Video log. The man Jesus was absolutely correct. Salvation is being son, daughter, of Creator in this life.

https://vimeo.com/246295125

Zero credit to me, I think nearly everybody needs what I have to offer, a clear view of the path to life. But maybe no one feels the need for me. You got to want Jesus, the man, bad. You kind of want Gandhi, bad. You got to want James, the path, bad. I'm thinking I baby wasting everyone's time, and being a coward, by being so accessible, I'm thinking of Facebook. There is a significant chance that all of my posting will be done on Blogger now, much less easy to get to but very easy for those that want. In a way I think I've been disguising what is available by being so available.

It has succeeded every time. Speaking the truth cost me everything material, and gives me infinitely more toward building the kingdom of Brotherhood on Earth. Divine.

Grants Pass Oregon

A mass permanent revolution of loving possessing the world's people is the only hope for a future worth living. This by any and every objective measure.......

A mass permanent revolution of loving possessing the world's people is the only hope for a future worth living. This by any and every objective measure that I know. The loving revolutionary in this world that is self-extinguishing due to vast oceans of evil, the loving revolutionary makes of their life as powerful an antidote, as powerful a cure as possible. Possibly being chemo drugs such as have held my cancer at Bay, possibly being chemo drugs is no picnic. Being the loving revolutionary is no picnic and if it is one is not a loving revolutionary. The loving revolutionary relentlessly places their life limb treasure such that the savagery, hatred, inhumanity, Godlessness, satanic nature of those people and institutions possessed by evil might become so sickening  at the site of their own evil that the all-important spectators cannot tolerate the sickness and begin to act, and even some of those most possessed by the evil become the so sickened by seeing their own evil so that they act to cure it. This is the best description I know of those throughout history that has been loving revolutionaries. I believe that this understanding just expressed advances the thought process of how to fight evil. It came to me as I slept. I believe that my soul is committed to being that type of chemo, to being that type of antidote, that type of cure and I expect it to be living hell. I will be glad when my life is over, when I have breathed my last breath. But I will not hasten that by my own action intentionally despite the relief that I would get from that. I have no belief in a life after this one for me or for anyone else. I never have near as I can recall. I have no interest in it. In part I have no interest in it because I can't imagine a heaven that would be a place I'd like to be. But yesterday I received a wonderful thought. I do find it morally clarifying to imagine such Concepts as heaven and hell and how you get to one or the other. Anyway what popped into my mind, I have no recollection why, what popped into my mind was that there are no angels in heaven. It was a wonderful thought. I was so glad for it. I am so glad for it. Of course there would be no angels in heaven. Why, you may ask? Well, an Angel would want to be here on Earth and would return here to try and lessen the suffering.

If you knew that there is no heaven outside of this life ( it's true ) , and you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what would you be doing today? Why aren't you doing that???

If you knew that there is no heaven outside of this life ( it's true ) , and you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what would you be doing today? Why aren't you doing that???

When I allow the pain of my own concerns to become the focus of my attention then my life is more painful than joyful. When I overcome that and redirect ......

When I allow the pain of my own concerns to become the focus of my attention then my life is more painful than joyful. When I overcome that and redirect my focus to the pain of others then my joy outweighs My Pain by far. They are always both there but the proportions, the joy hugely outweighs any concern I have for my pain. That's the magic of loving.  ''I have learned the paradox that when I love until it hurts, there is no more hurt, there is only more love.'' Teresa of Calcutta

***** I am alone, isolated, fighting alone, ( and every breath filled with joy and peace ) because 15 years ago I did what terrifies Americans, what terrifies westerners, what terrifies we over-privileged, what terrifies liberals, what terrifies activist-inos... more than anything else in the world. I gave up. I surrendered. I refused to......

***** I am alone, isolated, fighting alone, ( and every breath filled with joy and peace ) because 15 years ago I did what terrifies Americans, what terrifies westerners, what terrifies we over-privileged, what terrifies liberals, what terrifies activist-inos... more than anything else in the world. I gave up. I surrendered. I refused to fight anymore... I refused any longer to fight my heart. I refused any longer to fight my conscience. They had been nagging at me my entire disgustingly over privileged life. I at long last caved, I gave in. I found within me a vow that I have adhered to ever since. I didn't make a vow,  as I find doing such things terribly counterproductive. I found the vow in my heart and I surrender to it for the greedy Joy of it. That vow that I found there and surrender to was that I would give my life to my human and nonhuman family on Earth as best I could with every breath. That I would never again prostitute myself to the values, machines, organizations, systems of Our Sick culture for one second, not for 1 cent, regardless of the personal consequences, that I would give my life and not divert one second to earning a life for myself. If my sisters and brothers were happy to let me expire, that wasn't my business, that wasn't my concern, and I would not  divert a second to that. And with never a second thought because of the overwhelming peace and joy of that path, and because of the singular hope that that path gives, I have never looked back, only forward to the absolute joy and peace and hope of that decision, that direction, of that path. That is,  I finally said yes to what we westerners have been taught to avoid with our last breath, I said yes to heart in charge ( not to be confused with self-indulgent sentimentality ) and thereby I allowed the material world that I had been taught to Crave as a Westerner to totally disintegrate, to totally turn against me because of the path that I walk. Again, never for one breath have I looked back because of the overwhelming joy and peace, every breath, and extreme pain of the suffering world that is my fuel, of that path. I gave into truth Force. I gave in to soulforce. I surrendered to my heart. I have worked assiduously to keep my heart in charge ever since and with very very very few moments of error, I have succeeded. It is heaven, the heaven that has always been written of, and the heaven not one in a million find. But it is the heaven that every true activist lives in by whatever words, or no words at all. The one in a Million. Obviously I use every neuron in my head, infinitely more than most. Obviously I find physical strength despite my stage 4 cancer and age that many people can't imagine. That's what the heart in charge does. I use my head. I use my flesh. More particularly my heart, that I deliberately and scrupulously keep in charge, uses  both my head and my flesh to the fullest. But I never make the mistake of letting them,  my head or flesh, be in charge, only my heart, with no credit to me. Finally, after 45 years of having my head and flesh in charge, I surrendered, I gave up, to my heart, my soul, my conscience. My heart has been my loving, immensely harsh, unimaginably wise master ever since. And so I am physically alone, and certainly will remain physically alone, and relatively materially impoverished, as a consequence, a price that I pay every day without a shred of regret, for the greedy, infinite,  joy and peace of Heart of it.

***** All 64 of my years have taught me that Heaven is in embracing our inescapable greed and recognizing that our only choice is between pleasure and joy, and this is what we have been missing all these centuries and that this is what Jesus was on to and tried to point us toward. If I am incorrect in this then everything I've stood on that has seemed like Heaven itself for me all.......

***** All 64 of my years have taught me that Heaven is in embracing our inescapable greed and recognizing that our only choice is between pleasure and joy, and this is what we have been missing all these centuries and that this is what Jesus was on to and tried to point us toward. If I am incorrect in this then everything I've stood on that has seemed like Heaven itself for me all these last 15 years is mistaken. I don't see how that can be. I'm okay with it if I've been mistaken, but I just don't see how that can be. It explains everything that all the great souls in history including and especially that of Jesus have been living and dying to show us. If what I am saying is in fact correct, then I am not to be admired, but to be profoundly envied, zero credit to me.  You know, I think the bottom line is this,  if Jesus life is the most enviable life there ever was then what I'm saying is correct, and this is how I felt about his life from the very beginning, I envied the way I thought his life must feel, to love the world so much....  If his life was just the most admirable, then I am absolutely incorrect. James. ( Pleasure is what our nervous system rewards us with when it thinks we are satisfying me and mine. Joy is what our nervous system rewards us with when it thinks we are attempting some huge good for the neediest. ) ( This is a paraphrase of a wonderful conversation I was privileged to have with a great young social worker, of a Jesuit background, here in the city recently. )

***** People pushed absolutely to the wall can be the luckiest of us all because sometimes they find that they have nothing left but to act for pure morality, pure goodness, pure Justice itself, the ultimate aesthetic experience, the ultimate ecstasy. This is much what I experience in my life from moment to moment. And it is what I have always envied, always craved, without for the longest time knowing what it was.

***** People pushed absolutely to the wall can be the luckiest of us all because sometimes they find that they have nothing left but to act for pure morality, pure goodness, pure Justice itself, the ultimate aesthetic experience, the ultimate ecstasy. This is much what I experience in my life from moment to moment. And it is what I have always envied, always craved, without for the longest time knowing what it was.

***** The True human rights activist is the ultimate 'starving artist.' Creating Human Right is Life itself for them... the ultimate Art, Life, form. Jesus, Gandhi, MLK Jr, Alice Paul .......

***** The True human rights activist is the ultimate 'starving artist.'  Creating Human Right is Life itself for them... the ultimate Art, Life, form.  Jesus, Gandhi,  MLK Jr, Alice Paul .......

The degree to which we don't live out the love inside of us is the degree to which we truly suffer. And there are those who have shown us that, the truth is, there is no price too great to pay to love fully. I experience my recent decades has learning to follow their example. It is heaven. It looks like hell, but it is heaven. Those lifestyles that look like heaven, are hell.

The degree to which we don't live out the love inside of us is the degree to which we truly suffer. And there are those who have shown us that, the truth is, there is no price too great to pay to love fully. I experience my recent decades has learning to follow their example. It is heaven. It looks like hell, but it is heaven. Those lifestyles that look like heaven, are hell.

"James, you yourself are a gift of love it's true, you are Love. No beginning and no end. Love eternal," my facebook friend said. "Your kind words bring tears to my eyes. If what you say is at all true.......

Your kind words bring tears to my eyes. If what you say is at all true about me, well, that is the only thing I want to be, it is the only thing I try to be, out of the most intense, enlightened, greed, with my every breath.

Pope Francis: Weeping for other people's pain does not only mean sharing in their sufferings, but also........

Weeping for other people's pain does not only mean sharing in their sufferings, but also and above all realizing that our own actions are a cause of injustice and inequality. Once we realize this, we become more fully human, since responsibility for our brothers and sisters is an essential part of our common humanity. Do not be afraid to open your minds and hearts to the poor. In this way, you will give free rein to your... talents, and discover the happiness of a full life.

This 6-Year-Old Boy Chose To Help The Homeless Instead Of Getting Christmas Presents

http://www.mtv.com/news/2717844/six-year-old-boy-helps-homeless-christmas/

***** Instead of housing myself, I am able to donate all of my meager retirement funds to that about which I care of the most. Here is some of the list. It will change each month, slightly, & I am gratefully open to suggestions. My top priority is Palestine, but beyond that I care about all of the victims of US Empire. And it is my intent to completely and only support the insanely humane among us, that one in a million, upon whom all hope of anything good depends:

By wasting no money on housing or anything else for myself, about which I have  miniscule interest,  I expect to make similar donations, all of my meager monthly retirement, each month of the year.  This is an indescribable joy for me,  an immense privilege, a divine blessing that I don't deserve but I have.

Electronic Intifada,
International Solidarity movement,
MSF,
Mondoweiss,
TruthDig,
Haaretz,
Christian peace maker teams,
JVP,
Palestine children's relief fund PCRF,
breaking the silence,
students for justice Palestine,
BDS,
Syrian relief,
United Palestinian appeal,
Southern Poverty Law Center,
ACLU,
Sea Shepherd,
common dreams,
Welfare Association

***** You only receive your life when you give it away for those who desperately need it.

***** You only receive your life when you give it away for those who desperately need it.

***** I feel like I have come home, returned to the family into which I was born. Living........

***** I feel like I have come home, returned to the family into which I was born.

Living in solidarity with our global neediest family... is how I experience my life now. Yes, that may be an incredible delusion on my part. But I think it is less delusion and more reality, and surely an expression of relative truth in my life, that I now live infinitely more in solidarity with our neediest brothers and sisters on earth, in terms of my resource consumption, devotion of my attention, focus, devotion of what resources and talents I have....

Oh, I highly recommend it. It is heaven, yes, and hell. But it is heaven, returning to our family, what could be more heavenly? Nothing. It is the only revolution that has ever been possible.

***** pic. I bring you Good News. You'll experience this life as heaven, tho materially it will be hell, if you......

I bring you Good News. You'll experience this life as heaven, tho materially it will be hell, if you live, every breath, these three commandments: 1. Love Creator (Loving), 2. Love your Brother (exactly everyone)... with your whole mind, your whole soul, your whole body, your whole spirit. 3. There is no number 3, 4, 1000.... The churches are lying to you. For 2000 years they have been lying to you. There is only 1 & 2.

***** What every day teaches me, no credit to me, almost none can see or comprehend. So sad. Heaven IS devoting every breath to the Global Neediest, and leaving 10000000% of everything else to Creator. Maybe you live. Maybe you die. Makes no difference. It is Heaven.

***** What every day teaches me, no credit to me, almost none can see or comprehend.  So sad.  Heaven IS devoting every breath to the Global Neediest, and leaving 10000000% of everything else to Creator.  Maybe you live. Maybe you die.  Makes no difference. It is Heaven.

***** There are infinite intoxication, pleasures, available in life. There is only one Joy... From the Soul, in Solidarity, Serving... Loving, by whatever words, or no words at all.

***** There are infinite intoxication, pleasures, available in life. There is only one Joy... From the Soul, in Solidarity, Serving... Loving, by whatever words, or no words at all.