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1.26.2013

Armenian presidential candidate starts hunger strike News.Az

Armenian presidential candidate starts hunger strike
News.Az
Armenian presidential candidate, “Radio Hay” Company Manager Andreas Ghukasyan, started his announced hunger strike on Monday, that is, on the first day of the campaign season for the presidential election to be held on February 18. With this action ...
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Quebec says 'no' to tar sands pipelines. rabble.ca

Quebec says 'no' to tar sands pipelines
rabble.ca
The Trailbreaker would have reversed the east-to-west flow of the existing Line 9 pipeline that links Sarnia, Ontario's chemical valley, and Montreal in order to transport 240,000 barrels-per-day of Alberta tar sands oil to Montreal. The oil that wasn ...
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AVERTING ECOCIDE - WAR ROOM blog 01.26.13

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Tracking Plan B - WAR ROOM

  •     Coal exporters hit local opposition in the Northwest.
  •     Drought points up critical role of waterways. NYT
  •     Five US Coal Export Facilities to Asia Proposed.
  •     Lest you stop it, Global Warming may wipe out your Pension. Guardian
  •     2012 Grain Consumption Exceeded Production
  •     China Targeting 10 GW of New Solar Capacity In 2013. CleanTechnica
  •     Wind farm nimbyism means we just handed 13000 jobs to Ireland New Statesman
  •     Climate change endangers elephants. Planet Earth
  •     ***** World Bank President Kim On Climate Crisis: ‘If There Is No Action Soon, The Future Will Become Bleak’
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 04:30 PM PST
Whether by river or rail, coal exporters hit local opposition in the Northwest. Rainier town is one of a score of communities that lie between the Powder River Basin, home to 40 percent of U.S. coal reserves, and five proposed export terminals in Oregon and Washington. Kinder Morgan's Port Westward project would send 12 coal-packed trains per day through here.
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 04:28 PM PST
Drought points up critical role of waterways. If drought does emerge as a more prominent facet of life on the Mississippi and navigation is impeded, the effect on national and even global commerce will undoubtedly be felt. If the river got so low that navigation had to stop, grain exports and the other commodities could get a lot more expensive very quickly.
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 04:22 PM PST
Coal's 'lifeline to Asia' emerges as new front in global warming fight. Five proposed export terminals for U.S. coal offer a lifeline to an industry being squeezed by low natural gas prices and tougher environmental rules, a combination that has eaten into domestic demand. ClimateWire
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 04:20 PM PST
http://www.guardian.co.uk/sustainable-business/climate-change-resource-scarcity-pension-industry-actuaries
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 04:08 PM PST
2012 Grain Consumption Exceeded Production
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 03:55 PM PST
China Targeting 10 GW of New Solar Capacity In 2013 Posted: 16 Jan 2013 08:12 PM PST We are two weeks into the new year and China continues its march towards clean energy dominance. The Asian giant is aiming to have up to 10 gigawatts (GW) of new solar capacity this year. According to PV Magazine, if successful, will more than double its total capacity currently at 7GW.
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 12:07 PM PST
Wind farm nimbyism means we just handed 13000 jobs to Ireland New Statesman - ‎5 hours ago‎ Yesterday the UK and Irish governments signed an agreement that could see British businesses and consumers funding wind farm developments in Ireland that will export electricity to the UK. Ireland to build 'giant' wind turbines to power UK homesBBC News Ireland and UK sign wind farm
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 10:41 AM PST
Planet Earth Climate change endangers elephants Planet Earth - ‎8 hours ago‎ Climate change endangers elephants. 25 January 2013, by Harriet Jarlett. By making new use of historical records, scientists have shown that climate change could have a greater impact on Myanmar's elephants' dwindling numbers than previously thought.
Posted: 25 Jan 2013 10:32 AM PST
World Bank President Kim On Climate Crisis: ‘If There Is No Action Soon, The Future Will Become Bleak’

vid MSNBC: GOD DAMN TO HELL THE KEYSTONE XL ZEALOTS. WATCH STEVENS, IN "LINCOLN." Joe Romm, McKibben, NRDC, Ellis-Lamkins... YOU are the problem!

vid MSNBC: GOD DAMN TO HELL THE KEYSTONE XL ZEALOTS.  WATCH STEVENS, IN "LINCOLN."  Joe Romm, McKibben, NRDC, Ellis-Lamkins... YOU are the problem!

[Note: comment at bottom, left on Chris Hayes blog]

YOU ARE NOT BAD PEOPLE!  BUT YOU ARE DOING ECOCIDAL THINGS!  PULL UP! PULL UP!!!  Ahab, never did.

(Is Keystone deadly?  YES! Should WE CITIZENS fight it?  YES!!!  Is it Moby Dick, to Crucify Obama for?  NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  And Crucifixion is for millions of we citizens before it is Pr. Obama's turn.)

vid http://www.nbcnews.com/id/49263362#50597220, for example of this criminal political mal-practice by the left.  My God.

But SANITY in this same vid interview, at the end, too:
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THINK ABOUT "STEVENS" ROLE IN GETTING ABOLITION PASSED - AND LINCOLNS!

IT IS TOO LATE FOR 'SYMBOLOGY' YOU DEADLY MORONS.  MY GOD. MY GOD. MY GOD.

Comment to Chris -

Chris, watched your show segments. You are the greatest, man, so only you, and sometimes Rachel, could get me so depressed:  Allowing to stand, un-eviscerated, this insanity that Keystone is the Litmus for Pr. Obama?  Did no one see "Lincoln?"  Was nothing learned from the political necessities shown there - Lincoln, Stevens??? My God, the "Ahabs" for Keystone/Obama as Moby Dick are infinitely more dangerous than the more obviously insane on the right!  YOU, Chris, YOU have to be sharp on such things!  And hand in hand with that, Chris, yes, we the cowardly, stand for nothing, do nothing, blame everyone else left LOVE to harbor the illusion that Dr. King got us civil rights.  BUT YOU KNOW THE HISTORY!  He came on pretty much after it was a done deal - with the sweat, blood, lynchings... by CITIZEN ACTIVST ARMY.  Yet in your segment: 1. No mention, that I caught, of the most hopeful event in the last 20 year - Organizing for Action - by Obama - a Citizen Army!!!  THAT is what, if fully peopled, THAT is what can save posterity; 2. You allowed to stand assertion after gutless assertion that 'it is up to Obama!'  WHAT????  For how many months of success?  So, nothing else happens but Obama uses the EPA and Executive Action, in 2 years we lose the all important House again, cuz we've so inflamed the Right; in 2016 we lose the Presidency and Senate also, and whatever Prez O did gets wiped out! Clock runs out, game over! Pr. Obama can't be the only one thinking more than 2 weeks ahead, Chris!  3.  NOW, after the Inaugural, Pr. Obama is no longer in the cross-hairs of history; it is We the Citizens Chris.  It is WE that will go down in history as the most reviled in history, unless the few sane with a pulpet, in ADDITION to Pr. Obama - you, Rachel, Lawrence... SAVE US FROM OURSELVES, we Leftie-ion's!  Get the finger pointing the only, only, only... place there is a Hope - US, WE THE PEOPLE.  Loving


***** NYT 01.26.13: Withdraw Meaningful work, Drive Yourself, or others, Insane

My interest in this article, at this time, can easily be misunderstood
or misconstrued.   But maybe you will do neither.


NYT 01.26.13:  Withdraw Meaningful work, Drive Yourself, or others, Insane (some liberties taken with title)
Loving, here,

As I've noted for over a year now, in my assessment, the entire deadly sickness gripping near all cultures now, mostly US, almost done in dooming all creation, is the elimination of virtually all meaningful (necessary to the meaningful life of others) work, on Earth.  

This is our Religion, eliminating meaningful work (oh, please don't dismiss this notion easily.  Think!) under the names of 'convenience,' 'entertainment,' 'fun,' 'leisure,' 'ease....'  

Deadly.  DEATHLY.  ECOCIDAL.  INSANE, and the serious writing, theories, research... by Maslow, Csikszentmihaly, Alfred Adler, Viktor Frankl, Erik Erikson, Tolstoy, Jesus... is EXACTLY this. 

Meaningful work has been at the heart of Morality, and
Moral Teachings since well before Jesus, but "The Daily Bread" that Jesus CENTRALLY taught us to Pray for, is EXACTLY and ENTIRELY "Meaningful Work," and with
self-righteous, religious fervor we've been "replacing" it for
all sorts of "reasonable" reasons for 1000's of years, but with a now nearly terminal  vengeance, in my lifetime.   And until this my most recent decade I was an appostle of this false, Deadly religion of leisure, in the computing automation industry.  I didn't know; I couldn't pull it all together, but I have since.

***** WOW. vid BREATHTAKING: Guardian: Anonymous takes down US Sentencing Commission website

Anonymous takes down US Sentencing Commission website

Hackers take over gov't website to avenge Swartz

CBS News - ‎10 minutes ago‎
Last Updated 12:47 p.m. ET. WASHINGTON The hacker-activist group Anonymous says it hijacked the website of the U.S. Sentencing Commission to avenge the death of Aaron Swartz, an Internet activist who committed suicide.

To the kind souls likely willing to house me during Chemo.

Bless your hearts (reply to an email offering housing, this morning) - 
 
You five, in your households, I hear you, I suspect that
you'd all rather have me in housed, in this area and get the chemo,
than not.  
 
But that doesn't meet my threshold.  :-)  LOL.
 
Even in business, (and especially in my personal life),
my soul criteria, that to which I devoted
everything I was, was to DELIGHT!  And that will never change
for me.  If I could, at whatever
extreme personal cost, DELIGHT my clients, or those in 
my personal life, I'd pay that price,
and did, time after time, after time.  If I couldn't see how
to DELIGHT  in a certain circumstance, situation,
industry... I'd do them the service of getting out of the away, letting them
find other options; again, regardless of personal Price which I
Joyfully paid, and pay.

To the credit of you all, I know you'd have me.  But it is impossible
that doing so would be a Delight for you.  I'm not that guy, and my Life
isn't that Life, and I'd rather die than be a burden, downer,
bane to you all, or anyone....  My choice.  I know you all would chose
differently for me.

Loving u all

'I've spoken of my last 4 days Depression. MUCH to be Depressed about.' Loving

"If you seek to hold on to your life, you will Lose it.  If you Lose your life for the sake of Our Neediest Family, you will Gain your Life!"  Jesus.

Jesus, whatever else he was, was the only full Einstein Equivalent of psychology we've had.  The rest of mention, in that field - Alfred Adler and Viktor Frankl, Maslow, Csikszentmihalyi - were/are great, but Jesus was/is the Einstein of how our DNA given circuits work.  And the above quote is the relentlessly overlooked, buried, distorted, discounted... Truth of where Joy, Peace of Heart, Passion and Loving find - and I've been one of the lucky ones to Live that Truth near every breath of my last dozen year's worth.  Heaven.  The Universe, the Spirit, of Universal Loving.

But as I've shared, I went SLAM off the Path these recent days as my external world turned upside down just a little too much, and a little too fast, for me to catch before the, well, SLAM! *****01.25.13 My Personal Agony of late - I'm minding the Creator's Business, not my own. LOL.
I've pretty well regained my footing, which looks like it will be firmly in place within a few more days now.

Central to what I did that caused SLAM was looking outside my own efforts for gratification.  Yes, that is what we do in this culture, but it is not what I've learned to do in many ears now.  Oh, obviously I make it my business to know far more than most, and infinitely more than I did in my earlier decades, BUT I DON'T MAKE IT MY BUSINESS WHAT HAPPENS, just what I DO about it; cept for my footslip of recent days.  Argh!

Anyway, oh my God, how depressing.  Our 'today's Republicans, clinically, they are raving maniac savages, barbarians, sub-humans - my brothers and sisters all.
  • Arming to the teeth to defeat 'invading' US Soldiers?!?!?!??!  
  • Hating the most Christ-like among us, Pr. Obama, and yearning for his bloody death?  
  • Trashing 200 years of Democratic Precedent in the Senate?  
  • Insane with Horror and Rage over the most Loving, CENTRIST, AMERICA INCLUSIVE SPEECH by Pr. Obama Monday?  
  • Trying with all their might to RIG THE NEXT PRESIDENTIAL ELECTION by destroying hundreds of years of precedent on the Electoral College?  
  • ...WHILE EVERY BREATH OF EACH OF US SHOULD BE DEVOTED AT WAR-TIME EFFORT AND MAGNITUDE AND SELFLESSNESS TO AVERTING ECOCIDE IN THE FEW SECONDS WE HAVE LEFT TO DO SO?!?!?!?!
OH MY GOD.  Remember how Mr. Coffey in "The Green Mile" asked not to avoid his execution?  'I'M TIRED.  ALL THIS EVIL IS LIKE GLASS CRUNCHING AROUND IN MY BRAIN.'

Well, had Mr. C been on the Path Jesus died to lead us to, he'd not have made that choice.  But he'd still have had the Agony, the broken glass crunching around in his brain, in his Heart, all the time, as do I, as should you; and if you did, it would propel you to levels of Passion, Life, Action, Loving... - that you'd be Ecstatic for; which is where you'll find me soon again, Creator willing.

BTW, Clinically, according to Abe Maslow, head of the American Psychological Association in the late 60's, to NOT be somewhat Depressed at such times of horror, is, well, Insane.

Also today: 01.26.13 Chemo again looking unlikely. Seems on Living arrangements I was way optimistic. My bad.


01.26.13 Chemo again looking unlikely. Seems on Living arrangements I was way optimistic. My bad.

01.26.13 Chemo again looking unlikely. Seems on Living arrangements I was way optimistic.  My bad.

So, you, YOU, learn you need chemo over 6 months.  You do nothing with your life, your days now, of any importance, so of course, you accept arrangements that will make you 100% unproductive in the world for those 6 months, right?  I didn't think so.  And if you like, you can take the picture further, you are in a life and death fight for your next 200 billion kids, and the next 6 months are the most crucial by a large order of magnitude for their future....

NO COMPLAINT!  NO REGRET.  I've made my choices beginning more that a decade ago, and for no amount of money would I change them, or change places with anyone on earth - as frankly, I see no one else, well, maybe Diane, Malala, maybe someone else too, with the level of Joy, Passion, Peace of Heart, Loving... that I have in every breath (cept for the last 4 days or so where I fell HARD off the Path.  Back on now, pretty much.)

But to my naive surprise, it is looking like chemo is not to be, for me.  Looks like the alternative for 'living' arrangements during the 6 month treatment, I was aware of, too, would require that I "rest" for 6 months - no Phone work for 6 months for Organizing for Action; noVigiling (to this I was resigned); no computer / internet work (? - might be tolerated, but would it be welcome?  Would my wifi work from there?)

I was foolishly imagining that on the 10 days out of every 14 that the cancer doc figures I'd be functional, that I could be at least working out of libraries, and maybe vigilling during the day.  Based on info I've just received, doesn't look like that is the case - once in the "infermary," welcome to be 'out,' only for treatments, and then back resting - a 'Death sentence,' Dead, for 6 months - the most pivotal 6 months to avert Ecocide.

I'm hoping to hear that the kind soul keeping my gear for me in DC will be able to meet me Monday afternoon to do a hand-off.  If so, or by Wed at the latest, hat will enable me to resume the Vigil in front of the Canadian Embassy immediately, and to do a little final ascertaining of the specifics of this "infirmary."  If I'm too pessimistic, I should know that by mid week, and would immediately attempt to re-establish the testing and treatment regimen that has been recommended for me.  Otherwise, I'll Joyfully devote what time I have left to the vigilling, on-line activism, and if and when they offer it, devoting every second I can to Organizing for Action; as YOU should, too.

'I've spoken of my last 4 days Depression.  MUCH to be Depressed about.'  Loving
 
***** NYT 01.26.13: Withdraw Meaningful work, Drive Yourself, or others, Insane

WashPo: Obama's daring liberal agenda is neither daring nor liberal. Discuss.

Obama's daring liberal agenda is neither daring nor liberal. Discuss.

Washington Post - ‎14 hours ago‎
If there was one word that was used most often to describe President Obama's second inaugural address Monday, it was “liberal.

New Pr. Obama Chief of Staff a Climate Hawk

McDonough on Climate Change

MIT Technology Review - ‎15 hours ago‎
President Obama says he intends to address climate change. Who he picks to fill key posts will show how serious he is. In picking Denis McDonough to serve as his new chief of staff, he's picked someone who clearly considers climate change a serious

1.25.2013

Cowardly Press: If 1000's of Forced Birth Opponents marched - ZERO PRESS

Abortion Opponents March in Washington

ABC News - ‎2 hours ago‎
Thousands of anti-abortion demonstrators marched through Washington to the steps of the U.S. Supreme Court on Friday to protest the landmark decision that legalized abortion.

Forest employees end hunger strike. Times of India

Forest employees end hunger strike
Times of India
Gondia: The forest employees ended their 10 day long hunger strike on Thursday following successful negotiations with the department officials. Over 111 temporary employees had resorted to strike demanding permanent jobs. The deteriorating condition of ...
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Planetsave: Apes Have A Sense Of ‘Fairness’ That Is Very Similar To Humans, Research Finds

Posted: 15 Jan 2013 10:55 PM PST
Chimpanzees apparently possess a sense of what is ‘fair’ that is extremely similar to that of humans, new research has found. Not that it is very surprising, given how extremely similar humans and other ape species are. Previously though, the ‘expert’ consensus had been that ‘fairness’ was a uniquely human trait, though like most assumed ‘human-only’ traits ‘fairness’ has now been found to be present in species other than humans.
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It would very much surprise me if most of the traits assumed to be innately human and separate from other animals was the result of anything other than the cultures of modern humans.....

***** You thought the 70's Cigarette Lobby was Deadly? Exxon Mobil Corp. Now #1 Largest Company, Surpassing Apple. Forbes

Exxon Mobil Corp. Now #1 Largest Company, Surpassing Apple

Forbes - ‎1 hour ago‎
Market capitalization is an important data point for investors to keep an eye on, for various reasons. The most basic reason is that it gives a true comparison of the value attributed by the stock market to a given company's stock.

Cory Booker's Latest Turn as Real-Life Superhero. Slate

Cory Booker's Latest Turn as Real-Life Superhero

Slate Magazine (blog) - ‎3 hours ago‎
Cory Booker is still Cory Booker. The full-time Newark mayor and part-time New Jersey superhero is back in the news today for coming to the rescue of a dog left out in the cold yesterday by his owner.

*****01.25.13 My Personal Agony of late - I'm minding the Creator's Business, not my own. LOL.

01.25.13 My Personal Agony of late - I'm minding the Creator's Business, not my own. LOL.

As reported here:

***** 01.24.13 D20-2 Under MASSIVE ASSAULT by my Fleshly Spirit

01.25.13 Day 20-3 In Turmoil Discerning Chemo Arrangements

I've been in pretty massive psychological distress in recent days - if not severe depression, pretty near thereto. Quite the Agony.  

I'd be embarrassed, I'd feel a 'failure,' cept, I'm doing the best I know how, in the moment.  There are reasons that few, not one in a million, find, walk, or stay on the Path of Joy, Peace of Heart, Loving, Passion... that Jesus died to lead us to!  Goodness, am I being reminded of that!

I'm making progress back to that Heavenly Path:

1.  I'm devoting Hours in Prayer, Guided Meditation, to refocus from my Fleshly Spirit gone wild, to why I'm here, and why you are here - our Tortured, and soon to-be-Tortured children - the next 200 billion, that have been, Joyfully, the totality of my Spirit, but that I've unwittingly allowed to be stripped OUT of the center of my being, displaced by pitiful "personal" concerns, worries, pain, and the doings of others, even though promising!

2.   The Euphoric prospect of Pr. Obama now moving into position to directly fight for our children's future, against Ecocide by Green House Gasses, understandably was, well Euphoric, for me.  The problem with that?  NOT MY BUSINESS.  It is NOT MY BUSINESS what Pr. Obama does.  The only thing that EVER is MY business is what I ATTEMPT!  And I've been rock solid in that, until recent days.  

It is not my business:

A.  What Pr. Obama does or does not do, except as that informs how I best attempt to help our 204 billion kids;

B.  Whether, where, how, when... I receive chemo, and how severely that destroys my ability to serve during the regimen, except the degree to which I personally can shape that path, which appears to be very little. NOT MY BUSINESS.  THE CREATOR'S BUSINESS.  

"Full effort is full success!" Gandhi.  "We are not called to be successful.  We are called to be Faithful."  Teresa of Calcutta.  "We are not here to survive.  We are here to Serve."  Loving.  :-)  All three correct.  Maslow spoke of this in terms of "intrinsic motivation."  'Whosoever would hold onto their life shall lose it; and whosoever would Lose their life for the sake of Our Family, shall Gain their Life.'  Jesus.  In this sickest of all cultures, where Affloholism is our Religion, how hard to remember; how hard to practice; how easy to Fall....

Minding the Father's, the Creator's business is Always a Deadly mistake, regardless of how unintended, and Hell for those that live in Error (Sin, from the Greek) on this point.

 I have close to 150 elements I cycle through every week, 100 or so here, like the two points in the prior paragraph, that I've learned, that tho they are almost all restatements of the same truth, any one of which overlooked, forgotten, at the wrong time, can lead to falling off the Path, out of Heaven on Earth... into the Agonies, the Hell of the Fleshly Spirit, with the possibility of never finding the way back (like I couldn't for 30 or more years!)  Argh.  "The gate is narrow, and few will enter in."  Jesus.  He wasn't kidding.

But with A and B I feel myself returning to the Kingdom.  I suspect I'll be back In, soon.  I Pray.

 

VIDEO: Fox News' War On Solar Energy. Media Matters

VIDEO: Fox News' War On Solar Energy

Media Matters for America (blog) - ‎Jan 24, 2013‎
In the wake of Solyndra's bankruptcy, Fox News went on the attack against solar energy, exaggerating its cost and downplaying its potential in an effort to paint investments in solar as a waste of money. But despite Fox's myopic focus on one company's ...

***** World Bank President Kim On Climate Crisis: ‘If There Is No Action Soon, The Future Will Become Bleak’

World Bank President Kim On Climate Crisis: ‘If There Is No Action Soon, The Future Will Become Bleak’

***** Thank God for Chief Spence: Chief Theresa Spence can end hunger strike with head high: Editorial. Toronto Star

Chief Theresa Spence can end hunger strike with head high: Editorial.

01.25.13 Day 20-3 In Turmoil Discerning Chemo Arrangements

From a note to a kind soul that navigates patients in the DC medical system:

"I pray you are well.

It is perfectly clear to me that with recent political developments regarding
the cause to which my life is dedicated, averting Ecocide, there
is a need for me to beat this cancer so that I can be on the field
of battle for as many years as possible. 

Will you Sister, without yet taking any action on my behalf, please advise me?

*  Would it be possible, do you think, for me to re-initiate care
from Dr. M?  How would I go about that - just email her?

*  How would I re-initiate the two tests that were required - brain
scan and PET scan of my liver?

What remains unsettled for me is the "where," DC or
Philadelphia?  My #1 choice is in DC because
that is where Politically I am likely to be able to be the most help.  However,
the lodging that is necessarily required by the hospital for me is hugely problematic
(I'M NOT COMPLAINING IN ANY WAY):

A.  I can't even consider the wonderful C. House because, of
necessity, given their primary clientele, they are 100% restrictive on internet
communication and I would forgo the chemo rather than be cut off from
internet communication for 6 months.  Impossible for me.  Living Death,
literally, for me.  Quite literally I've paid most every material price a
person can pay in this society, these last dozen years, in order to fight
full time for our children, every price, EXCEPT FOR MY PRIMARY TOOL
IN THE FIGHT -  the Internet, and access thereto.

B.  Doc C has kindly told me that the Infirmary at a local Homeless Shelter would likely
be available to me, but in the absence of any detailed knowledge of that
arrangement, which is probably what I will do anyway, I imagine that
whatever possessions I had there would be subject to likely theft, which means that
I would not be able, even on days when I was healthy and mobile, to have
with me the things I need for the activist work I do; removing the primary
reason for me to be in DC!  Argh!  Plus, I'm guessing, the way most shelters
are, my hours of exit and entry would be highly restricted, further limiting my
activism on healthy days.

C.  I think that B above, the Infirmary, is how I will likely go, if Howard,
Dr. M, would take me back, but due to the major restrictions
I mention, I am unable to yet part with the idea
of staying with friends in the Philadelphia area, if the Medicare could be set up
here and treatment secured here.  This option is almost out of the question for me because
I am unwilling to be a burden to them, dear, dear folks.  But because of the
problems mentioned above, I also can't get clear in my head and heart, yet,
the best way for me to proceed.

If you can share with me any answers to the above, I'd be very grateful.

Your brother, no matter what,