; well, really, for all of my life, but explicitly these last 10-15 years.

It is obvious based on my total isolation and solitude in my activist work, and never as much as in this final campaign, that no one understands what I'm doing.  Yes, no one understands what I'm doing, because were there wiser than I, who understood what I was doing, and perceived that it was a suboptimal way of pursuing the goals I am pursuing, they would have the kindness and compassion and humanity to speak to me from that obvious depth of understanding that they had and to attempt to show me the error of my ways.

 And it no time in the last 10 years of my devoted activism has anyone, ever, at anytime, even approached doing that.

SPDF vlog Day 31: Paragons of mental health, who are they? Martin Luther Kin Jr., Malala, Gandhi, Abraham Lincoln, Malcom X, Oscar Romero.....

Paragons of mental health, who are they?  Martin Luther Kin Jr., Malala, Gandhi, Abraham Lincoln, Malcom X, Oscar Romero, the young people in Tahrir Square several years ago, some of the soldiers who have stood against war such as the Vietnam War war or the war on Iraq and Afghanistan and surely the soldiers in Israel that are standing against israel's barbarity on the Palestinians. 

The greatest of all of the formal psychologists Alford Adler said that health, the healthy choice, tends to lie in the direction of courage.  For him the hallmark of health was a social interest.

The greatest psychologist of all in that the truth of his insights have had a greater impact on humanity than the insights of anyone else, I'm referring to Jesus, his core notion was universal family, one Father making us all brothers, and his life and words commanded us to go and live our lives accordingly.  Lay down your life for your brother.  The good shepherd lays down his life for the flock.  As you do unto the least of these you do unto me.  Whoever would hold onto his life shall lose it, whoever would lose his life shall gain it.  Love as I have loved, and of course he ran into the arms of death.  King ran into the arms of death, as did Malala as did Gandhi, as did Malcom X. 

Only the most twisted would perceive that they had a death wish, that they wanted to die, that they wanted to be Martyrs, whatever that means.  And today it means some sort of twisted slender.  They wanted to ransom and redeem their suffering brothers and sisters.

For all intents and purposes there is only one way for the human being to get what they want and that is to pay the price for it.  The ultimate price that anyone can pay, and therefore the ultimate power that any individual has to affect what they want to affect.  Is their life, paying their life is the ultimate price they can pay for the ultimate value that they want. 

As Dr. King said so often and so many different ways, the person who does not know what they would die for is not equipped to live.

Whoever thinks that their own life is their ultimate value is already dead.  All of the individuals I mentioned lived, live, accordingly by whatever belief they might have.  They live accordingly because this is the law of our DNA, it is what is written in our DNA because it was ultimately addaptive for having our species produce generation after generation of human beings. 

This healthy nature is rarely seen in our sick culture, our western culture which is more and more the world's culture which has embraced a lower side of human nature, the capacity for morbid and suicidal self centeredness.  But this is not what we see in aboriginal cultures, human beings in an environment like that which we were designed for. This is not seen in other species, this morbid and suicidal self-centeredness.  It is not seen in any species except for cells that become cancerous which no longer devote themselves to the well being of the group but only to their own selfish interests.

***** vlog. SPDF Day 27: A PERSON IS NEITHER ALIVE, NOR AN ACTIVIST, WHO WOULD NOT EAGERLY GIVE THEIR LIFE FOR THE JUSTICE OF THEIR FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS...

Notice:  Transcript is always slightly enhanced over the live video. 

SPDF Day 27: A person is neither aLive, nor an Activst... who would not eagerly give their life for the justice of their fellow human beings. This is history.  This is the history of social change.

(If the shoe does not fit, don't wear it.)  There is very very very good news.  I mean that from the bottom of my heart.  You are not activists.

Alice Paul and the suffragists alongside her that would pay any price, were activists.  There was no personal price that they would not pay to achieve their goal.  They did not do what was convenient, they calculated what was necessary, and they paid the price.

That is anathema to todays so called activists. Utterly, explicitly, forecefully forbidden. Literally incomprehensible, today, in the US outside of the few fighting global warming by placing and keeping their very lives in the way of Ecocide.  These exceptions prove the rule.

There are no activists today.

There were activists in Tahrir Square several years ago.  There was no personal price they would not pay to achieve their goal.  They expected it would cost their very lives these young people.  Exactly because they were willing to pay that price the onlookers of the world could not stand to see that price exacted and rose and demanded of the leaders of the world that their lives be saved by meeting their demands.  And they were.

 There was only one group for whom Gandhi had utter contempt and that was those who would not happily risk or give their own lives when justice demanded it.  I've written weeks ago of the law of social change which is the law of paying the price, the law of suffering.  This is an immutable law.  And yet for the last 40 or 50 years those that call themselves activists, the most educated in our society, almost always from affluent or relatively affluent backgrounds, are in ferocious, catatonic, psychotic, clinical denial of this law.

It is said that patriotism is the refuge of scoundrels.  No, activism in the United States since the late sixties is the refuge of scoundrels.  It is where one goes for zero personal accountability, the approval of one's peers in excoriating anyone and everyone except those in the same group, holding oneself and ones group to 0 standards, certainly not the historical standards of true activism, and certainly not the standards of results.

The Washington DC not many years ago there was Ngo after Ngo, activist after activist, rapturously involved in historically doomed,, tepid, comfortable, self serving 'activism' to supposedly Save Darfur.
Fact, the leading such group, "Save Darfur," was headed by a pleasant fellow.  At times that I deemed it constructive and appropriate I clearly, honestly, forthrightly and vehimintly confronted the total hopelessness, the total inadequacy, of the strategies and tactics that were being attempted by this group.And indeed, as was patently obvious to anyone that WANTED to see the truth... they saved not one Darfuri, but they had a nice time, got lots of press, had nice confortable jobs for years, added to their resumes, got credit on their college degrees....

Several years later I saw the head of this preeminent Save Darfur group outside a supermarket. Actually, he saw me and wanted to speak.  To his credit he said to me, why were you so hard on us?  I said, just as when a Dr. hangs out a shingle proclaiming that they are a Dr., thereby setting life and death expectations for those who choose to enter, you did the same by calling your group Save Darfur.  You set an expectation that impacted millions of people and yet you planned and attempted nothing that would ever come close to saving those people.  This is a moral problem that I had a duty to those brothers and sisters in Darfur to attempt to confront.  This is a moral failing I had a duty to you to try and bring to your clear attention, and I felt that you were not seeing it, as a result of active denial or otherwise.

Again, to his credit, he replied with astonishing candor, James, he said, I had no idea how to save the people in Darfur.  I give him credit for the candor, but he still had no idea the horror of what he was saying.  And I find him completely representative of the activism in the United States, or what considers itself activism, be it for stopping global warming, preserving some shred of democracy, or freeing the Palestinians while there is still a living Palestinian left.

The left in the United States adores excoriating the right in this country for their denial, especially in the subject area of global warming.  The denial on the right is nothing compared to the denial on the left of their own irresponsibility, non-solidarity with those they purport to be fighting for, lip service, self serving efforts that have the certainty of not achieving the stated goals but only of serving the egos and other gratifications of the so called activists.

The left's denial near incomprehensible.  This is not slender from me.  This is not condemnation.  It is an opportunity to seriously consider it, thereby it is an offer of liberation.

King, Gandhi, any and all of the true activists, in their own way lived, believed, and articulated that someone that would not risk their very life, happily, in the service of justice for their fellow human being, was already Dead.  None of the 2015 activists that I see are anything of the sort.

None or few are hypocrites on purpose.  They've been taught and learned well a lie.  They've been taught a means of behavior that is not activism, but they've been told in word and deed for 40 or 50 years that it is.

If King, Gandhi, Jesus, and the like are correct that cowardice is living death, and by my life and words I believe that they are, then I am not slandering, I'm attempting as they did, to offer Life, to the activist, and to those they think they are serving..

A person is not living who is not ready to give their life for the justice of their fellow human beings, to paraphrase Dr. King.

***** vid. SPDF Day 22: THE SINGLE GREATEST EXPOSITION OF UNVIOLENT ACTION: "LETTER FROM....

***** vid. SPDF Day 22:  THE SINGLE GREATEST EXPOSITION OF UNVIOLENT ACTION: "LETTER FROM THE BIRMINGHAM JAIL."  Read it once, twice, 10, 20 times, until it is written in your DNA.

"A Reading of The Letter From Birmingham Jail" – Before the Dream... There was a Letter... from Kirwan Institute on Vimeo.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HISTORY a non-fiction film commemorating Martin Luther King, Jr.‘s famous “Letter from Birmingham Jail.” No longer will the Letter from Birmingham Jail be in the SHADOW of the "I Have a Dream" speech.

The film stars community leaders of Columbus, Ohio and educators and leaders of The Ohio State University. The Letter from Birmingham Jail is an open letter written on April 16, 1963, by Martin Luther King, Jr. The letter defends the strategy of nonviolent resistance to racial discrimination, arguing that people have a moral responsibility to break unjust laws. After an early setback, it enjoyed widespread publication and became a key text for the American civil rights movement of the early 1960s.

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SPDF Day 15: MLK Jr, “Like anybody, I would like to have a long life.

SPDF Day 15:  MLK Jr, “Like anybody, I would like to have a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will.”

***** vid. Day 15: MLK Jr. "I submit to you tonight that no man is free if he fears death...

Minute 23, especially -  "I submit to you tonight that no man is free if he fears death. But the minute you conquer the fear of death, at that moment, you are free. You must say, somehow, "I don’t have much money. I don’t have much education. I may not be able to read and write. But I have the capacity to die." Full Transcript Here: http://www.democracynow.org/2013/2/25/exclusive_rarely_seen_film_king_a