| The Guardian |
9.24.2013
Loving, on the Record: I trust Obama and I trust Abbas on this [and I trust Netanyahu to do all in his power to sabotage Peace Talks]: In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process. Reuters. If and when I see sufficient evidence I am wrong, I'll shout it. Obama plays 3 dimensional chess for humanity, and we the sheeple don't even understand tic tac toe. In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process Reuters
Loving, on the Record: I trust Obama and I trust Abbas on this [and I trust Netanyahu to do all in his power to sabotage Peace Talks]: In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process. Reuters. If and when I see sufficient evidence I am wrong, I'll shout it. Obama plays 3 dimensional chess for humanity, and we the sheeple don't even understand tic tac toe.
In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process
| Reuters |
Cancer Update: Bad news
My b-day is the 18th, and they are looking to schedule major surgery on the 17th. This would mean no cake the next day. So I told them, 'NO WAY.'
But, if I reconsider, and they persist in this foolishness, they are looking to do a major scan Oct 14th, see if the more cancerous side of my liver has shrunk, the less cancerous side has grown sufficiently to make organ failure less likely, and if all looks sufficiently satisfactory, looks like no cake for me this year. Damn!!!!
My energy remains at 50% of normal, tho it is months, to 1.5 years since I've known 'normal.' Still needing 15 hours per day of sleep, rest - I guess this is a pretty big shock - starving a major organ of blood supply - killing it - it can't be pleased. And as a friend said, all this on top of 2 months of chemo. My pain level from Friday was a 3-5 tummy pain, but today is 2-4. We'll see.
I really like to whine and complain. I suspect that I've gotten off way easier, each day of this 18 months I've been in the fight with this cancer, than 98% of others in similar fight. I have no complaints, and among the reasons the Creator put me in DC, is that for a penniless, homeless guy in amerikka, the care I'm getting here, I'd not get anywhere else but MA, I'll guess - Federal Medicare, on top of some Godly, Saintly, model programs like Unity Health Care, thanks to Genuine Angels (no, really), sheroes and heroes, like my primary care Doc C.
Not enough strength today for the 16 block hike to the grocery store, but maybe tomorrow. No, I have no shortage of sufficient calories here, but I'll take a lo sodium, low cal fruit juice run as soon as I have the strength. Tomorrow I trust.
Now, I'll probably jinx things by saying this, but maybe, just maybe, I can manage bowel movements without double dosing immodium 6-12 per day, for the first time in many months.
But, if I reconsider, and they persist in this foolishness, they are looking to do a major scan Oct 14th, see if the more cancerous side of my liver has shrunk, the less cancerous side has grown sufficiently to make organ failure less likely, and if all looks sufficiently satisfactory, looks like no cake for me this year. Damn!!!!
My energy remains at 50% of normal, tho it is months, to 1.5 years since I've known 'normal.' Still needing 15 hours per day of sleep, rest - I guess this is a pretty big shock - starving a major organ of blood supply - killing it - it can't be pleased. And as a friend said, all this on top of 2 months of chemo. My pain level from Friday was a 3-5 tummy pain, but today is 2-4. We'll see.
I really like to whine and complain. I suspect that I've gotten off way easier, each day of this 18 months I've been in the fight with this cancer, than 98% of others in similar fight. I have no complaints, and among the reasons the Creator put me in DC, is that for a penniless, homeless guy in amerikka, the care I'm getting here, I'd not get anywhere else but MA, I'll guess - Federal Medicare, on top of some Godly, Saintly, model programs like Unity Health Care, thanks to Genuine Angels (no, really), sheroes and heroes, like my primary care Doc C.
Not enough strength today for the 16 block hike to the grocery store, but maybe tomorrow. No, I have no shortage of sufficient calories here, but I'll take a lo sodium, low cal fruit juice run as soon as I have the strength. Tomorrow I trust.
Now, I'll probably jinx things by saying this, but maybe, just maybe, I can manage bowel movements without double dosing immodium 6-12 per day, for the first time in many months.
I think that the biggest challenge for westerners that try to 'help' the developing world, is to avoid addicting folks to stuff, but to foster Loving, instead, something that often developing countries are infinitely better at than we westerners. Loving CARES about the material needs of others, but only with the greatest care do we avoid turning material wellbeing into the God.
I think that the biggest challenge for westerners that try to 'help' the developing world, is to avoid addicting folks to stuff, but to foster Loving, instead, something that often developing countries are infinitely better at than we westerners. Loving CARES about the material needs of others, but only with the greatest care do we avoid turning material wellbeing into the God.
***** STOP. STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING. READ THIS. NOW. I've been imploring a friend to share her story. She just did and gave me permission to share.
She is a giving and gifted artist.
"Hope your feeling better today and that your energy is returning to you!
A friend of mine told me that I should tell you my story of unconditional love. She thought it would further inspire you. So here it goes....
My father was a evil man , he physically and sexually abused me beyond imagination . I was passed around to his friends like a party favor. He was paid well for me even at the age of 5 ... When I was 12 I had a baby beaten from my body that he then killed and took away. It was his child.
I left home at 14. When I was thirty I was called by my family and my mother was on her death bed.. I cared for her , giving her sponge baths and singing to her.. With her last words she told me she never loved me and that God would never recognize my existence . I held her as she died and forgave her , I prayed for her.
Soon after my father took ill with lung cancer... I took care of him until he died and forgave him on his death bed while he was in my arms.
The year I took care of him was one of the hardest years of my life... I asked him everyday why. I never got an answer till the last day ... He simply said , because I could .
When I told him as he died that I forgave him and loved him , he asked why... I said because I could.
That is unconditional love . To love in the face of hate. No matter the pain caused to you ...
I wear the scared body they left me .. Imprints of a hammer on my skull .. Deformations in my back from the cage. Brittle bone from childhood malnutrition ... Burn marks and frontal lobe atrophy from the extreme abuse. Yet I forgave , I loved.
Unconditional ... I know the word all tooo well , I live it ! You may share this if you do not share my name."
Post Script:
I asked my friend: Does this quote from Eve Ensler, relate to you? "The only salvation is Kindness." Does that relate to you?
My friend's reply:
"Love is salvation and my reason to keep moving, breathing , and understanding other people ! It's what I hold highest in my life... I was raised to know never to put value in things .. Things come and go and are meaningless .. But the living are the only value of spirit and love! ( thank you grandmother !) I understand every ones pain is relevant.. Your experience of suffering is as valid as mine. I am sorry you endured it!"
"Hope your feeling better today and that your energy is returning to you!
A friend of mine told me that I should tell you my story of unconditional love. She thought it would further inspire you. So here it goes....
My father was a evil man , he physically and sexually abused me beyond imagination . I was passed around to his friends like a party favor. He was paid well for me even at the age of 5 ... When I was 12 I had a baby beaten from my body that he then killed and took away. It was his child.
I left home at 14. When I was thirty I was called by my family and my mother was on her death bed.. I cared for her , giving her sponge baths and singing to her.. With her last words she told me she never loved me and that God would never recognize my existence . I held her as she died and forgave her , I prayed for her.
Soon after my father took ill with lung cancer... I took care of him until he died and forgave him on his death bed while he was in my arms.
The year I took care of him was one of the hardest years of my life... I asked him everyday why. I never got an answer till the last day ... He simply said , because I could .
When I told him as he died that I forgave him and loved him , he asked why... I said because I could.
That is unconditional love . To love in the face of hate. No matter the pain caused to you ...
I wear the scared body they left me .. Imprints of a hammer on my skull .. Deformations in my back from the cage. Brittle bone from childhood malnutrition ... Burn marks and frontal lobe atrophy from the extreme abuse. Yet I forgave , I loved.
Unconditional ... I know the word all tooo well , I live it ! You may share this if you do not share my name."
Post Script:
I asked my friend: Does this quote from Eve Ensler, relate to you? "The only salvation is Kindness." Does that relate to you?
My friend's reply:
"Love is salvation and my reason to keep moving, breathing , and understanding other people ! It's what I hold highest in my life... I was raised to know never to put value in things .. Things come and go and are meaningless .. But the living are the only value of spirit and love! ( thank you grandmother !) I understand every ones pain is relevant.. Your experience of suffering is as valid as mine. I am sorry you endured it!"
Being Liberal9.23.2013
***** pic. VERY IMPORTANT TO MY FRIENDS: IF YOU EVER FEEL HURT BY ME, OR OFFENDED, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME, OR WHERE WE ARE IN HISTORY. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE ME. BUT IN THE FACE OF THE NEXT 1000 GENERATIONS BEING CONDEMNED TO SPACESHIP TITANIC II IN DEATH CONVULSIONS, I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU, I DON'T CARE ABOUT ME. NO OFFENSE TO EITHER OF US. AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU. I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO TRY TO HURT YOU, OR ME, AND I WILL NEVER, NEVER, NEVER INTENTIONALLY HURT YOU!!! BUT I AM WAGING AN ALL OUT, UNVIOLENT, WINNER TAKE ALL WAR FOR THE NEXT 200 BILLION KIDS. YES, I AM NOT STUPID, I FULLY EXPECT TO LOSE, BUT I'LL NOT FAIL TO TRY WITH MY LAST BREATH. YOU'D BE VERY WISE TO UN-FRIEND ME, NOW, UNLESS YOU ARE INTO PAIN, AS I AM. LOL. LOVING U ALL FOREVER, NO MATTER WHAT. NO MATTER WHAT. NO MATTER WHAT. INCLUDING AFTER YOU UN-FRIEND ME. NEVER WILL I TAKE ANY OFFENSE, BUT I WILL MISS YOU.
*****
VERY IMPORTANT TO MY FB FRIENDS: IF YOU EVER FEEL HURT BY ME, OR
OFFENDED, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME, OR WHERE WE ARE IN HISTORY. I LOVE
YOU. I LOVE ME. BUT IN THE FACE OF THE NEXT 1000 GENERATIONS BEING
CONDEMNED TO SPACESHIP TITANIC II IN
DEATH CONVULSIONS, I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU, I DON'T CARE ABOUT ME. NO
OFFENSE TO EITHER OF US. AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU. I DON'T HAVE THE TIME
TO TRY TO HURT YOU, OR ME, AND I WILL NEVER, NEVER, NEVER INTENTIONALLY
HURT YOU!!! BUT I AM WAGING AN ALL OUT, UNVIOLENT, WINNER TAKE ALL WAR
FOR THE NEXT 200 BILLION KIDS. YES, I AM NOT STUPID, I FULLY EXPECT TO
LOSE, BUT I'LL NOT FAIL TO TRY WITH MY LAST BREATH. YOU'D BE VERY WISE
TO UN-FRIEND ME, NOW, UNLESS YOU ARE INTO PAIN, AS I AM. LOL.
LOVING U ALL FOREVER, NO MATTER WHAT. NO MATTER WHAT. NO MATTER WHAT.
INCLUDING AFTER YOU UN-FRIEND ME. NEVER WILL I TAKE ANY OFFENSE, BUT I
WILL MISS YOU.
vid. I'm always so amazed - take one seed, put it on concrete in the blazing sun, and it withers. Put an identical seed in rich soil, with lots of water and fertilizer, and it flourishes! What does this prove? That some seed are born lazy, and some want to work and contribute!!! Tea Party, I'M LOVIN IT!
I'm
always so amazed - take one seed, put it on concrete in the blazing
sun, and it withers. Put an identical seed in rich soil, with lots of
water and fertilizer, and it flourishes! What does this prove? That some
seed are born lazy, and some want to work and contribute!!! Tea Party,
I'M LOVIN IT!
Utterly shocking. I mean Israel is DESPERATE for someone to force it to stop Raping, Torturing, Pillaging, Stealing Palestine! Some Israeli leaders question peace talks with Palestinians after weekend attacks Washington Post
Utterly shocking. I mean Israel is DESPERATE for someone to force it to stop Raping, Torturing, Pillaging, Stealing Palestine!
Washington Post
Washington Post
pic. 'Terrorism' is violence from the poor to the rich, or middle class. 'Law and Order' is violence done by the rich, and middle class, to the poor.
from the poor to the
rich, or middle class.
'Law and Order'
is violence done by
the rich, and middle
class, to the poor.
nd Sometimes, once in a blue moon, it strikes me that I can't bear even one more second of the needless suffering we impose on the world. Yup, it just occurred to me - blue moon I guess :-) . And in the very next instant, I know that I'll always embrace every spec of that pain that I can - it is the Entire Fuel for the Heart, Soul - the Creator's Kingdom - Heaven - the Soul in Solidarity Serving. The Agony and the Ecstasy are NEVER Separate. Never.
nd Sometimes, once in a blue moon, it strikes me that I can't bear even one more second of the needless suffering we impose on the world. Yup, it just occurred to me - blue moon I guess :-) . And in the very next instant, I know that I'll always embrace every spec of that pain that I can - it is the Entire Fuel for the Heart, Soul - the Creator's Kingdom - Heaven - the Soul in Solidarity Serving. The Agony and the Ecstasy are NEVER Separate. Never.
pic. 'Ya think if Pr. Obama self-immolated the rabid lefties would see he wages peaceful resolution way ahead of violence?' 'Nah. Facts don't phase a mob of Witch-Hunters.'
self-immolated the rabid
lefties would see he
wages peaceful
resolution way ahead of
violence?' 'Nah. Facts
don't phase a mob
of Witch-Hunters.'
***** pic WOW. THRU TEARS: Put on my FB page by a Friend: "In honor of just such an activist - Start Loving." (Have I EVER felt so 'Identified?') "An activist is someone who cannot help but fight for something. That Person is not usually motivated by a need for power, or money, or fame, but in fact driven slightly mad by some injustice, some cruelty, some unfairness - So much so that he or she is compelled by some internal moral engine to act to make it better." Eve Ensler. Uh, that would be Diane Wilson, John Pope, Lizzy Arizona, Malala, WIRT.... (BTW, it is HELL. And Infinite Heaven - the only one - Loving, no matter what)
pic. The Creator is Loving. Loving IS the Creator of all things. Loving is not the property of any Religion, and any religion that thinks it is, is NOT of the one True Religion - Loving.
Creator of all things. Loving is not the
property of any
Religion, and
any religion that
thinks it is, is NOT
of the one True
Religion - Loving.
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