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5.22.2015

***** nd. Like turning over for more sleep after the alarm... HOW MUCH WE ADORE OUR DENIAL OF OUR FELLOW CREATURES NEEDS, SUFFERING.... I FEEL LIKE I NEVER UNDERSTOOD, UNTIL NOW.

***** nd. Like turning over for more sleep after the alarm... HOW MUCH WE ADORE OUR DENIAL OF OUR FELLOW CREATURES NEEDS, SUFFERING.... I FEEL LIKE I NEVER UNDERSTOOD, UNTIL NOW.

***** My dad adored me above almost everyone. I wish he hadn't.....

***** My dad adored me above almost everyone. I wish he hadn't.....

My point isn't to dis my dad.  If I could select anyone in history to be my dad, it would be him.

My point is to learn from my experience of this near greatest of all people I've ever known of. 

He loved all of humanity, all of creation, unconditionally.

But he loved me nearly more than everything and everyone... and in that it was conditional love.

I wish he had loved me no more, and no less, than he loved every creature, all of creation.

I lost decades, my fault, on craving the supreme love he had for me.  There was never any joy in that, There could NEVER be Joy in that - conditional Loving.  Pleasure, yes. Lust, yes. Loving, no. Joy, no.

My life is now fully of his other side, Unconditional Loving - Immensely Painful with the pain of the world.  Infinitely Loving. Infinitely Joyful.  Every breath.

***** On FB: "James, what (to Stop Palestines Death) do you recommend?" My Reply: "Based on a simple, honest look at the history of change... ...."

Based on a simple, honest look at the history of change... key posts at the top right of this site (right hand column) are The path I see, and at the least, commensurate with the magnitude of personal price thousands us us would have to pay, or offer to pay, to stop this. Equivalent to the rice 10's of thousands in Tahrir Square offered; 1000's on a bridge in Selma offered; hundreds offered at the Dharasana Salt Works in India offered and payed.... Nothing is free. Everything has a price. EVERYTHING. Stopping the world's 4th nost powerful military backed by the world's MOST powerful military will take a huge price to stop. Anyone that takes the time to read carefully the posts I just mentioned, and THEN wishes to discuss, I'm available. http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/

Besieged in Gaza from birth to death

http://mondoweiss.net/2015/05/besieged-birth-death

The US has a Legal system.... It does not now in 2015, if it ever did, have a Justice system.

The US has a Legal system....  It does not now in 2015, if it ever did, have a Justice system.

5.21.2015

***** SPDF Day 52-29: I was thinking today, it is more clear to me than ever that all is lost... Democracy, near all that is good, near all of Creation, Palestine, the American Soul... but everyone, anyone, can be Saved, in this Life... from the degenerating, disintegrating world around them... if they, when they, as they... forget their own life, and devote their every breath to the neediest in the world. This is Heaven, Salvation, and no one can deprive them of it... but themselves. More than ever before it is desperately important that we each strive for this Salvation... that we might increase by whatever miniscule amount... the likelihood that someone else too might find the Path.

*****  I was thinking today, it is more clear to me than ever that all is lost...  Democracy, near all that is good, near all of Creation, Palestine,  the American Soul... but everyone, anyone, can be Saved, in this  Life... from the degenerating, disintegrating world around them... if  they, when they, as they... forget their own life, and devote their  every breath to the neediest in the world.  This is Heaven, Salvation,  and no one can deprive them of it... but themselves.  More than ever  before it is desperately important that we each strive for this  Salvation... that we might increase by whatever miniscule amount...  the likelihood that someone else too might find the Path.

5.17.2015

***** nd SPDF: Our Devotion to personal (and 'family') survival and pleasure... has finally doomed humankind, and all of creation. We've insanely embraced the way of 'cancer' over the way of Life. Our parents, the Creating generation, birthed the suicidal Consuming generation.

SPDF:  Our Devotion to personal (and 'family') survival and pleasure... has finally doomed humankind, and all of creation. We've insanely embraced the way of 'cancer' over the way of Life. Our parents, the Creating generation, birthed the suicidal Consuming generation.

***** SPDF: I am adult-long devoted to human-crucial success, and to obstruct attempts likely to end in disaster.

I can think of little, if anything, that more centrally defines who and what I am then my devotion to finding and dedicating myself to actions, strategies, tactics, campaigns...  That have the potential to win, to succeed, if pressed hard enough, committedly enough, forcefully enough, hard enough, by enough people....  And I am unwilling to either participate in, or in any way enable, actions that are unlikely to succeed regardless of how much resources and effort are invested.

This characteristic of mine has been true of me throughout my adulthood.  It was central to who and what I was in my college and advanced degree educational life.  It was centrally true of me during all of my business career.  And it has been true of me ever since., I suspect, I am quite sure, it will be true of me until I take my last breath or degenerate into a different being psychologically.

My constitution is such that I am only interested in, I am only able, to participate in things that I think are monumentally important to humanity and to creation, and I am then unable to not devote myself to seeing what would constitute success, what would constitute failure, and to devote myself to the former and to stand in the way of the latter.

I've often thought, over many years now, I've often shared over many years now, of the example of the Space Shuttle Challenger.  The space shuttle challenger blew up.  It has been quite well documented that the failure was due to a part, an o ring, and my understanding is that quite clearly an engineer, or several engineers, knew of the potential risk before the launch, before the explosion.  I don't know the details of that event beyond what I just said, but my life has been centered around somewhat life and death ventures so I know the territory quite well. 

I know how desperately a team like that Challenger launch team wanted to meet deadlines, meet goals, have a success.  I know the pressures on that engineer, or engineers, that had negative news, had bad news.  I don't know of any life and death heroics that that engineer, or those engineers, waged to attempt to stop that tragic flight.  They may have done so, but I'll guess they did not.

Either way, I'm not suggesting the problem was primarily theirs.  Near certainly the problem was systemic, enterprisewide, the wrong value on success, lack of value on avoiding disaster.

Throughout my adulthood my devotion has been to achieve both mission critical success and to avoid mission disaster, to avoid enabling the masses of people involved that were not devoted to both.

On enterprises I've had some substantial successful impact, and much failure.

But I have never failed to make the attempt regardless of personal cost to me.  And I suspect this will always be true of me.

pic. "Loving is unconditional, or, it is Hate-ful. No? Just look at History. Just look at the outcomes."


***** "Who wants to put on the posterboards, go out to the street corner, and rant?... There is not a politician on earth wants to tell his or her constituents, "We've probably already blown our chance to avoid substantial suffering, but if we work really hard and devote our lives to the cause, we can somewhat reduce the even worse suffering that awaits our grandchildren."

http://www.vox.com/2015/5/15/8612113/truth-climate-change


***** SPDF Day 52-24: Gideon Levy, Ha'aretz: "The two-state solution is dead (it was never born); the Palestinian state will not aris...."

The two-state solution is dead (it was never born); the Palestinian state will not arise; international law does not apply to Israel; the occupation will continue to crawl quickly to annexation, annexation will continue to crawl quickly toward an apartheid state; “Jewish” supersedes “democracy”, nationalism and racism will get the stamp of government approval, but they’re already here and have been for a long time.

http://www.alanhart.net/the-whole-truth-about-israel-in-one-sentence/#.VVjvFavGiF8.facebook

***** MUST MUST WATCH. 55 MIN. A Conversation with Noam Chomsky on Palestine/Israel by Frank Barat. 2011

"The US military exists to force the Political Will of the US on other people by force of arms," Special Forces Master Sergeant Stan Goff

5.16.2015

“My concerns in my work derive from my life, from my personal experience … but I don’t use words, I use my body and my space in time.”

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/mar/12/afghan-artist-armour-street-harassment-walk-kubra-khademi-kabul

Anti-Nuke Nun and Fellow Peace Activists to be Released from Prison

http://www.commondreams.org/news/2015/05/16/anti-nuke-nun-and-fellow-peace-activists-be-released-prison

"I am not a hero," Khalifa told Italian television TV2000. "God wants us to help everybody."

http://www.haaretz.com/jewish-world/jewish-world-news/1.656719

How killing children in Gaza helps Israel's arms industry sell weapons

http://stopwar.org.uk/news/how-killing-children-in-gaza-helps-israel-s-arms-industry-sell-weapons

***** Take note you of Organized Religion: Less and less can I remain 'silent' and 'respectful' of any Organized Religion. I did so......

***** Take note you of Organized Religion: Less and less can I remain 'silent' and 'respectful' of any Organized Religion. I did so on the basis that what others do in private is their business. But it is MY business when the collateral damage of their Fantasies slaughter my human family... and they all do. Your 'personal pleasure' from your Organized Religion Fantasy Games... does absolve my moral duty to stand in protection of your Collateral Damage. (This includes you of the 'Religions' of Atheism, Science, Education, 'Progress," Liberalism..

Pope welcomes Mahmoud Abbas ahead of treaty with Palestine

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/may/16/pope-welcomes-mahmoud-abbas-ahead-of-treaty-with-palestine

New York Times’ Jodi Rudoren whitewashes Israeli minister’s call for genocide

http://electronicintifada.net/blogs/ali-abunimah/new-york-times-jodi-rudoren-whitewashes-israeli-ministers-call-genocide

5.14.2015

No Gaza, No Peace A lasting settlement in the Holy Land is still possible. But Israel must end the siege on Gaza first. By Jimmy Carter, Gro Harlem Brundtland May 14, 2015

http://foreignpolicy.com/2015/05/14/jimmy-carter-gro-harlem-brundtland-gaza-israel-palestine-peace/

The religious right’s No. 1 enemy: What Pope Francis’ recognition of Palestine really means

http://www.salon.com/2015/05/14/the_religious_rights_no_1_enemy_what_pope_francis_recognition_of_palestine_really_means/

US beekeepers lost almost half their honeybees last year

http://www.treehugger.com/sustainable-agriculture/us-beekeepers-lost-almost-half-their-honeybees-2014-15.html

***** pic. By no objective measure were we created to personallysurvive...


***** My Future Plans... TINY MOBILE 'HOME' FOR A HOMELESS ACTIVIST (as was Jesus before us) (If you want to help, let me know)

(Yes, a bit rambling, is the following.  Sorry.  I've mashed together a few prior correspondences.)

LOL... some interesting voice-typos I see below, too.  LOL. 'urine' in stead of 'yearn,' for example.

There is an electric bike manufactured out of Durham North Carolina that I have been aware of for at least a year and I am 90% sure that I need to try and get one right away. http://organictransit.com/
For my activist work on Capitol Hill and in front of the White House it will garner positive attention with its complete self enclosure, the solar panel on the roof, very interesting design. And of course it promotes my secondary issue of stopping global warming. On it I can place simple signage in addition to my posters which will help promote free  Palestine and Universal Family....

Actually, my second issue is our treatment of the world's poor generally, and the poor and homeless in the United States specifically.  And really there is a second element of that, the lifestyles that we all aspire to, consuming hundreds, thousands, 10000 times our share of global resources, and by every objective measure making our selves less happy than countries like Scandinavia, Cuba, other countries that spend a tiny fraction of what we spend or aspire to spend... and have substantially greater joy, substantially greater quality of life.

With my homeless shelter closing a year from now and really no housing prospects for me (2-3 year wait for subsidized, affordable, housing in DC per the expert I worked with yesterday)  I yearn to get that Elf electric bike and make it my little mobile home. I further envision using it at times too take my activism, my lobbying, out on the road. in July the tourist trade is pretty dead in dc and of course, Congress is not in session. I mean in August. the months of December January February are so cold in DC that my outdoor activism does not have an audience. But with this little mobile home with which I could probably travel 50-200 miles a day I can go to where a more a live audience might be at such times.

Of course there are huge unknowns regarding my thoughts. Things that I can only found find out by doing and trying. But I have thought long and hard about this and really really really really (urine) yearn to give it a go. I think it could be a godsend for my work, my various activist issues. I can't think of any living arrangement that would begin to approach the  satisfaction, the gratification, impact, learning... leadership... that this would likely yield to me.

FYI, I won't know for days or a week or so, if I will proceed,  regarding the Elf electric bike (tiny tiny mobile home for a/we Homeless).  I would not decide whether to access my Soc Sec
and kill my 'gold card' health insurance, until then.  (IF you want to help, now would be a good time to let me know.)

I REALLY HOPE I CAN MAKE IT ALL WORK...
it would be a VERY POWERFUL amping up of all my activism

A.  Loving Palestine while we allow the Zioni Holocaust to slaughter them (increased attention, including art-work re Palestine on the vehicle),

B.  Opposing Ecocide at least so someone in the future might know that at least one more person of the tiny, COMMITTED, handful loved them enough to try to interfere with it (an elec vehicle seen all around all-powerful DC), 

C.  Non-Fascist, Non-Capitalist, Non-Consumerist...Near-zero consumption / cost... near total Contribution-For-Free living (tiny house on wheels)... donating 100% of my life, as I do, for 9 years or so now...., (the REAL point, and commonality, of all my work - sustainable ethical Loving-as-
The-way-of-Life-no-matter-what),

D.  Humanity for the Poor/Homeless (pushing the boundaries of consciousness by we over-privileged and pioneering a 'housing alternative' (legally and in practice).  
After two fairly senior social workers last week told me I would NOT lose my 'gold card, carte blance, DC Medicaid' by accessing my Social Security early... yesterday, I spoke with a 'medical insurance expert' who said that without question, I WOULD LOSE IT IMMEDIATELY.  (With cancer, more bowel obstructions, etc, in my future, hmmm, yes,this would be consequential. But in and of itself, it will NOT stop my plans if I can workout the rest. This is not the time for my Survival to take priority, but for Radical Service of those we Love).
On this and other issues I'm checking further, but I'm guessing this 'expert' yesterday told me correct.  I'm going to do this if I can work out therest, below, but, if I funding  materializes that does NOT require me to access Soc Sec early, well, that could be a life-saver  *=)) rolling on the floor  .  LOL.

Other issues I'm exploring include, that could be show-stoppers... (I'll know within a week or so as I chase each down):

*  Whether the police in High Security DC would, could, LEGALLY disallow my having it on Capitol Hill and or near the White House.  I'll be approaching the police in both areas with photos of the Elf and inquiring, not about their 'preferences,' but about the Law.  Most of the officers there are anywhere between 'good' and 'GREAT' folks, so I expect to get down to the facts before long.

*  Whether I'm correct regarding the 'legality' of sleeping in the bike as is my intention...

A.  Am I correct that it still is the law that except in high security areas it is 'legal' to sleep on the sidewalk (quite sure it is); 
B.  Am I correct that it is 'legal' in DC to sleep in a car (pretty sure, but not certain). I have identified a legal team for the homeless I'll see on Monday regarding these.

*  The Elf that I WANT is about $9000, but the one that can GET THE JOB DONE is about $7000 delivered.  The costs per month?  ZERO.  The costs per year? $20... replacement inner tubes...???  It is a bike by Fed Regulations!  No fee or license in DC. No insurance req (tho I WILL probably get that... maybe $300 per year (WAY LOWER THAN A CAR).  FUEL?  THE SUN DOES NOT BILL - 100WATT SOLAR ON THE ROOF!  (In bad weather can charge in a coffee shop from AC).

*  Legality of 'sleeping by the side of the road, or in rest stops...' when 'traveling.' In the coldest DC months no tourists stop to look at a demonstration and it is pretty cold to live outside... so I could see taking my work on the road, headed south... different town every day sort of thing.  Sure, down in the Fundamentalist South they'll want to literally kill me for being 'against ' 'Israel,' but, hey, someone(s) need to lance that festering Satanic sore.  (I'd not lose my DC Medicaid as long as I kept DC as my 'home;' yes, my DC Medicaid would not apply outside DC, but when I have a next 'emergency' bowel obstruction I think ER's have to treat emergencies, and then I could hobble back to DC for extended treatment, or, dying due to refused treatment would help my cause of Humanity for the Poor and Homeless, and that would be fine. ABSOLUTELY.

*   Etc. 

5.13.2015

NOTICE: 051315... I anticipate slowing down my posts on Palestine or anything else. ... detail

NOTICE: 051315... I anticipate slowing down my posts on Palestine or anything else. Why? Have you radically re-arranged your life to get in the way of Palestines Death, Ecocide, Amerikan Fascism, mass worship of Consumption??? Sooooo, nothing is changing... except... we are ACCELERATING toward these chasms. Little that is new, to report. My reading and study are accelerating, but my reporting will decelerate, I expect. If everyone else is going to stay 'involved,' but not 'committed,' (think the chicken and the pig), I'm going to stay committed, unless I can figure out how to be MORE SO... so I'll devote less time to posting, and more time to studying and growing my own efforts.

US cited for police violence, racism in scathing UN review on human rights

http://america.aljazeera.com/articles/2015/5/11/us-faces-scathing-un-review-on-human-rights-record.html

***** OH WOW. Vatican officially recognizes state of Palestine in new treaty

http://chicago.suntimes.com/nationworld/7/71/602318/vatican-officially-recognizes-state-palestine-new-treaty

"He Saved Us": Hero Passenger Stops Gunman on Megabus From Chicago

"He Saved Us": Hero Passenger Stops Gunman on Megabus From Chicago