Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I......

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I embarqed toward the journey that has captured me ever since. Leaving the ways of our culture, 180 degrees in the opposite direction, from working to make rich people richer, like me, to lived solidarity from the soul serving our neediest sisters and brothers. It was Joyful from the start. There was never, has never been, the tiniest portion of a instant when I've been other than overjoyed with this total change of direction. It is pretty much muscle memory for me now, but not so at the beginning. It could not have been. It was natural for me, I think it is the natural path we were all born to. But our sick culture strips us away from that path, thinking it virtue to do so to its children, and puts us on exactly the opposite, exactly the wrong path. And we gain muscle memory for that and our nervous system literally and actually atrophies for the correct path. So it takes tremendous work and experience for that to be recreated. Really in my departure on this path I found it useful to imagine that there is a creator of us all, a parent figure that unconditionally loves us all. For me then and now God is love, life, and Truth. Period.  People like Teresa and Gandhi said the same, and most if not all of those who throughout history I Revere lived the same. That was an understanding in my head but it was also something more and more clearly felt in my spirit. It became tangible for me in that way. I had a wonderful warm feeling, tremendous peace, each moment that I experienced myself as in creators will. And then I received the gift. From my earliest memories I was obsessed with the female form and all things sexual toward that form. For most of my decades, carefully taught by my culture in a trillion ways, I thought that virtue. I was carefully addicted to all of the lists that our society worships but I'll speak of this one for the moment. The gift I received was in the form of a question that came to my mind, as I was following my inclination to admire a shapely female form, the question came to me, is that that you are now starting to direct your attention toward, is that toward or away from God? The answer was instantaneous for me, instantly and comfortably clear, away from. Yes, I can hear the chorus arguing otherwise. I'm speaking what I experienced then, and with every breath since. The answer for me was instantaneous, that's away from being a vessel for love, life, and Truth. It is turning away from love, toward lust, toward my selfish inclinations, away from serving the neediest from the soul in solidarity. It was then instantly clear to me that turning away from the pure Spirit of love, life, and Truth, was not the choice I wanted to make then. And it has never been the choice since then that I have wanted to make, in any instant. Experientially for me it is not about right and wrong. It is not about guilt or not being guilty. It certainly has nothing to do with an afterlife in which I have zero belief. For me it is simply a matter of now having a mechanism that enables me to pursue Joy rather than pleasure, Joy being infinitely more gratifying in any and every moment then pleasure. I don't know that this could make sense to anyone beside me. Or maybe everyone beside me learned it much earlier and knows that much better. I don't know that it can be helpful to anyone beside me. But it has saved me from wasting even moments on Pleasure when there was an infinite Divine banquet of Joy there before me,   and before all of us I believe, with every breath we take. But it is all but completely obscured behind the Avalanche, the ocean, the universe, love sick country messages inundating us from our pathological, suicidal, malignant culture telling us exactly the opposite. So without mechanisms such as I just mentioned it is almost impossible to choose the joyful path from moment to moment.. James

In life it is inescapable that each moment we seek to feel psychologically full, and there are only two ways to pursue that: 1. Having, 2. Being. In our culture......

In life it is inescapable that each moment we seek to feel psychologically full, and there are only two ways to pursue that: 1. Having, 2. Being. In our culture we are taught that there is only one way, having. In truth, there is only one way that can succeed, that can make us feel constantly full, being. Did you know that Americans are the most self-medicated people there have ever been? Did you know that for decades Americans have been roughly 4% of the world's population consuming roughly 25% of the world's resources?

Criminalizing the hustle: Policing poor people’s survival strategies from Eric Garner to Alton Sterling

http://www.salon.com/2016/07/08/criminalizing_the_hustle_policing_poor_peoples_survival_strategies_from_erin_garner_to_alton_sterling/

''The disappearance of jobs has sparked political anger, feeding opioid addiction, alcoholism and early death, and, among the commentariat, fomented bewildered discussion about the state of white working class people. But the disappearance of work hit black people first and hardest, decimating industries at the very moments when African-Americans, after centuries of marginalization, had only just got their foot in the door.

In the Baton Rouge area, says Spence, the minority male unemployment rate in 2014 was 2.7 times higher than for whites.....

The contemporary era of policing and mass incarceration emerged precisely to confront black people with limited or no access to formal work. As the sociologist Loïc Wacquant puts it, “in the wake of the race riots of the 1960s, the police, courts, and prison have been deployed to contain the urban dislocations wrought by economic deregulation and the implosion of the ghetto as ethnoracial container, and to impose the discipline of insecure employment at the bottom of the polarizing class structure.”''

***** It was only about a year ago I came across a thought that had never occurred to me. People of color are the color of Earth, natural. People like me without color of the freaks, the color of death, bones.

It was only about a year ago I came across a thought that had never occurred to me. People of color are the color of Earth, natural. People like me without color of the freaks, the color of death, bones.

Striking Photos Of WWII Refugees Escaping to Safety In Syria

http://sobadsogood.com/2016/06/26/striking-photos-wwii-refugees-escaping-safety-syria/

### There's really only one obstacle to Justice for our homeless sisters and brothers. We as a culture quite broadly want every Justice for our homeless sisters and brothers. Every Justice except for the only one that matters, economic Justice, because economic Justice requires the redistribution of wealth, and the best Among Us are unwilling to have more than a penny or two Avail wealth go to those in need. I'm not condemning us. Although I think we are condemning ourselves.

### There's really only one obstacle to Justice for our homeless sisters and brothers. The obstacle is not greedy corporations. The obstacle is not the government. We as a culture quite broadly want every Justice for our homeless sisters and brothers. Every Justice except for the only one that matters, economic Justice, because economic Justice requires the redistribution of wealth, and the best Among Us are unwilling to have more than a penny or two of our wealth go to those in need, let alone the substantial if not massively distribution that conscience, that Humanity, that heart requires. I'm not condemning us. Although I think we are condemning ourselves. Personally my life is devoted to restructuring this value system Within Myself, and I recognize that in doing so I fashion of my life my only possibility for so influencing others in the same direction. And I do so not for any Noble goal. I do so because there in lies the only life of joy and true meaning. I do what I do for the ultimate greed of it.

### Is the AWOL faith community in Philadelphia on the Democratic payroll? My reply: They are not on the Democratic payroll. I spent a year, including my first Hunger Strike, to try to get them to cross the line from talking about helping the children in Chester Pennsylvania, to actually doing it. It's not about the Democrats. It's about the American disease of worshipping money, viewing money as life itself, Above All Else. They care about the poor, they are just........

### Is the AWOL faith community in Philadelphia on the Democratic payroll? My reply:  They are not on the Democratic payroll. I spent a year, including my first Hunger Strike, to try to get them to cross the line from talking about helping the children in Chester Pennsylvania, to actually doing it. It's not about the Democrats. It's about the American disease of worshipping money, viewing money as life itself, Above All Else. They care about the poor, they are just unwilling to allow anything that will cause Financial Justice for the poor because that will cause them to pay a personal price and they're unwilling to do that. They'll allow anyone and everyone else to suffer and die before they'll allow that. We will allow everyone else to suffer and die before we will allow that, paying the personal price for economic Justice for the poor. It is a liberal disease and a conservative disease. It is not about the political parties, they just manifest in different ways. And it's not just Martin Luther King that we haven't seen since the late sixties, it is large groups of people with the same level of sanity, Humanity, that fought alongside of him. All that died a long long time ago. That's the problem.

To a friend younger than I: Maybe you think I'm getting too philosophical, but my understanding of cancer is, not that it's a cell that decided to attack the body, but a cell that simply decided to stop devoting every second of its existence to the well-being of the body. It grows like crazy, robs all the cells around it of what they need to exist, and the body dies. My Generation, the Boomers, embraced cancer as.......

To a friend younger than I:  Maybe you think I'm getting too philosophical, but my understanding of cancer is, not that it's a cell that decided to attack the body, but a cell that simply decided to stop devoting every second of its existence to the well-being of the body. It grows like crazy, robs all the cells around it of what they need to exist, and the body dies. My Generation, the Boomers, embraced cancer as the ultimate Way of being. Selfishness as love, the ultimate perversion. You young folks are the recipients of five thousand or so years of humanoids in too-complex societies that has brought the human species and all species to the doorstep of death. Like cancer cells we were blind to the fact that we were killing the body, but unlike cancer cells, we were willfully blind.  Denial, our ultimate achievement. For the intoxications of it I did my part of bringing us to death's door. For the joy of it I'm trying to move us away from that door. Sorry. So sorry.

Pic. If one chooses to win, to be on The Winning Side, they will choose the status quo. By every objective measure the status quo will prevail and destroy everything. If one chooses joy, to be aligned with the forces of life, to have a life that feels like that, they will choose anti-violence, the......

If one chooses to win, to be on The Winning Side, they will choose the status quo. By every objective measure the status quo will prevail and destroy everything. If one chooses joy, to be aligned with the forces of life, to have a life that feels like that, they will choose anti-violence, the losing side, the side of tough loving, no matter what. I wish it were other than that, but that's how it is. Those are the choices.

### in Desperate attempts to stop global warming I have gone literally to death's door, happy to go through if it would help, on 50 day plus water only hunger strike numerous times. I can no longer understand why I did that. I see nothing........

### in Desperate attempts to stop global warming I have gone literally to death's door, happy to go through if it would help, on 50 day plus water only hunger strike numerous times. I can no longer understand why I did that. I see nothing in humanity as a whole worth saving, not now, not through the last five thousand years. A few individuals? Yes. I don't have an allegiance to cancer. I don't have an allegiance to the plague. I would not have an allegiance to the Borg or the crystalline entity from Star Trek. I do not have an allegiance to the human race outside of the small Aboriginal tribes for which we were designed, and the handful of individuals that each generation somehow retain their Humanity in the viciously deadly cultures that we humans in large masses develop and promulgate. And I have a loyalty that will never die to do what I can to lessen the suffering of the most abused, neglected, persecuted such as  are Palestinian family  and our sisters and brothers  in the underclass here in the DC region. We are the weapons of mass destruction. God save the universe if we escape Earth.

### This preemptive mass media coronation of Hillary taught me three things things: 1. Even the one in a million that I thought was an uncorrupted human needs to be suspected, 2. Rachel Maddow and Chris Hayes are corporate whores, immoral chameleons, 3. The power of greed and therefore those who hold the money is even greater than I thought.

### This preemptive mass media coronation of Hillary taught me three things things: 1. Even the one in a million that I thought was an uncorrupted human needs to be suspected, 2. Rachel Maddow and Chris Hayes are corporate whores, immoral chameleons, 3. The power of greed and therefore those who hold the money is even greater than I thought.

***** Our, sick, pathological, ecocidal, mania religion of winning, being a winner, was instrumental throughout my life in keeping me from being a decent, responsible, humane human being. I didn't.........

***** Our, sick, pathological, ecocidal, mania religion of winning, being a winner, was instrumental throughout my life in keeping me from being a decent, responsible, humane human being. I didn't realize it. I don't know that it's a plot. But it is such an Insidious way of framing the task of Being Human in terms of consumption, domination, exploitation, Conquest. Insidious. I hope you wake up before I did. Central to the Life Choices of all those throughout history that I Revere was somehow rejecting this insane notion. It has taken me a lifetime to learn that the joyful path, the Humane, sane path is to work in almost the opposite direction. No, the purpose isn't to fail, but the purpose is to do what's right and in a culture, a world, as near absolute death as is 2016 Earth, to select the path of trying to do what is right, trying to do what is needed by our neediest sisters and brothers, is to select the near certainly losing path. I shall select this near certainly losing path for the rest of my days for the otherwise unattainable joy and peace of Heart and Hope of it.

The political, cultural and judicial system in a capitalist state is centered around the protection of property rights. And, as Adam Smith pointed out, when civil government “is instituted for the security of property, [it] is in reality instituted for the defense of the rich against the poor, or of those who have some property against those who have none at all.” The capitalist system is gamed from the start.'' Chris Hedges. See article.....

http://m.truthdig.com/report/item/reform_or_revolution_20160522

***** I want a world where we give ourselves, give our lives, to the least of these, not where we continue to prostitute ourselves to the most greedy of these, so that we can become among the most greedy of these.

***** I want a world where we give ourselves, give our lives, to the least of these, not where we continue to prostitute ourselves to the most greedy of these, so that we can become among the most greedy of these.

***** It's a curious thing with activists in the last 40 years. Somehow they gleefully embrace the notion that, whatever I feel like doing is better than nothing. I like the idea so it will work. The opposite of SNCC. The opposite of Martin Lu.....

***** It's a curious thing with activists in the last 40 years. Somehow they gleefully embrace the notion that, whatever I feel like doing is better than nothing. I like the idea so it will work. The opposite of SNCC. The opposite of Martin Luther King jr. and those that worked with him. The opposite of Saul Alinsky. The opposite of Gandhi. Very much the stuff of the neocons. Very much the stuff of the conservatives. Very much the stuff of Wall Street, the hedge fund managers. Very much the stuff of the religious fundamentalists. Very much the stuff of Mission Control that sent up the space shuttle Challenger. Very much the stuff of the Pentagon. Hey, it seems right to us, let's do it, it's better than nothing. No discipline, no academic or theoretical rigor, no historical grounding, no humility, no self-restraint, no solemnity, no Soul, no dignity, no paying-the-price.... Hey, I'm an old guy. It really doesn't matter a lot to me personally. I just hate to see you younger ones pissing away what little chance you had.

Does anyone have children... for the CHILD'S Joy? Adults have children thinking about themselves, as I perceive it. How unspeakably selfish. 'Oh, I just think we have created such an incredibly wonderful, bright, joyful, future, in the year 2016, that I just really really really want to bring children into the future. It will be so wonderful for them!!!' WTF???????

Does anyone have children... for the CHILD'S Joy? Adults have children thinking about themselves, as I perceive it. How unspeakably selfish. 'Oh, I just think we have created such an incredibly wonderful, bright, joyful, future, in the year 2016, that I just really really really want to bring children into the future. It will be so wonderful for them!!!' WTF???????

Video. Man. Steve Cutts

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WfGMYdalClU

***** I am not an unkind person. I took no joy in watching my cancer be killed, but I was an aggressive party to it. I take no joy per se in the American dream imploding, but.......

***** I am not an unkind person. I took no joy in watching my cancer be killed, but I was an aggressive party to it. I take no joy per se in the American dream imploding, but with respect to the survival of species including human I am glad to see it happenning. I'll continue to do what I can to help us find the wisdom, the sanity, to take charge of the implosion to minimize the otherwise horrible collateral damage. And I'll do what I can personally, and I'll promote as aggressively as I can, that we starve the bloody monster to death just as quickly as we can, just as quickly as Mother Nature demands... yesterday... two centuries ago.

***** You are welcome to hate me for this if you like. Almost always what we mean by love, 99.99% of the time in this sickest of all societies, is lust, be it lust for a Coca Cola, a sex partner, a house.......

### You are welcome to hate me for this if you like. Almost always what we mean by love, 99.99% of the time in this sickest of all societies, is lust, be it lust for a Coca Cola, a sex partner, a house, a vacation, a burger.... Love is me about the other person and their joy and absence of pain. Lust is about me and mine feeling pleasure. 99% of the people that read the picture below will be thinking about lust, though they are sure it is love, as was I, sadly, for most of my decades I was well taught. In no way am I saying which is superior, tho in my experience one is absolutely Superior. Pursuing our lusts is pursuing pleasure. Pursuing love is pursuing joy and our own self sacrifice, and the joy and reduction and suffering of those who need it the most. They are the opposite human emotions. The result of one is constructive creation, the result of the other is war and destruction. The results of 1 is endless cycles of craving and satisfaction craving and satisfaction. The result of the other is complete ever-present Joy, complete ever-present personal suffering, and complete ever-present piece of heart...

For the first time I'm seeing the rich, the 10%, as our mortal enemies.

For the first time I'm seeing the rich, the 10%, as our mortal enemies.