I'm finding my blindness truly stunning. Jesus by the end saw that not one in 10000 would ever saved. Ever. He devoted his life to saving that one in ten thousand. He rightly saw that the state of loving is certain, absolute Salvation regardless of all other circumstances.

I'm finding my blindness truly stunning. Jesus by the end saw that not one in 10000 would ever saved. Ever. He devoted his life to saving that one in ten thousand. He rightly saw that the state of loving is certain, absolute Salvation regardless of all other circumstances.

Diane Wilson, to close Guantanamo, chains neck to fence at White House.

http://www.presstv.ir/detail/2013/05/11/302964/americans-demand-gitmo-closure/

Americans demand closure of Guantanamo Bay Prison Press TV - 21 hours ago The protesters in Washington DC wore prison-style jumpsuits in support of the 166 ... you're probably going to die from it,” human rights activist and hunger striker, Diane Wilson said.

Fact: I see no where in evidence today 1 millionth the humanity evidenced in the women's suffrage struggle. In the evermore toxic culture of greed, religious addiction to pleasure, we have grotesquely devolved as a species to the point of being no longer viable.

Fact: I see no where in evidence today 1 millionth the humanity evidenced in the women's suffrage struggle. In the evermore toxic culture of greed, religious addiction to pleasure, we have grotesquely devolved as a species to the point of being no longer viable.

Fact:: all war is psychological. Fact: the weapon of un violint warriors is inflicting the pain, near unbearable, of the awful price they personally pay for what is right, on the opponents, and passive onlookers. Fact: because eco- side is so invisible the personal price offered must be orders of magnitude more awful than any before seen in history.

Fact:: all war is psychological. Fact: the weapon of un violint warriors is inflicting the pain, near unbearable, of the awful price they personally pay for what is right, on the opponents, and passive onlookers. Fact: because eco- side is so invisible the personal price offered must be orders of magnitude more awful than any before seen in history.

***** the purpose and function of un violence is to penetrate, to rip away, the veneer, the facade, the camouflage, to reveal underneath the true violence knowing that human physiology and psychology, even unvoluntarily, cannot remain evil, cannot allow evil, when it is clearly, sufficiently revealed. By far the most clearly I've ever seen this is in reading the book Iron Jawed Angels. See library tab this blog.

* the purpose and function of un violence is to penetrate, to rip away, the veneer, the facade, the camouflage, to reveal underneath the true violence knowing that human physiology and psychology, even unvoluntarily, cannot remain evil, cannot allow evil, when it is clearly, sufficiently revealed. By far the most clearly I've ever seen this is in reading the book Iron Jawed Angels. See library tab this blog.

By being poor and on the street I'm coming in contact with the closest thing we have in this society that can be considered universal family, that which Jesus died to bring to us. My point? There is such a thing, it exists. It is tiny, barely alive, but it exists, it is possible.

By being poor and on the street I'm coming in contact with the closest thing we have in this society that can be considered universal family, that which Jesus died to bring to us. My point? There is such a thing, it exists. It is tiny, barely alive, but it exists, it is possible.

'I must find out what people or groups in history have produced the most persistent loving. 'Everyone knows that they should not participate in politics,' said Teresa Calcutta. I've always been uncomfortable with her statement. But I've never been able to discard it. I spent much of my life studying un violent change movements. And I am glad. But few if any have changed Humanity's heart. Everything depends on changing Humanity's heart. When and how has this been best done?

'I must find out what people or groups in history have produced the most persistent loving. 'Everyone knows that they should not participate in politics,' said Teresa Calcutta. I've always been uncomfortable with her statement. But I've never been able to discard it. I spent much of my life studying un violent change movements. And I am glad. But few if any have changed Humanity's heart. Everything depends on changing Humanity's heart. When and how has this been best done?

nd I just don't know if I have the strength, wisdom, vision, love, compassion to accept that humanity is lost, with few exceptions. But if I am a creature of Love and Truth then I should face that and get on with doing what I can to help the few. I really think this is what I should do, and this is the only real work ahead of us.

I just don't know if I have the strength, wisdom, vision, love, compassion to accept that humanity is lost, with few exceptions. But if I am a creature of Love and Truth then I should face that and get on with doing what I can to help the few. I really think this is what I should do, and this is the only real work ahead of us.

nd 'OR... Is Psychological, Spiritual, Soul health the equivalent DNA rarity of Giftedness - Mozart, Edison, Da Vinci...? NO, there are communities, families, tribes of Health. Environmental.' Loving

nd 'OR... Is Psychological, Spiritual, Soul health the equivalent DNA rarity of Giftedness - Mozart, Edison, Da Vinci...?  NO, there are communities, families, tribes of Health.  Environmental.' Loving

nd 'YES, by DNA we're ALL born to be HEALTHY! But by ENVIRONMENT? ALMOST NONE.' Loving

nd 'YES, by DNA we're ALL born to be HEALTHY! But by ENVIRONMENT?  ALMOST NONE.'  Loving

'Other options for Loving... I FEEL LIKE AN MD IN THE MIDST OF A GLOBAL PLAGUE OF ZOMBI-ISM...

ARGH - I FEEL LIKE AN MD IN THE MIDST OF A GLOBAL PLAGUE OF ZOMBI-ISM  THAT IS

DESTROYING MY FAMILY... AND NO ONE, INCLUDING ME, HAS A CLUE

OF HOW TO CURE THE PLAGUE.

Other options:

Wait, wait, wait... for the right ultimate sacrifice time.  If the heart paddles have only one charge, and it is discharged on a corpse, well, that just killed the opportunity to save, right?

This speaks to ...
getting the surgery,  chemo...

learning,

researching,

writing,

resuming the Can. Emb. vigil,

supporting Obama/Organizing for Action....

'My best guess as to what the future holds for Loving.' Loving

[from a note to our premier Unviolent Warrior]

My cancer consult is next Thurs. 

I'm sure you are probably deeply read in the women's suffrage movement,
but ever since I saw Iron Jawed Angels a year ago I've been
in awe, and within the last 2 months read A Woman's Crusade -
Alice Paul and learned sooooooo much more.

Know what Martyr means? I didn't - learned that one just now
reading Steve Biko's writings - Martyr means witness; and I think
that means "evidence," "proof," "testament..." to the truth.

Inez Milholland was a Martyr - a witness that, you bet your ass
women's rights NOW is worth our very lives, NOW.  Did she want to be a martyr?
Did she want to die? Did she want to work herself to a 30 year old
death?  SHE WANTED WOMEN'S RIGHTS, NOW.  HER LIFE BECAME
AN UNMISTAKABLE WITNESS TO THAT. 

When Inez worked herself to death for the cause, who did she wake up? 
A DOZEN OR SO OF THE MOST COURAGEOUS
ACTIVISTS ALIVE - ALICE PAUL, AND ANOTHER HANDFUL, THAT
ALREADY WERE ON RAGING FIRE, BUT INEZ WITNESS MADE IT A BONFIRE,
THAT NO ONE KNEW WAS POSSIBLE.  That's how it works.  Right?
Or, the bonfire never, NEVER happen.

I am certain now that we are infinitely too dead to stop ecocide -
no matter that we could do it without breaking a sweat, almost none
of us dying.  Too inconvenient.  We are the
zombie apocalypse, already.  But, slowing it down,
saving 1, let alone 100 million over the next 1000 generations,
what would that be worth?  My life, if I could figure out how to
spend that, my life, MY ONLY ASSET, in a way that hold's promise?

Rock yes!  No?



My guess is that I'll find the new prognosis, treatment plan, of too
great a cost to society, and coming at the wrong time - the most firtile
6 months in human history to reduce, slow, stop... ecocide by global warming.

My lead thought is to go on a trek, a bike ride, around the country, till
the cancer stops me, with the message, question, a sign along the lines of:

WOULDN'T
U DIE 2
STOP ECOCIDE
BY FOSSIL FUELS?

'We are dying, quickly now, as a species, from malignant Lip Service.' Loving

"Example is not the major thing in influencing people.
It is the only thing." 

We are dying, quickly now, as a species, from malignant Lip Service.

Albert Schweitzer

Homeless vet Israel this morning: loving, I get paid next week and I'm going to rebuild your vigil. This 52 year old African American man, very intense, very serious , I have every reason to believe he means what he says. I'm deeply humbled and encouraged to inspire even a little of this goodness in another. This is our entire work, is it not?

Homeless vet Israel this morning: loving, I get paid next week and I'm going to rebuild your vigil. This 52 year old African American man, very intense, very serious, I have every reason to believe he means what he says. I'm deeply humbled and encouraged to inspire even a little of this goodness in another. This is our entire work, is it not?

'What We have done to Jesus teaching is beyond barbaric, is beyond primitive. He was entirely telling us that our psychology. And he was giving us the most advanced instructions analogous to using a computer, or diagnosing and treating a disease. Look at what we've done to it! We've turned it into unintelligible, worthless gibberish; useless, deadly mysticism. Snake oil. Nightmare.Utter madness.' Loving

'We have done to Jesus teaching is beyond barbaric, is beyond primitive.  He was entirely telling us that our psychology.  And he was giving us the most advanced instructions analogous to using a computer, or diagnosing and treating a disease.  Look at what we've done to it!  We've turned it into unintelligible, worthless gibberish; useless, deadly mysticism.  Snake oil. Nightmare.Utter madness.' Loving

nd 'Obi Wan withdrew, for a long time, until change became Possible.' Loving

nd 'Obi Wan withdrew, for a long time, until change became Possible.' Loving

***** [How fast can any population of addicts be Saved?] I've been wrong. I am sorry. Hopefully I'm learning: [added to the "Resurrecting..." book]: 119. I stop making the mistake of fantasizing that everyone, all, most… any but a Miniscule minority can be saved. Jesus has hardly Saved anyone, in 2000 years, and He was the best the World's seen. Just cuz I, or He, want to, does NOT make it possible. The world was to toxic with Affloholism, and now by 7 billion times more. Saving self and others remains the work, but but the one, or two, not all Humanity.' Loving

***** [How fast can any population of addicts be Saved?]

I've been wrong. I am sorry. Hopefully I'm learning:  [added to the "Resurrecting..." book]:

119.  I stop making the mistake of fantasizing that everyone, all, most… any but a Miniscule minority can be saved.  Jesus has hardly Saved anyone, in 2000 years, and He was the best the World's seen.  Just cuz I, or He, want to, does NOT make it possible.  The world was to toxic with Affloholism, and now by 7 billion times more. Saving self and others remains the work, but but the one, or two, not all Humanity.'

Loving

***** nd 'WITH THE POOR IS WHERE THE BLEST ARE - Blest are we poor. It is a hard life. But so is, well, pretty much every life. And by being poor, and working for the global neediest, guess what? I meet 98% more, I encounter more, I inspire more, of the Truly Good, in 1 week, than otherwise I might in a decade., Now, seriously, quickly - what greater Blessing than this? THIS IS WHERE THE CREATOR, GOD, GOOD... IS.' Loving

nd 'WITH THE POOR IS WHERE THE BLEST ARE - Blest are we poor.  It is a hard life.  But so is, well, pretty much every life.  And by being poor, and working for the global neediest, guess what?  I meet 98% more, I encounter more, I inspire more, of the Truly Good, in 1 week, than otherwise I might in a decade., Now, seriously, quickly - what greater Blessing than this? THIS IS WHERE THE CREATOR, GOD, GOOD... IS.'  Loving

nd 'What I tried to articulate yesterday - Jesus came to see that most would never be saved. He saw this with certainty; with horror, but certainty. He saw there was nothing he could do about it.' Loving

nd 'What I tried to articulate yesterday - Jesus came to see that most would never be saved. He saw this with certainty; with horror, but certainty. He saw there was nothing he could do about it.' Loving

nd 'For the last 13 years that I've devoted myself To humanity I've been alone, with some Miraculous, Heroic, Sheroic exceptions along the way. Not any longer. This most recent crisis, family, nonbiological, just came running to my assistance from all directions. Rather, I pray they came to the assistance of my work.' Loving

nd 'For the last 13 years that I've devoted myself To humanity I've been alone, with some Miraculous, Heroic, Sheroic exceptions along the way. Not any longer. This most recent crisis, family, nonbiological, just came running to my assistance from all directions. Rather, I pray they came to the assistance of my work.' Loving

nd 'The Existential test of a Culture is Sustainability. Indigenous Culture yes, Capitalistic Culture, no.' Loving

nd 'The Existential test of a Culture is Sustainability.  Indigenous Culture yes, Capitalistic Culture, no.' Loving

***** (!!!!!) nd 'The root of all evil is conditional, tribal, selective, loving, conditional family. If I love any one I must stop for getting this. We have so little time. If I love any one, I must keep my focus here. I must stop being confused and distracted. There is no time left for Error.' Loving

***** (!!!!!) nd 'The root of all evil is conditional, tribal, selective, loving, conditional family.  If I love any one I must stop for getting this.  We have so little time.  If I love any one, I must keep my focus here.  I must stop being confused and distracted.    There is no time left for Error.' Loving

nd 'I caught a flash of Jesus' vision last night. First time I've experienced that. It was his late in life prophecy Of how it would be in the end. It is not the details that I'm interested in or believe. It is the emphasis on how many are lost, AND WILL STAY LOST, DETERMINEDLY, AND THAT THIS WAS A LATE IN LIFE REVELATION FOR HIM, AN UNWANTED REVELATION FOR HIM, AS IT IS FOR ME . To his horror he saw how many were lost. He saw how few could be saved. Me too. I'm really damnale if I keep forgetting this. It is irresponsible of me. It is wrong.' Loving

nd 'I caught a flash of Jesus' vision last night.  First time I've experienced that.  It was his late in life prophecy Of how it would be in the end. It is not the details that I'm interested in or believe. It is the emphasis on how many are lost, AND WILL STAY LOST, DETERMINEDLY, AND THAT THIS WAS A LATE IN LIFE REVELATION FOR HIM, AN UNWANTED REVELATION FOR HIM, AS IT IS FOR ME . To his horror he saw how many were lost. He saw how few could be saved. Me too. I'm really damnale if I keep forgetting this.  It is irresponsible of me.  It is wrong.' Loving

It is official - all vigil property thrown in dumpster - unrevoverable Hide Details

Official word from park police. No more or less deadly, than is cancer.  We do what we want to the poor.

To partially recover, survive Tuesday's rain, while waiting the weeks till I get a 2nd cancer opinion,

I've just on craig's list and elsewhere spent $250 - (sounds like a lot - it is equivalent to 70% of everything you own, 70% of your entire wealth.)

Rain gear, tarps, sleeping bag cover, portable computer power (can't do solar for a while), backpack

to cary EVERYTHING now...

If anyone want's to dontate funds, mine are hugely depleated now, tho from some of you, you're

more depleated than I, and I'd not accept anything from you.  You've already given all you have

to humanity.

Any donations that can be spared will be shared with my 5 homeless friends also raped now of all worldly posessions, including the homesless (s) vets with me.

***** (!!!!! PLS READ !!!!) 'FACT: TRUE, MIRACLE-WORKING ACTIVISM (HUMANITY, SANITY, DUTY, LOVING...) IS, EQUALS, IS... PAYING WITH ONE'S LIFE TO HELP OTHERS - BY ALL HISTORICAL FACT.' Loving

***** (!!!!!) 'FACT: TRUE, MIRACLE-WORKING ACTIVISM (HUMANITY, SANITY, DUTY, LOVING...) IS, EQUALS, IS... PAYING WITH ONE'S LIFE TO HELP OTHERS - BY ALL HISTORICAL FACT. BY ALL HISTORICAL MEASURE.

ALL 'WAR' IS THE EFFORT TO MAKE THE STATUS QUO IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTINUE, TO ENDURE.

HISTORICAL FACT - PAYING THE PRICE WITH ONE'S LIFE FOR WHAT IS RIGHT, JUST, GOOD... IT CANNOT BE RESISTED, WITHSTOOD, 'SURVIVED...,' WHEN IN SUFFICIENT PURITY, QUANTITY, INTENSITY, DURATION, FREQUENCY.

Women's suffragists....

Tunisian Self-immolator...

Vietnam Self-immolators...

Guantanamo Hunger Strikers...

Sowetto school kids...

MY CREATOR, CAN'T WE GET ON WITH PLANNING HOW TO STOP ECOCIDE????? 

JOIN ME IN EXPLICIT PLANNING, WON'T YOU???

Loving

nd 'History's Miracle Workers are deemed such cuz their 'Vision' they act on like others act on Concrete Material Information.' Loving

nd 'History's Miracle Workers are deemed such cuz their 'Vision' they act on like others act on Concrete Material Information.' Loving

Loving's Cancer, Crisis - Update

No word yes on all belonging's from the vigil being cleared by police yesterday. Should know today.

Am now in the process, folks helping me, to schedule a cancer consult - 2nd opinion, at the elite Georgetown Cancer Center DC.  What I want is solid, actionable information.  Then I'll decide.

My biggest hurdle with DC is the restrictive Homeless Shelter Infirmary I'd be imprisoned in, in the most fertile 6 months left to Stop Ecocide.

MLK Jr. "A Person is not equipped to live unless.... they know what they would die for." ' "WOULD U DIE 2 STOP ECOCIDE?" I wish... I could carry, be, that message everywhere in the US that it needs to be seen, heard, considered. I believe there are, ARE, people that seeing it... would realize that for them, the answer is "YES," but no one is posing the question, that I see; or not enough are posing it, yet.' Loving

MLK Jr.  "A Person is not equipped to live unless....

they know what they would die for."

' "WOULD U DIE 2 STOP ECOCIDE?" I wish... I could carry, be, that message everywhere in the US that it needs to be seen, heard, considered.  I believe there are, ARE, people that seeing it... would realize that for them, the answer is "YES," but no one is posing the question, that I see; or not enough are posing it, yet.'  Loving

Update - Personal Catastrophe

Sisters, few friends, that immediately reached out to me -

You have no reason to be concerned, any more than usual.  Tho I've given you reason

to think otherwise.  I'm quite a different person than I thought I was, and I'm glad. That

I'm not rattled, shaken, distressed - today's event, the equivalent of someone's total house fire,

is so insignificant in my life, in contrast to where my concern is - our next 200 billion kids.  Oh well.

I won't know till tomorrow regarding the stuff.  80% chance the city workers were sent

in to destroy the stuff of we subhuman, street riff-raff.  20% chance the feds have it, which would let us get it back.  Should know by noon. Each officer I've spoken to has been stunningly humane, courteous.  They just can't tell from their records what was done with our stuff. I'm advocating for all we homelessriff-raff.  Tomorrow morning thy officers should be able to get to the actual staff that was involved.

Doc Cardile, bless her heart, walked 6 blocks, her own time, to consult with me re

the cancer.  This last death fast, totally unforseen by me, has worked some things in the

direction of Miracle - please follow this deeply - slightly increasing the prospective value

of me surviving an extra year or two, if it turns out that is possible, and not too sinfully expensive.

I really want to get what I consider to be a really authoritative treatment plan, diagnosis,

and cost analysis to society, now.  Then, I can decide what Humanity needs me to do.

Doc Cardile is ordering a referral, 2nd opinion from her Alma Mater Georgetown U, that she

says is top drawer. Tomorrow I should find out how soon this can take place.  I'll keep you advised.

The next 6 months is, by orders of magnitude, the best 6 months we have left, to stop

Genocide, so that I remain massively productive is a top priority.

I think Doc Cardile understands this - I sure have done my part - the potential problem being

the homeless shelter infirmary that normally is quite restrictive on patients where I'd have to stay,here in DC.  I need to be able to fight, full strength, every second the treatment would not

cripple me.

To be far too open, I am massively drawn to what seems to be still an open offer from sister (non bio - best kind) in Boston, for me to go there, live with her in her efficiency, and get Boston's unbeatable, free, care.  But Boston sis, I know me - I'm as fun as a root canal, as interesting to have around as putrid sand.  I'm horrified by the prospect of detracting from your life for 6 to 8 months of treatment, tho I yearn for the freedom it would give me to keep fighting, unfettered, those days I wasn't debilitated by treatment - not knowing transportation costs, etc, I even fantasize of making some disturbance on the pivotal campuses there - Harvard, Boston U, MIT...

But I just don't think I can do it to you sis.  I agonize at the thought.

If they can't do a rapid consult with me at Georgetown..., hmmm.

Brian, recovering from a 30 day hunger strike just ended, still had the strength to send someone

down with a sleeping bag for me.  I'll sleep well.

Delbert, a simply profoundly nice guy, homeless, made a special run to get me dinner from the homeless truck, while I tried to make progress toward recovering the stuff, with police.

All my signs, stuff, are all gone, for now.  There is something opportune in my ability to demonstrate the truth that I don't depend on stuff, nor did Jesus, nor should any of us - by continuing the vigil, my presence, in front of the embassy, for now, with only my body, and an mp3 player - my Dell is finally ready to go in for 3 weeks repair.  I'll probably send in tomorrow. Ugh.  I'd rather part with a leg, or two.

SLEEP WELL. 

Know that I know you are, and were there for me, as I'm giving my Life, for Joy, to try and

be there for us all.

I'll keep you advised.

I don't even know the phone # of the only used 3 times in 4 months emergency cell I have.

For now, email will have to do.  Please be patient with me.

Any and all comments, corrections, are welcome from you.

Cash is not an immediate problem thanks to you few friends.  What I'd need depends on much I'll learn tomorrow, and in coming days.  MERCIFULLY, I did NOT lose the solar battery, it was at firehookcharging, and I did NOT lose the solar panels - Elaine still has those.

***** PERSONAL DISASTER: CITY DESTROYED, DISCARDED ENTIRE VIGIL. GONE. GONE. GONE. ALL OF IT (DETAIL). Loving'

***** PERSONAL DISASTER: CITY DESTROYED, DISCARDED ENTIRE VIGIL. GONE.  GONE. GONE. ALL OF IT (DETAIL). Loving

No more malicious, truly, than cancer, or our war on the indigenous that simply happen to to be in the way of our ecocidal progress, or 200,000 to 1 million Iraqi's that just happened to live over the oil we Americans wanted...

...on the last day I was likely to be way from the vigil for more than moments, in coming weeks, I was away this morning for hours longer than ever, readying to send the Dell in for 3 weeks of repairs.

I arrived to what has been a recurring possible nightmare - the city, presumably, came with their dump truck, cleared the vigil, and any other unwatched belongings on the street.

Coincidence, costly, devastating coincidence. Not malice.  Conditional Love, Conditional Family, Tribal Love... these are not malicious - and they are by far the greatest Killer on Earth.

$350 solar battery gone.

$150 rolling suitcase gone.

$150 bedding, gone.

$100 signs, gone.

$150 clothing, gone.

It is going to be a cold night tonight in front of the Canadian Embassy. Mid 40's and all I have is a sweatshirt.