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8.25.2012

Loving, here. Have you ever been taunted at one of your coffee shops? Sworn at? Viciously and cruelly discriminated against, repeatedly?


August 25, 2012

My dear friends at xxxx coffee shop,    (their Identity protected, so far)

Have you ever been taunted at one of your stores?  Sworn at? Viciously and cruelly discriminated against, repeatedly? I have.  Not by your staff, who are genuinely nice and professional folks, but still, at your store.  Is that what you are about?  It was clear discrimination.  That’s illegal I suspect.  It certainly is not what xxxx, or the building owner wants to be associated with here in DC just blocks from Judiciary Square.  Is it?

The most recent cursing and  discrimination against me at your store was today.  I arrived about 8:30, purchased a large cup of decaf, and your store being quite empty that early, sat discretely at a table back in a corner for an hour.  You see, I have facial tattoos, and as a courtesy to you, I sat in a rear corner out of the way of folks.  Your staff is very nice.  I try to show my appreciation.  Last evening for example, at about 7:30pm, I spent at least 10 minutes, probably 15, cleaning up and straightening up your patio.  Your staff would have done it but  you must have had a busy day, chairs were all over, and trash was all on the ground, all around.  By the time I was done, all the chairs were in their place and the trash picked up.  

Today, after drinking some of my coffee, not wanting to take space in your store, customers were accumulating, I went to a remote part of your patio to continue working for a while.  Within 10 minutes, as has happened to me at least twice before, the power was cut to the outlet I was using for my laptop.  Within 5 minutes after that, the man that did it the first time, a dark skinned man, early 40’s I’ll guess, when I saw him I said, ‘I purchased coffee here this morning.’  He said nothing.  ‘I’m going to speak to the manager about this,’ meaning your store manager, to which he replied, “I’m the manager you son of a bitch.”  HUH?  HUH???  Cursing at me?

The prior time I saw him directly was about 2 months ago.  Again, I had purchased a drink, and was sitting in a remote part of your patio.  After about 10 minutes the power was cut.  5 minutes later, the man who today said he was the manager, came out and taunted me.  WHAT?  ‘Oh, did something happen with the breaker?  Oh, I don’t know anything about it, but I guess it did.’  Lying to me.  What?!?!?!?
Is it because I have facial tattoos, that obviously don’t have a lot of money, from my appearance, probably don’t have a home, or is it because of those three things on top of which I am a highly educated, multiple degrees, white guy?  It is absolutely rank discrimination, which  as I’ve said, to my knowledge, is against the law in America, in DC.

I expect that like every other of your customers, from here on in the future, I will be treated exactly as are all of your other customers, including, the power outside will be on, and left on when I use it.  Period.
I know you will do with this letter what best serves this end, so that I need not do so.  It can be used by you with your corporate management, DC Homeless Advocacy Law Center, the building manager, other DC Legal advocacy… or whomever you need to terminate this discriminatory, illegal, unprofessional behavior.  I wish this nasty man nothing ill.  I wish the discrimination to stop, by your action, not mine. 

NOW. I’ll know your response by how I’m treated in the future.  I know your staff will all vouch for my civility as will dozens of Secret Service, and Park Police officers in town who have watched my respectful advocacy for human rights these last 9 years or so.

Your brother, no matter what,

James E. McGinley 

GWDF2 D10A Debilitated with Pain again today. Bk 3 -

Sleep, thank goodness, so far is relatively painless.

When I awake I have 2-300 of my daily 800 calories, partly, so I can take the Prilosec and Iron without too much pain.  Uh, not today.  For the last 3 hours it is all I can do to try and doze and deal with the stomach pain.  :-(  So much work time being lost.

If this continues, Monday I'll seek an appointment with the doctor for pain management.

Those hours that I can work I'm compiling, "Your next 200 billion kids are on planet Hell unless now.... The Words of James Hansen, Lester Brown, Joe Romm, Michael  Mann, IEA, IPCC...."

8.24.2012

Audio Version Online - Resurrecting Your Unviolent Warrior - a Personal Trainer

http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/p/book-2-resurrecting-your-unviolent.html

Undocumented mom risks life in US to join activists TIME

Undocumented mom risks life in US to join activists

nd GWDF2 D9B Pr. #1: Compiling the Essential Hansen, Brown, Romm, McKibben. Daily Headline Posting on HOLD.

nd GWDF D9B Pr. #1: Compiling the Essential Hansen, Brown, Romm, McKibben. Daily Headline Posting on HOLD. 

Mass. Commuters Save Woman, Son From Train... ABC News

Mass. Commuters Save Woman, Son From Train...

ABC News - ‎54 minutes ago‎
Quick-thinking Boston-area commuters are being praised for rescuing a woman who tumbled off a subway platform and onto the tracks with her 4-year-old son in her arms.

8.22.2012

nd GWDF2 D8B Stomach Pain Largely gone last 4 hours

nd GWDF D8B Stomach Pain Largely gone last 4 hours

Bain Closes US Plant, Forces Workers to Train Chinese Replacements DailyFinance

DailyFinance

US middle class has 'worst decade in modern history' Chicago Tribune

US middle class has 'worst decade in modern history'
Chicago Tribune

nd 'I'd just let it go if today's adults were the one's to be crushed, C, L, R. But the kids?' Loving

nd 'I'd just let it go if today's adults were the one's to be crushed, C, L, R.  But the kids?'  Loving

GWDF2 D8B Severe stomach pain 2nd day

My concern is the distraction from work.  Today, I'm managing to keep working, pretty well.

My dear doc Cardile had proscribed prilosec several weeks ago.  I took it for about 4 days and stopped because it seemed to bring on the ache.  It is supposed to de-inflame the stomach lining.  Starting this morning I'm trying it again.   It can take up to 4 days if it is going to work.

Late this week or early next I expect to see the doc again if this continues.

8.21.2012

nd 'Jesus, King, Gandhi... made the word, Flesh. We're to do the same.' Loving

nd 'Jesus, King, Gandhi... made the word, Flesh.  We're to do the same.' Loving

GWDF2 D8A Back on post. Debilitated by stomach pain. :-(

GWDF D8A Back on post.  Debilitated by stomach pain.  :-(

Uneventful return trip, except my stomach hurt so bad I couldn't work, only try to rest, and that has continued the several hours I've been back.  Was it the rocking of the bus?  Progression of whatever I've got?  Too much exertion?  I'll watch it tonight, tomorrow... if this continues I may reconsider the tests, cuz I can't work, I can't concentrate with this pain.  Wimp!

Mercifully, all of the stuff I left under a bench was there undisturbed, except for some work by rats, the four legged kind.

That's all for now.  Got to go back to resting and trying to deal with this stomach pain.

nd 'God is that which is True, no?' Loving

nd 'God is that which is True, no?' Loving

8.20.2012

GWDF2 D7B Slept 17 hours today. Silence? Privacy? I'd forgotton. Seems my Body hadn't forgotten.

I had no idea my body was so exhausted - between living in a fishbowl on the streets for 1/3 of a year now, the internal bleeding, anemia, years for to-death's door hunger strikes, half rations now, not an hour's break in so many years I can't remember (how I Love it)...

Slept 12 hours yesterday, and 17 hours deep rest last night.  Little other work completed these two days besides telling some folks that have been rocks, angels in my life that I Love them, and repacking, shedding a bunch of stuff for beloved friends to store and eventually disperse.

My bus back to the Canadian Embassy leaves at 9:50am.  I can hardly wait to get back in the fight.

800 calorie per day slow-death-fast continued. Losing about 1/4 to 1/2 pound per day from 164 lbs on 8/8, the day before Nagasaki.

It remains to be seen how many of my belongings are left.  Megabus has a 50lb weight limit that I exceeded mightily but had to leave 2/3 of my belonging's under a bench. If I were black, and a con, they'd be fine.  But I'm not.  We'll see.  May have to re-create the signs, do without sleeping bags, etc.




8.18.2012

nd 'The Entire Gospel - Give everything you are to our Global Neediest. It's Heaven. There's none other..' Loving

nd 'The Entire Gospel - Give everything you are to our Global Neediest.  It's Heaven. There's none other..' Loving

GWDF D7A - FACT: Joe Romm surrendered to defeat years ago in his "Hell..." book: I didn't realize. Unlike Brown,

Unless he did a total about face in the final chapter?  Oh, and yes, per the subject line, Brown hasn't yet conceded, in words, but in deeds he's always conceded.  Fact.

Traveling to Phila for 2-4 days to say goodbye to dearest friends.  While waiting in the cattle chute for Megabus I began re-listening to an audio version of Hell and High Water in the Library. 

The following isn't personal.  My next 200 billion children are currently doomed by Plan Armageddon. Only THAT is personal to me.  The rest is figuring out how to save them and who might help, and who is hindering.

I'm going to have to listen again.  But it is 92% clear.  He is 99.9% clear.  'Politically, things just aren't going to change.  The best we can hope for is for 40' sea level rise next century.'  WTF!?!!?!?  Maybe he saves his courage for the last chapter?

No, I shouldn't be surprised.  Nice guy.  Engineer. Scientist.

Four major features to his background: 
1.  Fact - MIT science;
2.  Fact - Gov and non-profits - never had responsibility or experience leading people to high stakes change, nor doing it himself.
3.  Fact - He has been at this for decades with total failure, objectively, in bringing change. It is the rare person that can take the blame for that on themselves;
4. Fact - His audience goes to zero, like mine, if he steps up to the impossible, because more than maybe anything we've made the bargain in this society to avoid facing the needs of society so we can devote all to ourselves;
5. Fact - His funding goes away, from is books, his job blogging, the American Progress Think Tank - an arm of the Democratic Machine - they'd not have Joe playing with the platforms of the party.

Hmmmm.

No wonder he and I are on different planets.  My bad.  So much to learn, so little time.

Conceding defeat is almost impossible for me, and for Joe, it is all he's ever known. Fact.

ps:  McKibben has so embraced defeat he isn't even worth mentioning, my brother tho he is.

pps:  Hansen is the one that hasn't caved yet, and probably won't, but he hasn't the background or character to be able to stand and even begin to fill the leadership background.

8.16.2012

Dietrich Bonhoeffer Path-blazes for us: "Who Stands his Ground?"

"The responsible man seeks to make his whole life a response to the question and call of God."

The great masquerade of evil has wrought havoc with all our ethical preconceptions. This appearance of evil in the guise of light, beneficence and historical necessity is utterly bewildering to anyone nurtured in our traditional ethical systems. But for the Christian who frames his life on the Bible it simply confirms the radical evilness of evil.

The failure of rationalism is evident. With the best of intentions, but with a naïve lack of realism, the rationalist imagines that a small dose of reason will be enough to put the world right. In his short-sightedness he wants to do justice to all sides, but in the mêlée of conflicting forces he gets trampled upon without having achieved the slightest effect. Disappointed by the irrationality of the world, he realizes at last his futility, retires from the fray, and weakly surrenders to the winning side.

Worse still is the total collapse of moral fanaticism. The fanatic imagines that his moral purity will prove a match for the power of evil, but like a bull he goes for the red rag instead of the man who carries it, grows weary and succumbs. He becomes entangled with non-essentials and falls into the trap set by the superior ingenuity of his adversary.

Then there is the man with a conscience. He fights singlehanded against overwhelming odds in situations which demand a decision. But there are so many conflicts going on, all of which demand some vital choice--with no advice or support save that of his own conscience--that he is torn to pieces.


Evil approaches him in so many specious and deceptive guises that his conscience becomes nervous and vacillating. In the end he contents himself with a salved instead of a clear conscience, and starts lying to his conscience as a means of avoiding despair. If a man relies exclusively on his conscience he fails to see how a bad conscience is sometimes more wholesome and strong than a deluded one.

When men are confronted by a bewildering variety of alternatives, the path of duty seems to offer a sure way out. They grasp at the imperative as the one certainty. The responsibility for the imperative rests upon its author, not upon its executor. But when men are confined to the limits of duty, they never risk a daring deed on their own responsibility, which is the only way to score a bull's eye against evil and defeat it. The man of duty will in the end be forced to give the devil his due.

What then of the man of freedom? He is the man who aspires to stand his ground in the world, who values the necessary deed more highly than a clear conscience or the duties of his calling, who is ready to sacrifice a barren principle for a fruitful compromise or a barren mediocrity for a fruitful radicalism. What then of him? He must beware lest his freedom should become his own undoing. For in choosing the lesser of two evils he may fail to see that the greater evil he seeks to avoid may prove the lesser. Here we have the raw material of tragedy.

Some seek refuge from the rough-and-tumble of public life in the sanctuary of their own private virtue. Such men however are compelled to seal their lips and shut their eyes to the injustice around them. Only at the cost of self-deception can they keep themselves pure from the defilements incurred by responsible action. For all that they achieve, that which they leave undone will still torment their peace of mind. They will either go to pieces in face of this disquiet, or develop into the most hypocritical of all Pharisees.

Who stands his ground? Only the man whose ultimate criterion is not in his reason, his principles, his conscience, his freedom or his virtue, but who is ready to sacrifice all these things when he is called to obedient and responsible action in faith and exclusive allegiance to God. The responsible man seeks to make his whole life a response to the question and call of God.

nd 'Objectively Jagerstadder, Corrie, Bonhoeffer... FAILURES.' Loving

nd 'Objectively Jagerstadder, Corrie, Bonhoeffer... FAILURES.' Loving

GWDF2 D6A Severe Stomach Dicomfort for Hours

http://youtu.be/AM23ZY_fqrs

GWDF2 D6A Characteristic 108. Channeling Creative Tension Every Breath

http://youtu.be/sZRivAuR08U


GWDF D6A Characteristic 108 Channeling Creative Tension Every Breath

As I've before written and said, there are two ways to bring radical change - show up with enough guns and kill or threaten to kill until you get what you want, or show up with enough loving bodies and die until you so evoke the humanity of onlookers that pressure comes to bear from them and you get what is rightfully yours.  Violence and unviolent action; 1. Destructive Tension, and 2. Creative Tension. 

It is essential to understand these the two ways of creating tension, and it was with Dr. King that I first saw that the concept of creative tension (actually I first saw the concept from MIT's Peter Senge in his book “The Fifth Discipline,” but the earliest reference I've seen is Dr. King), that all advance for humanity comes from, not the absence of tension, but the near unbearable creative tension: seeing on the one hand an impending horror and seeing on the other hand the slimmest chance of averting that horror, particularly for dearest loved ones; tho for the INSHE warriors, ALL are their dearest loved ones.  This is really at the bottom of what Gandhi spoke of - truth force – the emotive truth of how things should/could be and the truth of the horror of how they are now or are about to become; unless prevented, stopped, averted, replaced….

We are not bricks, we’re not trees, we’re not cats, we’re not birds.  Our DNA would have us be human beings and as humans we are motivated by, moved by, tension.  We’re driven away from something by the tension of fear, by threat of force, by actual force.  We’re drawn to something by the tension of passion, sense of solidarity, desire to alleviate someone else's pain, or threatened pain, and thereby alleviate our own which we feel vicariously, empathically. 

Gandhi on hunger strike was a tsunami of creative tension for ultimately millions, maybe billions around the world.  It was excruciating, it was e-motive, that is, moving, was e-motional, motional.  Wave after wave of people in India marching simply to get salt that had been taken from their oceans that was rightfully theirs, clubbed unrelentingly, kicked in the groin over and over, but did not raise a hand to protect themselves, channeling creative tension to millions around the world via vicarious learning, empathy, the royal road to hacking our defenses and awakening the heart.

Alice Paul and her sisters in prison 30 miles South of here on hunger strike, being force-fed simply for demanding what was rightfully theirs, the right to vote as full human beings.  This channeled immense creative tension.

And that's what I seek to do, every breath, to bear near unbearable creative tension and thereby channel it into the world to be available for others to take it on, and if others do take it on, and too begin channeling it thought every moment of action, and thereby spread the fire, then, and only then will there be hope.  Unless others succeed where I’ve failed, which I pray, but don’t see happening, or even tried.

There are only two ways to bring radical change and only one brings radical change to the world permanently, that is life.  They both can lead to permanent radical change.  Much more of the violent kind, destructive tension, the violent tension, will conclude Armageddon, environmental Armageddon and in the Middle East it may spark global Armageddon, nuclear war.

Creative tension is the one that adds to the complexity of life, which is to say it expands, it enriches human life, possibly forever.  That's the direction of evolution. That is loving.  That is the force of loving.  That is the truth force Gandhi spoke of, the soul force.  And that is what I seek to be in every cell, every atom, every molecule of my body, with every breath, because therein lies all hope.

And you?

GWDF2 D6A - Bk 3 Begun - Plan B 5.0 Carbon - Averting Plan Armageddon

http://youtu.be/-1Qrdc9Pbys

8.15.2012

nd 'Maintaining Peak 'Creative Tension' - Strategic Essence of Unviolent Warfare.' Loving

nd 'Maintaining Peak 'Creative Tension' - Strategic Essence of Unviolent Warfare.' Loving

GWDF2 D5B Like Jesus, Obi Wan, Helping from the Other Side

http://youtu.be/NK8bkHcfN_Q

GWDF D5B - Updated Handout


nd 'No Status Quo Stands Without 3 Legs - Right, Center, Left.' Gandhi

nd 'No Status Quo Stands Without All 3 Legs - Right, Center, Left.' Gandhi

GWDF2 D5B Internal Bleeding Tests Say

http://youtu.be/4ws1HjErKuQ

nd 'It is only those who envy me that I've benefited.' Loving

nd 'It is only those who envy me that I've benefited.' Loving

8.14.2012

GW's Death. Fast2. D5A - Near debilitated all morning, the internal bleeding...

GW's Death. Fast. D5A - Near debilitated all morning, the internal bleeding, or whatever this anemia thing turns out to be (sure feels like that), near crippling fatigue.  Mornings are the worst.  I remember that the 1st Death Fast, that turned out to be a weapon's test, was the same - morning's the worst.

Thank Goodness, thank Creator, my head is clearing and I can work now.

GW's Death. Fast2. D5A - Loving's Romm, Brown, Hansen Book Reviews on Amazon

http://www.amazon.com/gp/cdp/member-reviews/A1G5T0R38UGCWI/ref=cm_pdp_rev_all?ie=UTF8&sort_by=MostRecentReview

GW's Death. Fast2. D5A - Book 1 Addition

The following has just been inserted in the front of the book "Global Warming's Death. Fast.  Till enough are seen dying for it, CO2 won't stop."  See tab, above, or click here.  Uploading to scribd, now.


August 14, 2012 note 


How I wish I could tell you to delay digging into this book now.  How I wish I could point you to others that do it’s job, better, as well, at all.  But I can’t.

Dig in, but for another couple of weeks, Creator Willing, you’ll have the additional task of keeping the following in mind, changes that are in the works for the book in 2 or three waves:

1.     The entire notion of “death,” “dying for a cause,” for the joy, life, hope, sanity, humanity, future giving of it… is and remains central to the book.  However, as I’ve known and lived for years, but briefly lost confidence in recently, is that there is a place, narrow and near impossible to find, there is a place for “dying for a cause” that is not a “Death Fast,” or “Self Immolation,” or the like.  Teresa of Calcutta died for her Family in Calcutta for decades, with immense joy, but unmistakably dying that her charges might have the experience of being loved and valued before they passed on.  Pathologically we the most powerful people on earth, we Americans, have perverted the notion of “non-violence” to mean, non-violence to ME, and MINE.  Gandhi did the reverse, as did MLK Jr, Rachel Corrie, Bonhoeffer, Oscar Romero, who spoke of the ‘Violence of Love’ that we unviolent warriors do to ourselves.  No, non-violence, unviolent action is the exact opposite of what we’ve distorted it to mean.  By the INSHE Warriors worthy of the name, throughout history, unviolent action has been exactly racing toward the emergency, the danger of others, and exactly putting and keeping ourselves, and our dearest ones, our bodies in harm’s way, to shield the otherwise victims, until they were saved.  So, near everywhere in the book that you find Death Fast as the only way, you will soon see that slightly broadened to include especially, what I conducted two, 50 day, water only hunger strikes last year to seed – waves of to death’s door but not though hunger strikes until carbon warming gas dumpers are paying their future wrecking costs, and not sending those costs on to our children.
2.     The need for substantial focus on subsidies and not just on the legislation to insure full payment of $240/ton of coal and oil, and $6000 per ton of natural gas seepage, after a straight ramp to those figures beginning 2012.  In recent weeks Republicans Inglis and George Schultz, Reagan’s Sec. of State, and others on the right, have been calling for the carbon gas dumpers to pay their costs for that, but that all subsidies, fossil fuel and renewable energy alike, should go away.  The market forces being held in abeyance by the future killing free dumping of warming gasses, those pent up forces are so enormous, that I need to, and expect to re-examine both the historical size of fossil fuel US subsidies (I may have overstated them in the book by as much as a factor of 5-10), and whether subsidies need to be an aim of ours at all right now.  Getting enough of the dumping and wreckage costs on the bill of the dumpers now, may well be more than sufficient.
3.     1.5 degrees C, NOT 2.0 degrees C!!!!!!!!!! What does this mean to the numbers, the tons of carbon we yet can burn, the rate of decrease in emissions required by when…?
4.     Pricing Methane Seepage correctly, fully, now.  My quick search suggests vs the $240/ton on CO2 it is $6000 per ton on natural gas seepage, but this needs more checking and thought.
5.     Rechecking, re-calibrating, and where necessary, updating in this book the crucial figures that we moms and dads of the next 200 billion children, grandchildren… need to know to properly stand for our kid’s future.  What is a reasonable estimate of the damage done by burning each ton of coal and oil – is it the $240?  $11,000?  What is a reasonable estimate.

I anticipate these updates happening in waves: A. rough cut; B. far more detailed analysis.  There is a date of revision shown above that will be updated as changes occur kept current on scrbd.com.

GWDF2 Day 5A: Raining, off-post working most of the day; or not

Though my body and mind are severely experiencing the calorie starvation, I must break the back of tasks I outlined yesterday in a post.  Awakened by the rain throughout the night, I finally concluded that discretion is the better part of valor, and will spend most of today, I expect, husbanding what physical energy and mental acuity I have for the crucial work at hand, using coffee shops and libraries as a less taxing base of operations today.

Hmmm.  Now the internet forecast is suddenly for much less rain, and the sun just came out.

We'll see.

Indian yoga guru ends hunger strike after 6 days, now wants to oust ruling partyMinneapolis Star Tribune

Indian yoga guru ends hunger strike after 6 days, now wants to oust ruling party

GW Death. Fast2. Day 4 -Bk 1 Update: $240 per ton, Subsidies, Dying for it, what that means

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WYs2x6ybM8A

GWDF2 Day 4 - $240 not $311 ton The frickin Docs won't talk straight to us

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDIK_LR2MOQ

Rush transcript -


Day 4 - The frickin Docs won't talk straight to us. $240 not $311 ton 

I'm pretty outraged.  Partly at myself.  About a week ago I saw a global warming article, one of the hundreds of titles I cull through everyday.  I came onto an article and had a euphoric sense of reaching a  point of clarity; a kind of clarity you need if your kid is deathly ill and you can't get straight answers. 

I recalled finding it in a major IEA article; if that wasn't it it was climate progress. Actually, it was a report on Nicholas Stern’s study at climate progress.  Stern talked about $84 a ton in damage being done by a ton of carbon so I quickly calculated 3.67, which I believe is how much CO2 is generated by burning a ton of carbon, and came up with $311 per ton, which I now see, is wrong.  It would be incorrect, it would be inverse, it would be more like $20 per ton of carbon.  I haven't delved back into the article; I haven't yet done the digging to figure out what the actual, a reasonable estimate of the actual damage done by burning at ton of carbon.  If I recall correctly, if we put more than half a trillion tons of CO2 in the atmosphere between, well, ever, any in this next century, we go over 1.5° C.  May be less than half a trillion tons, which is roughly what we have up there already of CO2 from us this last 30 years, primarily.

So half a trillion tons of CO2 divided by 3.67 would give us the number of tons of carbon that we can still burn.   Methane, natural gas, that has to be added to the story.  And that divided into 20%, conservatively that we will destroy, into 20% the value of the world for the next 2000 generations we are ruining, how many quadrillion dollars is that, would tell us the cost of burning at ton of coal or oil.  What's that, $1000, $10,000 a ton?   Now that I ball-park figured it out, try and work that out yourself.  If I live long enough; if I remain cognitively functioning long enough which am wondering about, my typing skills have just totally bombed, and to make a mistake like this above, a miscalculation a week ago… the fatigue of years without a break, the stress, the anemia, the calorie deficit….

But you know what? I'm not the Dr.'s.  But I am what our doctors are not.  I'm a parent, a Bangladeshi father; and the father of a daughter in 2050 looking at what our visionless, imaginationless, gutless, cowardly, intelligentsia have done to my daughter, and I've beamed back to 2012 simply with the ability to put my body in the way.  And because the doctors won’t give a straight answer, won’t give us actionable information - what has to be done by when - as they would if they saw this as their own children; without question as they would demand if they saw this as their own children….

I'm not complaining, but I'm furious. I'm furious at myself. I'm furious at the insanity of the left, of the intelligentsia, that they think they own this problem, they think they have the right to being respected, to be listened to; to people being patient with them…. I, John Q Bangladeshi father; I John Q multibillion father of upcoming generations; I'm John Q Athabascan father; I’m John Q native Alaskan father; I'm John Q father of 2050 girl….  You, the ‘Doctors’ on the left might want me to be patient but God dammit I'll not be. I'll do what I can to do your job of getting actionable information and yes I'll screw up that more and more as my body breaks down.  But you'll not stop me from trying. God damn you.  Romm, McKibben, not so much Brown and Mann, Hansen, they seem to be doing their best.  God damn Climate Progress.org, American Progress.org.  It’s not American progress, it’s a frickin club. Just try leaving a comment that they don't find pleasant, that they don't find agreeable, that actually wants some answers. They won’t get published on their blog.

My sense of it is that it was the intelligentsia on the left that was guillotined in the French Revolution – ‘Left them eat cake.’

So the best I know now is - I don't know what the price per ton is, what the cost to the future of each ton burned is, and I'll probably try and figure it out dammit. I didn't need another thing to do.

But for now, I'm back at the $240 ton of carbon which is what the economists calculate is needed to bend the emissions curve down 6% per year starting now; 6% from the current projection as I understand it, to keep this under 1.5° C.  And that I consider bedrock - 1.5° C.  I consider it bedrock of my stand, of the stand you should make.  Look at the Copenhagen Diagnosis, Google it.  That was put together for the Copenhagen climate conference in large part, as I understand it, was put together by in part the island nations, the developing nations. But unless I'm wildly incorrect it's the best statement so far, which I may be wildly incorrect on this, if what Romm said in “Hell and High Water,” before he kowtowed to the powers that be, when a blind man could have seen we wouldn’t get a climate agreement in Copenhagen, same with McKibben, not so much Mann and Hansen. Brown essentially has caved with his, ‘wartime speed, oh, call your congressman…’ for six years now. ‘Oh,’ says Brown,’ ‘well I feel encouraged how things are going,’ he says. I don't think… I don't think he's a Bangladeshi father, or an Athabascan father, or an indigenous Alaskan father, or the father of 2050 daughter.  I know he’s not. I know he is more of a human than that.  He wouldn't keep putting out these mealymouthed prescriptions if it were his family.  But it is mine; John Q.

8.13.2012

GWDF2 Day 4 Death Fast - Slowing my Descent 800 cal per day, for now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nDvey2a-6M

Rough Transcript:
Day 4 - Slowing my Descent  800 cal per day, for now

I'm tempted to say I screwed up but rather I manifest our screwup.  This is not a one-man job, no disrespect to anyone else's effort.  Coming up with a diagnosis and treatment plan that will avert environmental Armageddon is not a one-man job. I can do it. I have the aptitude.  I have done this kind of work my entire life, and I can do it alone.  But it at such a hideous, hideously, slow pace.   Faster than anyone, because I realize it needs to be done.  But so much slower than it needs to be done.

I don't know how many days it's going to take me to answer the question that I thought I had answered last week, which is fundamental to being able to articulate, and stand, and win; a maximum of 1.5° rise. 

I’m John Q, and if you don't understand what that means you need to watch that movie, John Q I'm not a heart surgeon but I am a dad, who's going to be buried by his son, I am not going to bury my son.

I'm smart and I'm determined and I have a background that enables me to do this, but there are still too many gaps in my fundamental understanding. 

See John Q.  See that movie.  See it see it tonight.  In that movie his coldhearted, bureaucratic, Dr. an administrator at least told him what was required to save his save his son – ‘your son needs a new heart, he needs it now, or he’s going to die.

Our bureaucrats, some of them told us the equivalence of this clarity up until Copenhagen, and now they've they've waffled for years since Copenhagen, with tons of un-actionable mealymouthed stuff coming out of them.  ‘Your son's gonna die!  Your sons gonna die!  Your sons gonna die! I do something!  Do something!  Do something!’   Do what!?  By when?! 

I don't intend to leave this life until I can leave a clear answer to that. I don't know if it's going to take me a couple more days, or another week or so; not to become a brain surgeon, not to become a heart surgeon. John Q didn’t become a heart surgeon.  But I need to know, based on the data that's out there, the Copenhagen Synthesis I now think is the document I think I should point people to, not the Copenhagen Diagnosis which is part of caving to the 2° C.  No.

I'm certain that 1.5° C maximum rise by 2100 is the avoidance of hell and high water but I need to check that against Romm’s book by the name “Hell and High Water;” by Hansen's work, by Mann’s work and by the Copenhagen Synthesis (not sure now), a PDF that I just found.  You should look at them as well.

I need some fundamental elements. I need to know how much additional carbon that enables us to emit how much additional CO2 that we can put the atmosphere without risking 1.5 degrees C.  I need to figure out where methane seepage fits, a few figures in there, pieces of this puzzle; but no one bothered pulling, pulling together. 

So, I've got to refigure the price per ton. I'm guessing that's the $240 but that's not good enough, guessing, that is. When enough of us died to get the proper argument on the table I need to give you a number. I need to get in the ballpark on what the wreckage costs per ton of carbon is.  Now I just did some wild figuring and came up with $11,000 per ton. I don't mean silly figuring out.  Real broad order of magnitude.  I think it was something like this is a currently a $70 trillion world economy, the next thousand generations makes it a 70,000 trillion dollar world economy; I figured something like 150 more billion tons of carbon that we could burn without breaking 1.5 degrees C; took 20% of a 70,000 trillion dollar economy for the next thousand years and figured we’re wrecking 20% of that, which is a conservative figure given the economist Nicholas Stern's work, where he figures initially we’re destroying 20% of world GDP, going up to 35% in the medium term, and worse from there; and came out with if we are destroying only 20% of the world economy, it is something like $11,000 per ton.  This is huge.  It's a hell of a lot more than $240 per ton, and I want to know what that is.  You need to know what that is, and I need to leave you with that. 

So going about 800 cal per day for another couple of days, for another couple of weeks, I don't know, but can't leave you without a clearer roadmap. All this will go into an update of Tracking Plan B, of “Global Warming's Death. Fast.

It continues to appear that what we have to accomplish is 6% decrease per year versus the current trendline to stay below 1.5° C.  It appears that Hansen continues to have the humanity, continues to have the balls to point us in the right direction.  But God bless him, and it isn't his job to know how to make the argument, to win the argument.

It's been my entire life doing such things. I see no one else doing it so I've got to leave you the other information on which you can stand and know whether policy is giving you that 6% decrease per year, how many tons of emissions, what's the maximum tonnage of coal that can be burned and still stay below 1.5 degrees C.  Oh, there are numbers out there for the maximums to stay below 2° C.  No.  2° C is Hell and High Water.  Two degrees C is the oceans that the reefs gone; a third to half the world's species gone; 6 foot sea level rise this century.  No.  That's crazy and I don't know whether I’ll have a breakthrough the next couple of days, or how long this is gonna take.

Watch for reports that I'll try and post soon that are the what I consider to be the pieces that we need to pull together, and help me, God dammit.  This isn't rocket science.  Its interpolation; it's good basic work; for God sake help me. 

Or tell me who's already done it.  But I need to know what the treatment plan is to save our children; our next 200 billion children; and I can't find it anywhere. I can't find anyone with enough humanity or clumsiness to stand up with a clarity that the doctor and administrator did in John Q, which means I got a try and fill that role for us.