I'm struggling to reach a new level and I think with some success. I do experience it as a new level in my work trying to help Humanity demands that I succeed if I can. It seems to me like an escape but it is not an escape. It.... seems like living a delusion but it is not living a delusion. It is living a reality but not the reality that our sick culture says is the only reality. It is real that out of my imagination I can Envision the soul in every individual and they're almost all on their life support. And like the Abel farmer that comes across a huge wasted Fallowfield that sees the possibility of bringing it to life, at least a spot here or there, that is where I want to live in that is where I think I need to show we can live. That is to say, I'm pretty certain that we need to show people, first ourselves, that we are afraid not to live, but we are on not afraid of physical Life ending. I don't think we do others a service when we allow ourselves to be too concerned with the ending of our own life or that of anyone else. I might be wrong, but I don't think so.