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1.01.2019

Log. Things I know now, a little bit better than the year before.

Things I know now, a little bit better than the year before.





How irritating someone is to me is a pretty accurate measure of how much pain they are in personally.

At least 1/3 of any population in complex cultures of the last thousands of years, are would be oppressors, slave owners, exploiters, molesters, abusers…. The segment of the population that would be the French aristocracy, the white slave plantation owners, the Nazis, never go away. They only go underground.

The documentation, the rigorous experimentation, now proves that psychology has been an enemy of Sanity with few exceptions being the Abraham Maslow's of the world. It did, and still does, pathologized empathy, love, Humanity, decency, Vision, intuition in service of the tyranny of our head and flesh in charge.

The likes of Jesus, Buddha, Confucius, Muhammad were great inventors far more important than any in technology, science, Industry in the last 200 years. Albert Einstein observe this. And yet in line with the tyranny of psychology and materialistic wisdom, that only the head and the flesh matter, not the mammalian loving limbic system, the heart, the soul,, there has been no progress and substantial regress since these Giants of humanity, Psychology, Soul, walked the earth. The only progress that really matters is standing on their shoulders and going Beyond, yes, too late to save creation, but not too late to save an individual here or there.

I do not yet have the skills, though they seem to be building, to stop wasting time watching the burning of everything that is decent, not just the fires.

I'm writing this in 31 degree temperature, it was 17 degrees Fahrenheit this morning and going down into the low 20s again tonight. I continue to learn that throwing off the tyranny of my head and flesh for the freedom of my soul, the limbic system, the mammalian brain, is the path of unending Joy, even if a bit inconvenient and a little bit uncomfortable sometimes. But not much of the discomfort is due to ignorance of how to make a body quite truly comfortable in ways that our society says are quite impossible.

Have I learned this? I hope so, because it might be the most important lesson for the little time I have left. The great embodyiers of the Soul, Jesus, Confucius, Buddha, Etc, never saved more than one in a million and that continues through to today. I have in essence wasted much of my life trying to prove them wrong. No. I must devote the rest of my life to trying to save the next one in a million and I think that I can be quite joyful and focused there. And it is truly fostering delusion when I Stray From This implying that more than one in a million can be saved. Why such a low number? The toxicity of our cultures these recent thousands of years. In an old asphalt parking lot the most one can hope to do is to cause a flower here or a blade of grass there to find healthy life. This is the work.

It has not been nor will it become my purpose to be a competent cyclist. But time has made me one anyway. This is useful because I should be able to avoid having to spend time focusing my attention on moving the vehicle.

It certainly does seem that the mechanics, maintenance, performance requirements of this complex experimental vehicle are pretty substantially understood. It was wildly unstable and horribly financially expensive before. Not so anymore. So it seems. Thanks to those who got us this far.

For a number of years now I have been existing off of the kindness of friends and devoting every penny of my tiny Social Security, under two times the National Poverty Level, to this mission. Only in the last several months have the needs of the vehicle allowed us to surface from horrible credit card debt. But that seems to have happened. Barring any unforeseen disaster it's now likely to continue. And going forward we continue to learn that we can almost always live rent-free financially, BLM, National Forest, or at about $4 a day but that rarely is done by us.

The last year and for the foreseeable future the primary focus of this mission is to increase in ability to help the one in a million throw off the tyranny of their head and flesh, and put their soul in charge for the joy of it. The prior two years involved establishing this experimental vehicle as a type of thing which among other things could manage the mileage of a young cross-country cyclist, 70 miles a day. That phase is passed. And this past year it has been learned, really in the last month or so, that not 30 miles a day or 40 miles a day as necessary. This wonderful vehicle is a micro RV, a tiny home. And, it is a phenomenal exercise mechanism. It is 750 pounds. So 10 miles a day at 4 miles an hour even in an area that I've been staying in for weeks now, can give this old body 1400 calories every couple of days worth of exercise. Dramatically dramatically dramatically reducing the wear and tear on the vehicle.

This year I have learned that I would much rather be at the base of a magnificent Mountain freezing my ass off, battling high winds, then down in a much warmer area, Southern California, which is also quite nice but much more built up with much less access to the physical Beauty.

Autism for some or many may be substantial health pathologized. It may be that what we consider normal and highly desirable in our society is being crippled empathically, and that the problem with autism is a heightened deep empathy. And this as a theory makes my entire life much more understandable to me then it was even several weeks ago before this Theory occurred. Among my Fondest Memories is the wife of an executive with whom I served in the Washington DC area several decades ago seeing the hunger strike for Darfur in front of the Sudanese embassy wrote thinking that I wouldn't see it, this man is a sad case of runaway compassion. I've never received a better compliment.

To be continued….

Absolutely wow. Video. Rave and Rivet.

And moments before this one was on a slightly upper Branch feeding the other. What a privilege.


For those few serious human beings, indescribably important.




On my third reading now, beginning a detailed annotation and digestion.

If like Karen Armstrong you are a great spirit, International scholar on the world's religions, unlike me, then this book is not important to you.

If you do not have an undying Agony over the pain in the world, Unstoppable for most, but not for all, then this book is of no importance for you.

If you think that so-called spirituality, religion, is either just a personal choice or something to fight over, this book is of no value to you.

But Armstrong clearly sees it differently by implication, and I'm finding it Beyond invaluable. She understands that the giant founders of the world religions were creative Geniuses, inventors, regardless of how they thought of themselves. They created Solutions to improve upon the Life of human beings and all of creation, by creating a vision, an understanding, of how to be that was a less painful, more joyful, less destructive, integration between the truth of our human being, and the physical and cultural environment in which we live.

I do not know of a more important book, or body of information to study and go beyond, in this 2019 world for the serious human being needing to personally grow to be of Greater service to creation.

It is legally free for download here.

https://archive.org/details/ArmstrongKaren

Often I have thought of myself as that character in Close Encounters of the Third Kind, driven mad by a vision that grasped him that he did not understand, in his living room sculpting he knew not what. Armstrong's understanding is not new to me, but the exhausive scholarly insightful underpinnings are. It is gasoline on my fire.

Almost exactly a year ago an iteration of that Fire Within Me, The Vision Within Me, took a large step forward, much larger than I realized up until this moment, I'm seeing now, here. We have all got a lot of work to do.

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12.25.2018

Susie come!" How close to the edge she is, measured by how irritating she is I suspect.....


Susie come!" How close to the edge she is, measured by how irritating she is I suspect.
At the base of this beautiful mountain, on an otherwise peaceful 'holiday' morning in a half populated small Campground, my neighbor, Susie come! Susie come! Susie come! Over and over and over and over.
Periodically I've been wondering how to deal with this.
Among other things it brought to mind how infinitely more irritating I was when in early 20s I had a wonderful dog, but was a thousand times more noisy than this lady.
So glad I am for the thought that just occurred to me. How irritating she is probably speaks very accurately about how close to the edge she probably is. It certainly did with me.
James

12.22.2018

Autism. The blind pathologizing those .... >>>



Autism. The blind pathologizing those who have sight? Extraordinary insights from my friend. Empathy deficit? Deep empathy overload. Overloaded souls in a sick world.

To my friend who has children with autism I sent this video that you've probably seen, along with the following note. And my friend replied.

Depressed and Then Diagnosed With Autism, Greta Thunberg

I wrote: I so relate to this young person. I've often wondered if I am on the autistic Spectrum though that is supposed to involve profound lack of empathy and that does not seem to be my problem. Hugs

https://www.commondreams.org/news/2018/12/19/depressed-and-then-diagnosed-autism-greta-thunberg-explains-why-hope-cannot-save


My friend: ahhhhhh well that's the very very common and very very wrong assumption that so many make about those with autism...even folks who are supposedly experienced and trained make this mistake all too often....that those on the spectrum lack empathy. I have never seen this to be the case. Not in my children and certainly not in any of the other autistic folks I've been around of any age. If anything it is more suffering from a profound SURPLUS of empathy and being near paralyzed by it that is far more typical. And I read more and more articles that back up this more radical view.

It is more a lack of empathy on the part of the caregivers and the researchers in my opinion that leads them to this very wrong conclusion. Because they fail so utterly to understand the motivations and reactions of these unique individuals. Because how could they understand? Their brains are not wired at all the same.

Here's an example. When my child was in 2nd grade he got suspended and I was called down to the office to school for a "very serious" incidence of my child apparently "BULLYING" another child. I was shocked, flabbergasted and appalled that his teachers and administrators at the school so utterly failed to see who my child is and what he is capable of. So I went to the school and listened to all the things they accused my child of. Here was the tale: there was another student who was having a hard time, crying, throwing a tantrum, apparently inconsolable. and while the teachers and "responders" were trying their hardest to contain the situation, My child was absolutely incapable of following the instructions all the other students were given to ignore what was going on and get back to work. What /they/ saw was that my child walked over and started laughing in close proximity to the boy. In defiance of their orders. So they interpreted that as malicious, as him laughing AT the boy and trying to make things worse. Which somehow escalated into him being a bully. So I kept quiet and listened as they all scrambled to roll out this story about my son that not a single bone in my body felt was true. When they concluded I said, well, what did my child tell you happened when you asked him? And they all stopped and looked at each other and said, well, we didn't ask him. We just sent your child to the office for disobeying and making everything worse for everyone. Your child was being a BULLY they insisted.

So I said, did my child cause the student to be sad? or upset? No, no your child didn't do that. I said, okay well my child is in the next room, go ask my child. So my child came in and looked red and ashamed and vulnerable and sad and I said, can you tell me why you laughed when that boy was having a hard time? And my child started crying and said through his tears, "I was laughing because the teachers told us that laughter was the best medicine for sadness, so I wanted to go over and cheer him up"

You could have heard a pin drop. I smiled and looked at my child and said, "of course you did honey, thank you, that's what I thought. You need to know that most people didn't understand that's what you were trying to do, and that most people here don't think the way you do, so you may have to occasionally explain to them what you're doing so they understand."

So they let my child go back into the other room. And I stared them down and said, okay, so first you're going to tear up that piece of paper that uses the word BULLY that you want me to sign and put in my child’s permanent record. And then you're going to find a way to apologize to my my child for traumatizing him over my child’s misguided attempts to help a friend in need. And then you're going to let my child get back to class and learn some stuff rather than punish my child for giving a fuck.

ANYWAYS, they did all the things I asked. And my child has been treated and responded to differently ever since. They now understand that my child is NOT even capable of lying and if anything is more likely to get in trouble by confessing to doing things my child thinks maybe shouldn't have even when nobody is looking for someone to blame. They also understand that my child’s heart, even if actions are awkward and confused because of difficulty connecting with and understanding how to interact with neurotypical folks, is in the right place. It's gotta be so frustrating and challenging for my child when I'm not there to help translate for or advocate for him, but my child's getting better at doing that all the time.

James, I'd say, there's a pretty strong chance you are on the higher functioning end of the autism spectrum. I know that I very likely am. It's just that being female for some reason makes the symptoms different, less severe, than it can present in males. I suffer greatly at times from an excess of empathy. It's crippling, if you look at it in a way...but in other ways it's enormously liberating, because I can see and understand things at a level so many others seem utterly incapable of. Fascinating, really...

Thank you for sharing this :) I love reading stories of children standing up to asshole adults Heart.

My friend provided some of the research and I found a third piece easily.

https://www.thedailybeast.com/a-radical-new-autism-theory

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/aspergers-alive/201303/guide-reporting-autism-theory-mind-empathy

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/out-the-darkness/201705/is-autism-really-empathy-disorder

The blind Society pathologizing those who can see.

PS. What a tremendous contribution from my friend, and personally I find it extremely Illuminating on my own life. A shallow empathy cripple am I, but deep empathy, not so much. For much of my years I yearned for the reverse. But for decades now I have understood it as my wealth. My soul. My life. Thank goodness it was never the reverse.

12.19.2018

Quail!


Ravens snacking


Who can imagine being like Jesus, or Buddha, or Confucius, or Gandhi, or Martin Luther King Jr? Who would want to? Such.....



Who can imagine being like Jesus, or Buddha, or Confucius, or Gandhi, or Martin Luther King Jr? Who would want to? Such lives are so admirable, most people do admire them, but be like them? I happen to know someone who does want to be like them, me. They are the folks I have envied from my earliest recollection, such an extraordinary quality of life. To love the world that much. I suspect this is what has been missing in all the religions. So close and yet so far. The most admirable enviable Quality of life ever achieved is by such individuals. And some, many, most, all of us are born to be capable of such quality of life.