Showing posts with label Global Warming's Death Fast. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Global Warming's Death Fast. Show all posts
8.17.2012
nd "Over my dead body does Earth's temperature rises over 1.5 degrees C." Loving
nd "Over my dead body does Earth's temperature rises over 1.5 degrees C." Loving
8.16.2012
GWDF2 D6A Characteristic 108. Channeling Creative Tension Every Breath
http://youtu.be/sZRivAuR08U
GWDF D6A
Characteristic 108 Channeling Creative Tension Every Breath
As I've before
written and said, there are two ways to bring radical change - show up with enough
guns and kill or threaten to kill until you get what you want, or show up with
enough loving bodies and die until you so evoke the humanity of onlookers that
pressure comes to bear from them and you get what is rightfully yours. Violence and unviolent action; 1. Destructive
Tension, and 2. Creative Tension.
It is essential to
understand these the two ways of creating tension, and it was with Dr. King
that I first saw that the concept of creative tension (actually I first saw the
concept from MIT's Peter Senge in his book “The Fifth Discipline,” but the
earliest reference I've seen is Dr. King), that all advance for humanity comes
from, not the absence of tension, but the near unbearable creative tension:
seeing on the one hand an impending horror and seeing on the other hand the
slimmest chance of averting that horror, particularly for dearest loved ones;
tho for the INSHE warriors, ALL are their dearest loved ones. This is really at the bottom of what Gandhi
spoke of - truth force – the emotive truth of how things should/could be and
the truth of the horror of how they are now or are about to become; unless
prevented, stopped, averted, replaced….
We are not bricks, we’re
not trees, we’re not cats, we’re not birds.
Our DNA would have us be human beings and as humans we are motivated by,
moved by, tension. We’re driven away
from something by the tension of fear, by threat of force, by actual force. We’re drawn to something by the tension of
passion, sense of solidarity, desire to alleviate someone else's pain, or
threatened pain, and thereby alleviate our own which we feel vicariously,
empathically.
Gandhi on hunger
strike was a tsunami of creative tension for ultimately millions, maybe
billions around the world. It was excruciating,
it was e-motive, that is, moving, was e-motional, motional. Wave after wave of people in India marching
simply to get salt that had been taken from their oceans that was rightfully
theirs, clubbed unrelentingly, kicked in the groin over and over, but did not
raise a hand to protect themselves, channeling creative tension to millions
around the world via vicarious learning, empathy, the royal road to hacking our
defenses and awakening the heart.
Alice Paul and her
sisters in prison 30 miles South of here on hunger strike, being force-fed
simply for demanding what was rightfully theirs, the right to vote as full
human beings. This channeled immense
creative tension.
And that's what I
seek to do, every breath, to bear near unbearable creative tension and thereby
channel it into the world to be available for others to take it on, and if
others do take it on, and too begin channeling it thought every moment of
action, and thereby spread the fire, then, and only then will there be
hope. Unless others succeed where I’ve
failed, which I pray, but don’t see happening, or even tried.
There are only two
ways to bring radical change and only one brings radical change to the world
permanently, that is life. They both can
lead to permanent radical change. Much
more of the violent kind, destructive tension, the violent tension, will
conclude Armageddon, environmental Armageddon and in the Middle East it may
spark global Armageddon, nuclear war.
Creative tension is
the one that adds to the complexity of life, which is to say it expands, it
enriches human life, possibly forever. That's
the direction of evolution. That is loving.
That is the force of loving. That
is the truth force Gandhi spoke of, the soul force. And that is what I seek to be in every cell,
every atom, every molecule of my body, with every breath, because therein lies
all hope.
And you?
8.15.2012
8.14.2012
GW's Death. Fast2. D5A - Near debilitated all morning, the internal bleeding...
GW's Death. Fast. D5A - Near debilitated all morning, the internal bleeding, or whatever this anemia thing turns out to be (sure feels like that), near crippling fatigue. Mornings are the worst. I remember that the 1st Death Fast, that turned out to be a weapon's test, was the same - morning's the worst.
Thank Goodness, thank Creator, my head is clearing and I can work now.
Thank Goodness, thank Creator, my head is clearing and I can work now.
GW's Death. Fast2. D5A - Book 1 Addition
The following has just been inserted in the front of the book "Global Warming's Death. Fast. Till enough are seen dying for it, CO2 won't stop." See tab, above, or click here. Uploading to scribd, now.
August 14, 2012 note
How I wish I could tell you to delay digging into this book
now. How I wish I could point you to
others that do it’s job, better, as well, at all. But I can’t.
Dig in, but for another couple of weeks, Creator Willing,
you’ll have the additional task of keeping the following in mind, changes that
are in the works for the book in 2 or three waves:
1. The
entire notion of “death,” “dying for a cause,” for the joy, life, hope, sanity,
humanity, future giving of it… is and remains central to the book. However, as I’ve known and lived for years,
but briefly lost confidence in recently, is that there is a place, narrow and
near impossible to find, there is a place for “dying for a cause” that is not a
“Death Fast,” or “Self Immolation,” or the like. Teresa of Calcutta died for her Family in
Calcutta for decades, with immense joy, but unmistakably dying that her charges
might have the experience of being loved and valued before they passed on. Pathologically we the most powerful people on
earth, we Americans, have perverted the notion of “non-violence” to mean,
non-violence to ME, and MINE. Gandhi did
the reverse, as did MLK Jr, Rachel Corrie, Bonhoeffer, Oscar Romero, who spoke
of the ‘Violence of Love’ that we unviolent warriors do to ourselves. No, non-violence, unviolent action is the
exact opposite of what we’ve distorted it to mean. By the INSHE Warriors worthy of the name,
throughout history, unviolent action has been exactly racing toward the
emergency, the danger of others, and exactly putting and keeping ourselves, and
our dearest ones, our bodies in harm’s way, to shield the otherwise victims,
until they were saved. So, near
everywhere in the book that you find Death Fast as the only way, you will soon
see that slightly broadened to include especially, what I conducted two, 50
day, water only hunger strikes last year to seed – waves of to death’s door but
not though hunger strikes until carbon warming gas dumpers are paying their
future wrecking costs, and not sending those costs on to our children.
2. The
need for substantial focus on subsidies and not just on the legislation to
insure full payment of $240/ton of coal and oil, and $6000 per ton of natural
gas seepage, after a straight ramp to those figures beginning 2012. In recent weeks Republicans Inglis and George
Schultz, Reagan’s Sec. of State, and others on the right, have been calling for
the carbon gas dumpers to pay their costs for that, but that all subsidies,
fossil fuel and renewable energy alike, should go away. The market forces being held in abeyance by
the future killing free dumping of warming gasses, those pent up forces are so
enormous, that I need to, and expect to re-examine both the historical size of fossil
fuel US subsidies (I may have overstated them in the book by as much as a factor
of 5-10), and whether subsidies need to be an aim of ours at all right now. Getting enough of the dumping and wreckage costs
on the bill of the dumpers now, may well be more than sufficient.
3. 1.5
degrees C, NOT 2.0 degrees C!!!!!!!!!! What does this mean to the numbers, the tons
of carbon we yet can burn, the rate of decrease in emissions required by when…?
4. Pricing
Methane Seepage correctly, fully, now. My
quick search suggests vs the $240/ton on CO2 it is $6000 per ton on natural gas
seepage, but this needs more checking and thought.
5. Rechecking,
re-calibrating, and where necessary, updating in this book the crucial figures that
we moms and dads of the next 200 billion children, grandchildren… need to know to
properly stand for our kid’s future. What
is a reasonable estimate of the damage done by burning each ton of coal and oil
– is it the $240? $11,000? What is a reasonable estimate.
I anticipate these updates happening in waves: A. rough cut;
B. far more detailed analysis. There is a
date of revision shown above that will be updated as changes occur kept current
on scrbd.com.
GWDF2 Day 5A: Raining, off-post working most of the day; or not
Though my body and mind are severely experiencing the calorie starvation, I must break the back of tasks I outlined yesterday in a post. Awakened by the rain throughout the night, I finally concluded that discretion is the better part of valor, and will spend most of today, I expect, husbanding what physical energy and mental acuity I have for the crucial work at hand, using coffee shops and libraries as a less taxing base of operations today.
Hmmm. Now the internet forecast is suddenly for much less rain, and the sun just came out.
We'll see.
Hmmm. Now the internet forecast is suddenly for much less rain, and the sun just came out.
We'll see.
GWDF2 Day 4 - $240 not $311 ton The frickin Docs won't talk straight to us
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDIK_LR2MOQ
Rush transcript -
Rush transcript -
Day 4 - The frickin
Docs won't talk straight to us. $240 not $311 ton
I'm pretty outraged. Partly at myself. About a week ago I saw a global warming
article, one of the hundreds of titles I cull through everyday. I came onto an article and had a euphoric
sense of reaching a point of clarity; a
kind of clarity you need if your kid is deathly ill and you can't get straight
answers.
I recalled finding it
in a major IEA article; if that wasn't it it was climate progress. Actually, it
was a report on Nicholas Stern’s study at climate progress. Stern talked about $84 a ton in damage being
done by a ton of carbon so I quickly calculated 3.67, which I believe is how
much CO2 is generated by burning a ton of carbon, and came up with $311 per ton,
which I now see, is wrong. It would be
incorrect, it would be inverse, it would be more like $20 per ton of carbon. I haven't delved back into the article; I
haven't yet done the digging to figure out what the actual, a reasonable
estimate of the actual damage done by burning at ton of carbon. If I recall correctly, if we put more than
half a trillion tons of CO2 in the atmosphere between, well, ever, any in this
next century, we go over 1.5° C. May be
less than half a trillion tons, which is roughly what we have up there already
of CO2 from us this last 30 years, primarily.
So half a trillion
tons of CO2 divided by 3.67 would give us the number of tons of carbon that we
can still burn. Methane, natural gas,
that has to be added to the story. And
that divided into 20%, conservatively that we will destroy, into 20% the value
of the world for the next 2000 generations we are ruining, how many quadrillion
dollars is that, would tell us the cost of burning at ton of coal or oil. What's that, $1000, $10,000 a ton? Now
that I ball-park figured it out, try and work that out yourself. If I live long enough; if I remain
cognitively functioning long enough which am wondering about, my typing skills have
just totally bombed, and to make a mistake like this above, a miscalculation a
week ago… the fatigue of years without a break, the stress, the anemia, the
calorie deficit….
But you know what?
I'm not the Dr.'s. But I am what our
doctors are not. I'm a parent, a Bangladeshi
father; and the father of a daughter in 2050 looking at what our visionless, imaginationless,
gutless, cowardly, intelligentsia have done to my daughter, and I've beamed
back to 2012 simply with the ability to put my body in the way. And because the doctors won’t give a straight
answer, won’t give us actionable information - what has to be done by when - as
they would if they saw this as their own children; without question as they
would demand if they saw this as their own children….
I'm not complaining,
but I'm furious. I'm furious at myself. I'm furious at the insanity of the left,
of the intelligentsia, that they think they own this problem, they think they
have the right to being respected, to be listened to; to people being patient
with them…. I, John Q Bangladeshi father; I John Q multibillion father of
upcoming generations; I'm John Q Athabascan father; I’m John Q native Alaskan
father; I'm John Q father of 2050 girl….
You, the ‘Doctors’ on the left might want me to be patient but God
dammit I'll not be. I'll do what I can to do your job of getting actionable
information and yes I'll screw up that more and more as my body breaks down. But you'll not stop me from trying. God damn
you. Romm, McKibben, not so much Brown
and Mann, Hansen, they seem to be doing their best. God damn Climate Progress.org, American Progress.org. It’s not American progress, it’s a frickin
club. Just try leaving a comment that they don't find pleasant, that they don't
find agreeable, that actually wants some answers. They won’t get published on
their blog.
My sense of it is
that it was the intelligentsia on the left that was guillotined in the French
Revolution – ‘Left them eat cake.’
So the best I know
now is - I don't know what the price per ton is, what the cost to the future of
each ton burned is, and I'll probably try and figure it out dammit. I didn't
need another thing to do.
But for now, I'm back
at the $240 ton of carbon which is what the economists calculate is needed to
bend the emissions curve down 6% per year starting now; 6% from the current
projection as I understand it, to keep this under 1.5° C. And that I consider bedrock - 1.5° C. I consider it bedrock of my stand, of the
stand you should make. Look at the
Copenhagen Diagnosis, Google it. That
was put together for the Copenhagen climate conference in large part, as I
understand it, was put together by in part the island nations, the developing
nations. But unless I'm wildly incorrect it's the best statement so far, which
I may be wildly incorrect on this, if what Romm said in “Hell and High Water,”
before he kowtowed to the powers that be, when a blind man could have seen we wouldn’t
get a climate agreement in Copenhagen, same with McKibben, not so much Mann and
Hansen. Brown essentially has caved with his, ‘wartime speed, oh, call your
congressman…’ for six years now. ‘Oh,’ says Brown,’ ‘well I feel encouraged how
things are going,’ he says. I don't think… I don't think he's a Bangladeshi
father, or an Athabascan father, or an indigenous Alaskan father, or the father
of 2050 daughter. I know he’s not. I
know he is more of a human than that. He
wouldn't keep putting out these mealymouthed prescriptions if it were his
family. But it is mine; John Q.
8.13.2012
GWDF2 Day 4 Death Fast - Slowing my Descent 800 cal per day, for now
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nDvey2a-6M
Rough Transcript:
Rough Transcript:
Day 4 - Slowing my
Descent 800 cal per day, for now
I'm tempted to say I
screwed up but rather I manifest our screwup.
This is not a one-man job, no disrespect to anyone else's effort. Coming up with a diagnosis and treatment plan
that will avert environmental Armageddon is not a one-man job. I can do it. I
have the aptitude. I have done this kind
of work my entire life, and I can do it alone.
But it at such a hideous, hideously, slow pace. Faster than anyone, because I realize it
needs to be done. But so much slower
than it needs to be done.
I don't know how many
days it's going to take me to answer the question that I thought I had answered
last week, which is fundamental to being able to articulate, and stand, and
win; a maximum of 1.5° rise.
I’m John Q, and if
you don't understand what that means you need to watch that movie, John Q I'm
not a heart surgeon but I am a dad, who's going to be buried by his son, I am
not going to bury my son.
I'm smart and I'm
determined and I have a background that enables me to do this, but there are
still too many gaps in my fundamental understanding.
See John Q. See that movie. See it see it tonight. In that movie his coldhearted, bureaucratic,
Dr. an administrator at least told him what was required to save his save his
son – ‘your son needs a new heart, he needs it now, or he’s going to die.
Our bureaucrats, some
of them told us the equivalence of this clarity up until Copenhagen, and now
they've they've waffled for years since Copenhagen, with tons of un-actionable
mealymouthed stuff coming out of them.
‘Your son's gonna die! Your sons
gonna die! Your sons gonna die! I do
something! Do something! Do something!’ Do
what!? By when?!
I don't intend to
leave this life until I can leave a clear answer to that. I don't know if it's
going to take me a couple more days, or another week or so; not to become a
brain surgeon, not to become a heart surgeon. John Q didn’t become a heart
surgeon. But I need to know, based on
the data that's out there, the Copenhagen Synthesis I now think is the document
I think I should point people to, not the Copenhagen Diagnosis which is part of
caving to the 2° C. No.
I'm certain that 1.5°
C maximum rise by 2100 is the avoidance of hell and high water but I need to
check that against Romm’s book by the name “Hell and High Water;” by Hansen's
work, by Mann’s work and by the Copenhagen Synthesis (not sure now), a PDF that
I just found. You should look at them as
well.
I need some
fundamental elements. I need to know how much additional carbon that enables us
to emit how much additional CO2 that we can put the atmosphere without risking
1.5 degrees C. I need to figure out
where methane seepage fits, a few figures in there, pieces of this puzzle; but
no one bothered pulling, pulling together.
So, I've got to
refigure the price per ton. I'm guessing that's the $240 but that's not good
enough, guessing, that is. When enough of us died to get the proper argument on
the table I need to give you a number. I need to get in the ballpark on what
the wreckage costs per ton of carbon is.
Now I just did some wild figuring and came up with $11,000 per ton. I
don't mean silly figuring out. Real
broad order of magnitude. I think it was
something like this is a currently a $70 trillion world economy, the next
thousand generations makes it a 70,000 trillion dollar world economy; I figured
something like 150 more billion tons of carbon that we could burn without
breaking 1.5 degrees C; took 20% of a 70,000 trillion dollar economy for the
next thousand years and figured we’re wrecking 20% of that, which is a
conservative figure given the economist Nicholas Stern's work, where he figures
initially we’re destroying 20% of world GDP, going up to 35% in the medium term,
and worse from there; and came out with if we are destroying only 20% of the
world economy, it is something like $11,000 per ton. This is huge.
It's a hell of a lot more than $240 per ton, and I want to know what
that is. You need to know what that is,
and I need to leave you with that.
So going about 800
cal per day for another couple of days, for another couple of weeks, I don't
know, but can't leave you without a clearer roadmap. All this will go into an
update of Tracking Plan B, of “Global Warming's Death. Fast.
It continues to
appear that what we have to accomplish is 6% decrease per year versus the
current trendline to stay below 1.5° C.
It appears that Hansen continues to have the humanity, continues to have
the balls to point us in the right direction.
But God bless him, and it isn't his job to know how to make the argument,
to win the argument.
It's been my entire
life doing such things. I see no one else doing it so I've got to leave you the
other information on which you can stand and know whether policy is giving you
that 6% decrease per year, how many tons of emissions, what's the maximum tonnage
of coal that can be burned and still stay below 1.5 degrees C. Oh, there are numbers out there for the
maximums to stay below 2° C. No. 2° C is Hell and High Water. Two degrees C is the oceans that the reefs
gone; a third to half the world's species gone; 6 foot sea level rise this
century. No. That's crazy and I don't know whether I’ll
have a breakthrough the next couple of days, or how long this is gonna take.
Watch for reports
that I'll try and post soon that are the what I consider to be the pieces that
we need to pull together, and help me, God dammit. This isn't rocket science. Its interpolation; it's good basic work; for
God sake help me.
Or tell me who's
already done it. But I need to know what
the treatment plan is to save our children; our next 200 billion children; and
I can't find it anywhere. I can't find anyone with enough humanity or
clumsiness to stand up with a clarity that the doctor and administrator did in
John Q, which means I got a try and fill that role for us.
GW's Death. Fast2. Day 4B - Operational Issues, Posting. Calorie-starved. JOYFUL.
- Operationally it has been a week of struggle to diagnose a solar batter that arrived smashed, partially, is if flaky, and to do what I've always done, massively help advance the connection between an emerging market, products, and early clients. What the solar companies do not know about their products, and therefore don't communicate, is stunning, but typical. Fact. Fact. GoalZero, the most promising vendor by far, an engineer there has figured out that I provide, more than I take, and he has been great. I'm doing some final diagnostic testing that is pretty automatic, so much less distracted from the real work. I literally outlined a buyer's guide, competitive, for them tonight that includes what I've had to spend 10's or more hours in recent years figuring out, researching, pulling together, pulling teeth....
- Dozens of important posts today to TPB . You know, if you haven't subscribed to the daily summary there, I can't fathom why you waste a second on anything to do with me. For Creation's sake, subscribe there, and get others to, and daily review the email summary you'll receive.
- My friend that could be of such hope to the world seems to be on the financial footing he needs to be for the trip he's talked about to scour the country's most promising places for the start of a mass wave of hunger strikes here in DC soon.
- For the first time in, oh, 10 years, my work is on a granite foundation for wifi, computer, electricity, and basic, basic, basic financial needs of the work. $5 for this. $10 for that. A miracle of which I'll always be in awe.
- Judging by lack of strength and physical sensations, unpleasant, my body is pretty calorie starved. It sure knows that for 3 days I had zero calories, and for the last two, just one day's rations between the two. The internal bleeding, or whatever it is, comes and goes in terms of what it feels like.
- Important vlogs I shot 2 days ago, the videos are up here http://www.youtube.com/user/StartLoving4 , and here http://www.youtube.com/user/PlanBMovie ,
HUGE. HUGE. HUGE. GWDF2 Day 4B - CRUCIAL RECAP
Through sobs of wonder, at the Goodness:
My
sister SC has literally kept me alive physically, kept me from totally
drowning financially for my work, and physically kept me alive from earlier hunger strikes. I may well not have made it this far without
her, and her clan.
Now,
a new sister, that I've known a long, long, long time. But in recent
months she has come underneath my work like, well, like my Saint dad
was. [Why he didn't let me die, or have me killed, I'll never know.
Seriously. I was the most hideous zero of a spoiled, selfish, cowardly
child that has ever walked the earth. He MUST have seen something. I can't think of any other explanation. A Miracle.]
But, per the note below from my sister, below, the granite support, the granite
foundation, the 'Total Trust,' which I would rather die than be not
worthy of - this is a first, in 10 years of joyfully giving every single
breath for our global neediest Family, I've got full oxygen; financial
support - wifi, solar electricity, computer taken care of; no worries. YOU
HAVE NO FRICKIN IDEA. YOU CAN'T IMAGINE.
Yes
sister. For the first time in the ten or so years I've racing, warring
unviolently, for our global neediest, every breath, I don't feel like I'm on 10% of
the oxygen that one needs. I can breathe. For a moment at least, I'm off the psychological water-boarding of my work.
As
I reported yesterday, I'm on a 50% glide path toward death's door - 800
calories measured, per day - half rations (1 can soup @ 400 calories
(ckn corn chowder today), and 2 cans Ensure at 200 cal each). The
clinic, Unity Health Care for the homeless, no questions asked, from God, is 7 blocks away. I go in
Wednesday for the results of the recent blood work, and I'm hopeful of
them weighing me periodically; results I'd report out. I was 9 lbs over
weight, 164 lbs, several days ago.
While on the 50% downward slope I expect to count and report days as 4B, yesterday, and 4B, today.
Ever
since I saw Denzel Washington's "John Q" years ago I've found it deeply
troubling, deeply courageous as a movie, and profoundly enlightening
and wise. But only in recent weeks has it come really central to my
understanding of where we are.
The F*CKING DOCTORS AND BUREACRATS
(Brown, Romm, McKibben, Chu, Obama...) WON'T EVEN TELL US WHAT THE
TREATMENT PLAN AND TIME FRAMES ARE TO SAVE OUR NEXT 200 BILLION CHILDREN. TOTAL DIS-EMPOWERMENT!!!! WITHOUT THIS KNOWLEDGE OUR BALLS ARE CUT OFF!!!!
NO.
THIS WILL NOT STAND. With "Global Warming's Death. Fast." I took
major steps toward this, but I cannot leave you, I cannot pass on until
I've plugged the remaining holes.
John
Q became the force of, AN EMPOWERED VOLCANO OF HOPE FOR, the agent of salvation for
his beloved child when he knew the Treatment Required, and the Time
Frame required. HE DIDN'T NEED TO TAKE ONE STEP TOWARD BECOMING A HEART
DOCTOR. But he knew what he had to do to get the system to save his
son. And he did it.
Year
after year, decade after decade this is precisely what I've done in
life and death situations, and I'll do it again now, and leave it with
you all before I go - A TREATMENT PLAN, TIMEFRAMES. I'll give you all what you need, tho you have 80% of it from me already, but I'll finish the job, before I go, Creator willing.
Already, it is up to you now, but I'll finish my part for you.
Loving (what I go by; what I have ALL hope in. Nothing less from any of us, can save humanity now.)
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Good Morning Loving, (received today)
Just finished your last
video about Brian. So sorry about the turn of events for him and hear
your profound concern and committment toward assisting him. There are
absolutely no strings attached to any funds I put in your account.....I
totally trust you to act as your heart believes it should. Please do not
sell your solar panels as they are crucial to you....and I need to know
if they flake out on you permanently, as I would assist in replacement
for you.....
I plan to make another deposit
in your account.....so....I am hoping this will give assistance and some
sense of assurance, not sure that's the right word...but anyway....
XO Your sister
On Sun, Aug 12, 2012 at 5:12 PM, Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com> wrote:
- Major video logs today. Transcriptions in process.
- If I understand correctly Brian has lost his funding. If this means his planned trip cross country by bus can't happen, Loving can't allow that. Until I know otherwise, all the assets at my disposal are at his disposal for the trip to take place fully, and uninterrupted. I have a solar battery that can immediately go on ebay and should get $200. Maybe a solar panel for $200, if it is working and stable; and IF SHE DOES NOT OBJECT, funds given me yesterday by one of my 4 friends will be available IF NEEDED, for Brian's trip, UNLESS I HEAR FROM MY FRIEND IMMEDIATELY. IMMEDIATELY.
- Hopefully the problem with the solar equipment here has been figured out. I should know tomorrow.
- Among the video logs with transcripts are several dealing with my assertion that the Aim of the Death Fast is $311/ton of co2. I'm horrified by the lack of clarity from the intelligentsia on this. It was a failure of calculation on my part. No, $311 is incorrect. So, I revert for now to $240 per ton as the properly calculated cost to achieve the 6% reduction per year of emissions from current projections, Hansen, sufficient to keep us below 1.5 degrees C - Hell and High Water. HOWEVER, a central project for me now is to ballpark what a Human, Humane, Honest projection of the $$$ destruction of the world economy for the next 1000 generations is. My first try came up with $11,000 per ton. Current world economy is $70 trillion. Times 1000 years - what we are destroying, is $70,000 trillion. What remains to ball-park cost to humanity of each ton burned now, that I as a father of 200 billion kids needs to know, how many tons do we have left to burn before going past 1.5 degrees C is 15% likely or more (tell me if you have an estimate). With that I think I can ball-park the wreckage cost to humanity, for myself, as a father of the 200 billion who will be living in that world.
- I'm more outraged than ever, as a Father, of how gutless the experts are at telling us what we as Parents, Grandparents need to know. If this were the movie John Q, they wouldn't even have the guts to tell John what treatment was required and when it was required by. Criminal.
- Health update, recap - one of the videos covers that.
Loving
8.12.2012
GWDF2 Day 4 - Medical Recap, Anemia, Bleedging, Weight
http://:youtu.be/muv9TqewgJ
Rough transcript:
Rough transcript:
Not that my health
matters, any more or less than the health of a soldier fighting for the life of
the women and children in a town matters.
He, she matters as a tool, a scalpel to the surgeon matters. If you don't understand that were dead,
because you don't understand what we’re facing.
You don't understand what the next 200 billion children are facing. You don’t understand we’re right on the edge
of the cliff, if we haven't gone over it already in 2012.
This is not the time
for normalcy and hasn't been for a long time.
If you don’t
understand that my health matters only as the health of a soldier in a
life-and-death fight matters, then we’re dead and your part of the problem. Right
now, with so much broken, and so little time, love is tough, or it's not love.
By going back through
the archives of ‘start loving’ blog one could, including I could, check the
history of my symptoms. I don't have the time.
My earliest recollection of starting to feel like my body was, well,
something was very wrong was the end of 2011 after the second of the 50 days,
two 50 days of strikes that year. Bear
in mind that I've done probably 8 to 10 major hunger strikes over the last
decade with this now sixty-year-old body; but I don't know that my symptoms are
related to the hunger strikes. But I
suspect they are.
Late last year 2011,
early 2012, a collection of symptoms started to wear on me quite significantly
- frequent stomachaches like I’d been punched, or, I now realize, like there
was an open wound. Just an ache, not queasiness, I don't recall
nausea. But it hurt, day after day, not
throughout the day, but periodically throughout the day. Seemed to be associated with eating but not
any particular type of food; not really even any particular quantities. My stool was rarely solid. I’d be kept awake for half an hour and as
long as 2, 3, 4 hours by what's called restless leg syndrome, I guess it
is. There were unexplained periods
lasting hours where I didn’t have the strength of the ragdoll.
Finally by April this
was weighing on my ability to contribute, enough that I went to the medical truck
for we homeless, to my dear Dr. Cardile.
She'd been asking me to get blood tests for a long time. I associated that with expensive medical procedures
and I told her that I'm unwilling to have significant monies spent on my
person. She understands that. But I was finally so debilitated for so long,
and realized that maybe there was some low cost fix, that I said okay, I’ll go
for some blood tests.
Well, the results
were to be back a week later, and totally unforeseen by me the first death fast
began, the ‘weapons test’ death fast as it turns out, and I thought, I won’t be
here two months from now so why go bother Dr. Cardile?
A week ago, not
seeing this current death fast coming this time either, my teeth are beginning
to shatter from lifelong nocturnal grinding, I saw the medical truck near my
new location at the Canadian Tar Sands Embassy, and nurse Penny who had drawn
my blood for Dr. Cardile said, ‘No, no, you're not going to this truck, you’re
going to Dr. Cardile, she wants to see you, now. Go see her tomorrow.’ I said okay and several days ago saw Dr. Cardile
who said – you’re anemic and usually that's associated with internal bleeding
for someone your age. We reviewed my
symptoms which by 2 weeks ago were all recurring, the symptoms I recounted
earlier in this video. ‘Yup,’ she said;
and some other symptoms too gross to be mentioned on this video. Low iron can be associated with the restless
leg. Within the last two weeks now, on two different nights, has kept me awake
for a good 4 to 6 hours, quite agonizing.
It’s the kind of stuff they do when they black site you, it is quite
distracting from my work, my ability to my work; quite agonizing. Very tiring.
But there are tests
that they do now to zero in on the cause, and that’s the blood work now in
progress. I’ve read up on this little
bit - she's trying to figure out whether it's internal bleeding, could be
cancer, could be diet, could be kidney, and Wednesday morning I have an
appointment to go back and see her; she'll have the results by then and there’ll
be more to report.
So I went in for a
dental referral and by the time I was done this week they've taken more blood,
sticking me about eight times to find a vein that would work; I sure don’t have
the body I used to. They took my vitals
including weight, and I miscalculated, I'm only 9 pounds overweight weighing in
at 164 with my clothes off and 155 is my zero body fat weight, at least, it
used to be; which means I've only got about 18 days from day one. On or about day 18 I expect to be starting to
bite into and sometime thereafter, brain.
Most or all the fat should be gone by then. I calculated that I had twice that excess
body fat but I don't, it turns out from the scale.
So with the heart,
with the anemia, with a lower body fat, I’m likely to be fading much sooner
than I have before.
GWDF2 Day 4 - Extreme Emergency. Help me. GW's Death Fast
Day 4 - Extreme Emergency. Help me. GW's Death Fast
http://youtu.be/zxsvAaky_Kg
Rush transcript:
Rush transcript:
Day 4 - GW's Death
Fast Extreme Emergency
I don't know if I
heard this properly, but what I think I understand is that, an extreme
financial emergency has arisen, which I may or may not be in a position to
cover.
Help me Obi-Wan
Kenobi, your only hope. You remember how
we ran laughing out of the theater with that line, how ludicrous, how
ridiculous. That's not how it happens,
one man. Oh so silly.
No sillier than one
ignition system is the difference between someone getting to the hospital on
time in an ambulance or dying in an immobile
ambulance. Never think that a committed
individual can’t change the world. It is the only thing that ever has. A fire starts with a match. Maybe one match lights
another. Maybe one match lights a candle.
I hope I’m that match because I don't see any others, no discredit to anyone else, no credit to me. That's the physics of it. I hope I'm one of
millions of matches but I don't see another one.
My entire life, my
entire adulthood has been based on running toward collapsing organizations while
everyone else was running out, and if I thought the situation was savable,
finding just one or two or three, at most four others, that whether or not they
realized it were yearning for the fire that I could help ignite in them. Everything was there in them, they just
needed a little extra heat, a little extra imagination, a little extra help
with the vision. And repeatedly
throughout my adulthood I've been associated with miracles through that process.
So I've been at this,
joyfully giving every breath for humanity, for about a dozen years now. It's
been for the last eight months, only within the last eight months have I seen a
candle ready to be lit. Everything there
already, smoldering, and that’s the young man that I spoke of yesterday, planetary
spring at gmail dot com.
If I understand correctly
what I heard last night, what always happens in every unviolent revolution,
what always happens in every unviolent revolution, our dearest loved ones are
the first ones to split away from us. Usually
it's temporary; agonizing years, but almost always it’s temporary. I'm thinking of maybe the greatest activist
of the last 2/3 of the 20th century, Dave Dellinger, went to Yale, his father
was in charge of Republicans in Boston,
was a prominent lawyer, and before Dave graduated Yale he had left, lived among
the homeless at the time of the depression I think, out in the fields, in the
camps, not as a do-gooder, but as a brother.
He became one of them; he became aware he was one of them and they of
him; not a dime in his pocket, and that ended his relationship with his father. Until years later, on his deathbed, or at the time of his dying, when
his dad was dying, his dad said, ‘Dave you were right. I'm so proud of you.’
It always happens
when the revolution starts, a nonviolent revolution. Stressors – split folks
apart. It's because someone saw, became part of the new paradigm. So, like their dearest loved ones are going
to ‘get it,’ at the same time? No. They’re the least likely because their
dearest loved ones feel the most threatened; threatened for fear for their
loved one, threatened for an unrecognized fear of their own paradigm being
threatened, their own status quo being threatened.
If I understand
correctly this one bright hope that I’ve seen, this one bright hope for humanity
as the creator is my witness, as Luke Skywalker was the only hope, as Neo was
the only hope, this young friend is the only hope that I see on earth right now;
as a match, as a candle I see the only hope to ignite others.
And if I understand
correctly one of his dearest loved ones who bless their hearts have been
financially backing him, backed out, out of fear for this young friend; out of
a difference of vision.
Last I knew this
young friend was leaving on a mission he conceived of, to travel the country
via bus to rally people to come on waves of hunger strike, to DC, end of this
year. Nothing short of that will save we
canaries in the coal mine in which you live; we Bangladeshis, we indigenous
Alaskans, we indigenous Canadians from Athabasca, we of the island nations like
the Maldives.
And I didn't see it
till yesterday or the day before - we are your canaries in the coal mine,
earth, that you live in. If you don't
stop the killing of us with your burning of coal and oil and natural gas you
will have killed your children and grandchildren. If you let we canaries die in the coal mine,
then the same process that killed the canary first, will kill you. I didn't see that that's exactly what we are -
we are your canaries in the coal mine. I being a Bangladeshis, an Athabascan,
an indigenous Alaskan, a Maldivian.
The last I knew this
young man's plans were to be on a bus traveling to the most promising parts of
the country, where evidence of humanity taking a stand against environmental
Armageddon was already in some evidence.
Now it may be that
what I understand was that he thought he had his funding enough to get solar
panels for the work that I do, and that that funding is no longer available. As I reported yesterday, it may be that for
some reason I don't understand, the solar panel that I have is working properly. Now I should know conclusively today or
tomorrow.
In any case, if I'm
understanding correctly, everything I have is now at this young friend's
disposal. Within hours of understanding
more clearly, the solar battery that I've been praying for, saving for for
years I’ve had for two weeks now. It
can be on eBay in a matter of hours and get probably $200. If the solar panel in fact is working, it can
be on eBay within hours and fetch $200 I’ll guess.
I have three or four
friends, not acquaintances, friends. A friend is one who will take a bullet for you,
unconditionally, and when she heard yesterday that the work I do was in dire
need of a solar panel, within hours sufficient funds were in my checking
account. Breathtaking goodness. Breathtaking goodness. Unless I hear from her immediately those
funds will be available to this young friend. I see no hope beside this young friend’s
mission.
Did I say the mission
will succeed? Did I say I'm a fool, an
idiot? I'm not God. But I have, through no credit to me, what we
are number one dying for, and as I've often said, I thought the number one
thing was heart, was courage; and I'm now realizing that number is the number
one thing we’re dying from is a failure of imagination, a fundamental profound
failure of imagination. And mine is working
fine. This failure of imagination is
most dire, most pronounced relative to environmental Armageddon, environmental
holocaust due to the continued no charge dumping of all future killing fossil
fuel emissions. A fundamental failure of
imagination, fundamental failure of vision.
This young friend is
evidencing some of the necessary vision.
Make no mistake, I take no responsibility for this young man as the hope
that he represents. I saw it the first
time we had a serious conversation, maybe it was the first time we met, I don't
recall. It was on or about New Year's
Eve of 2011 in McPherson Square Park where we spoke for an hour so. Trained in environmental science, a heart
that’s is the product of heartbreak, hardships, the immense love of a father,
and the immense love of a mother. I’ve simply
been the sunshine to this rare and promising young tree. Planetary spring at Gmail dot com.
I urge anyone with a
heart, anyone with any young people that they love, to get in contact with
planetary spring at Gmail dot com - the subject line should speak of financial
assistance. And inquire as to what
financial assistance is required.
If my beloved friend
that provided funding yesterday for new solar panels objects to me diverting it
to this young man's work I need to hear that right away. Otherwise young friend, everything that I
have except for my laptop, except for the Wi-Fi, is available for immediate
liquidation. And the funds that I was
given yesterday may be available as well.
If you understand
what's at stake young friend you will not let pride, discomfort, you will not
let anything come in the way of accessing those funds.
You need to be strong.
8.11.2012
Day 3. Death Fast Aim: 1.5 Degrees C MAX by 2100; Straight Ramp to $311/ton by 2026 in Wreckage Cost PAID IN FULL.,
Day
3. Death Fast Aim: 1.5 Degrees C MAX by 2100; Straight Ramp to
$311/ton by 2026 in Wreckage Cost PAID NOW on carbon fuel purchases, and
$6000/ton on natural gas seepage by then as well.
Said
another way, the policy equivalent of what Joe Romm, Lester Brown, Jim
Hansen, Michael Mann... have called for, before some of them lost their
balls and unilaterally surrendered to comfortable political 'reality'
post Copenhagen bloodbath. The near universal acquiescence to 2 degrees
C is unilateral surrender of our next 200 billion children to Hunger
Games, and much, much, much, much worse. Over my dead body. Not on my
watch.
"Plan B 3.0" Lester Brown
"Hell and High Water" Joe Romm
"Storms of my Grandchildren" Jim Hansen
"The Hockey Stick and the Climate Wars: Dispatches from the Front Lines" by Michael E. Mann
"The Hockey Stick and the Climate Wars: Dispatches from the Front Lines" by Michael E. Mann
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