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11.07.2009

I NEVER expected Alienation and Joy to be linked! Pain yes, but Joy??? :-)

I NEVER expected Alienation and Joy to be linked!

That I feel profoundly alienated from Religion, the middle class,
the business world, Americans, the Religious, the elite
the "Peace" / Activist community... (all but the military)...
probably does not shock anyone that knows me.

I've felt profoundly, and excruciatingly alienated from virtually
all segments of society, well, for as long as I can remember,
into my earliest years.

I don't recall the thought ever occurring to me that this
alienation would ever be associated with anything but
great pain, agony.  But with Joy, utter Joy,
Freedom, Air, Life, Peace???  But I realized last week that,
so it is!

The spark for this realization was when I found myself writing
something I'd never thought or written before - ever -
"GOD DAMN AMERICANS" in conjunction with the Congress'
repudiation of the Goldstone report - a consummately Naziesque
move - Right is Wrong, Good is Bad - Orwellian move relative to our
Palestinian Family.  NO this was not an expression of hate by me.
Americans are [part of] my Family.  But it WAS an expression
that Americans are no longer EXCLUSIVELY my Family!!!!!!!!
Palestinians are every bit as much my Family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, in my head, and my Heart this has been true, for my
whole life!  But NOW IT IS TRUE IN MY SOUL, IN MY VERY
BEING - THEY ARE PART OF ME, AS AMERICANS ALWAYS HAVE
BEEN!!!!!!! 

This is such Joy!!!!  It is the Joy an addict feels when he
realizes he is CLEAN of his addiction!  This is the "Wholeness"
our sister Diane writes of.

Yes, my alienation is COMPLETE (or MORE complete than
it has been).  And on the other side of excruciating partial alienation
is JOY!!!!  On the other side of partial alienation is OUR FATHER-
UNITY WITH OUR FATHER.  WHOLENESS!!!!!!!!!!  UNITY!!!!!!!!

Now, it is not that I am alienated from ANYONE now.  I am
alienated from the sub-human FORMS we've embraced
as normal - I AM ALIEN FROM THE MATRIX IN ALL ITS FORMS!!!

My point is not to claim some sort of personal achievement,
accomplishment, status....  My point is to share the attributes
of this journey that Jesus and others have died to lead
us on!

I have asthma now.  For the last month it has been developing.
It is very difficult for me to get more than 3 hours of sleep or
so - I'm continually being awakened every minute or so
gasping for breath.  That, the chest pain of a month
ago, the rapid destruction of my teeth (huge holes in the crowns,
1/8" ea. where my night grinding has literally destroyed them...
make me very aware of my vulnerability and mortality.

I have zero wish for death.  I do not fear death.  Whether I live or
die is not my business - it is Our Father's business, and I
experience being SOOOOOO totally at Peace with that.  I find
Living as Brother an infinite fascination.  If find the prospect of my death
exactly and entirely and simply just one interesting part of my
Life.  Fascinating.

Why the Joy?  Why this complete Peace?  I live with
Our Father already.  Yes, I was excruciatingly
"alien" from almost everyone in my life since my earliest years.
I despised that feeling.  What I didn't realize was that I was
ALIEN FROM OUR FATHER.  I was caught between the two worlds!!!

I'M NOT ALIEN FROM OUR FATHER ANYMORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I'm not alien from ANY of Our 6.7billion Family - in their
essence - but totally in their InHumanity that is killing them.

You Prodigal Brother.

:-)


11.05.2009

11.04.2009

Besides cowardice and pandering what explains the silence among the Left's intelligentsia?

The stories they won't touch at BuzzFlash.com, DemocracyNow.org, NPR.org...

*  Left roots MIA on Health Care, Climate Change, Wall Street Looting...

*  Left media sells out to its owners (its readership)

*  After 50 years Left roots remain MIA - timid, cowardly, scapegoating, cowardly....

*  And another 1000 stories along these lines.

"A NATION OF SHEEP WILL BEGET... WOLVES."  E. R. MURROW

11.03.2009

GOD DAMN AMERICANS: US HOUSE CONDEMNS GOLDSTONE REPORT ON 344-36 VOTE

US House Overwhelmingly Passes Resolution Critical of UN Report on Gaza

Voice of America - Dan Robinson - ‎7 minutes ago‎
House lawmakers approved the symbolic measure by a vote of 344 to 36. In its report, the UN panel headed by South African Judge Richard Goldstone said ...

US HOUSE CONDEMNS GOLDSTONE REPORT ON 344-36 VOTE

SanFranciscoSentinel.com - Gerald R. Schroeder - ‎10 minutes ago‎
The National Jewish Democratic Council urged Democratic members of Congress to support the resolution and denounce the commission's report. ...

US House backs resolution to condemn Goldstone report

Jerusalem Post - E.B. Solomont, Hilary Leila Krieger - ‎52 minutes ago‎
The vote came after Judge Richard Goldstone, who led the inquiry, criticized the resolution, which describes the findings as "irredeemably biased and ...

US House condemns Goldstone report

PRESS TV - ‎59 minutes ago‎
By a vote of 344 to 36, the members of the lower house of Congress approved a non-binding resolution that calls the report "irredeemably biased and unworthy ...

92 Percent of Pro-Goldstone Vote is Dems

The Weekly Standard - ‎1 hour ago‎
Ultimately, J Street was able to get more members of Congress to show up at the group's gala dinner last week than to actually support its ludicrous ...

I think we are afraid of a life of Universal Love. We think we can't do it, we'd fail, couldn't stand the pain....

I think we are afraid of a life of Universal Love.  We think we can't do it,
we'd fail, couldn't stand the pain....

Hmmmmm.  That is incorrect.  Why do we make this error?  How to avoid it?

11.02.2009

GOD DAMN AMERICANS: Congress to Condemn Goldstone Report on Gaza? Institute for Public Accuracy (press release) - ‎22 minutes ago‎

...IF THIS IS TRUE.  WE'RE SIDING WITH HITLER, AGAIN.

Congress to Condemn Goldstone Report on Gaza?

Institute for Public Accuracy (press release) - ‎22 minutes ago‎

Knowledge and the Right, the Left...

Right Perverts Knowledge to Pervert or prevent Action

Left purveys Knowledge as a Substitute for Responsible Action

Humanity Pursues Knowledge so it can Responsibly ACT.

11.01.2009

'Staying alive is not what matters. It is staying Human that matters.' Geo. Orwell, 1984

'Staying alive is not what matters. It is staying Human that matters.'  Geo. Orwell, 1984

'If you love your life you will lose it.  If you hate your life you will gain it.'  JC

We're again failing our duty as citizens - public option, climate change... and we blame Obama for it.

We're again failing our duty as citizens - public option, climate change... and we blame Obama for it!

The end of civilization, the end of America will be our children's reward.

It isn't too late for us.  Yet.

We have weeks,
months left.

Start

ENJOY: Life has replaced Death at the White House. Indeed.


10.30.2009

It's OK! They're poor and don't work on Wall Street! DN! 17,000 Children Die from Lack of Insurance


"Start, what if you knew that your efforts were of absolutely no hope?"

[[[The paragraphs below were stimulated by my dialog with the
Angel Nancy over this article I shared this morning:  Afghan girls burn themselves to
Afghan girls burn themselves to escape marriage
http://worldblog.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2009/10/29/2112069.aspx
]]]


Nancy,

I'm almost always very upbeat, really.  Yesterday, for a fleeting
moment, the thought entered my mind, "Start, what if you knew
that there was absolutely no hope, that your efforts are of
absolutely zero hope, impact or positive value. What then?
[because at the moment, I correctly realized that this may be true]"

My answer came immediately - "I'd keep doing what I'm doing. 
I don't want the existence of a parasite; I don't want what that feels like. 
I don't want to be evil.  I don't want to live separated from the
Love within me as a brother for all of Humanity born and to be born.
Been there, done that.

I don't want a life of pleasure when I can have the Life of Joy
that comes from Dying for a better world, one with with less
suffering, and more Joy."

Start

Afghan girls burn themselves to escape marriage MSNBC


10.26.2009

The Church taught me to be "Catholic." Jesus taught me to be a Brother to EVERYONE. How totally UnChristLike the "Church" is.

The Church taught me to be "Catholic." 
Jesus taught us to be a Brother to EVERYONE. 
How totally UnChristLike the "Church" is. 
TOTALLY.

"I LIKE your Christ. 
I do NOT like your Christians. 
They are soooo unlike your Christ." 
Gandhi

10.24.2009

"Today is a good day to die [battling for Humanty]," Worf. Truer words never have been spoken.

"Today is a good day to die [battling for Humanty]," the Klingon, Worf, Star Trek, Next Generation. 
Truer words never have been spoken.

"There is no greater Love than to lay down your life for your brother."  JC

This is how I feel.  Enormously Joyful.  Now, if Our Father said to me,
"Start, how many years do you want me to give you?"  "Well, up to infinity
if I can do any Good," I'd answer.  But being in the Fight for Humanity is such
profound Joy, that if He wants me, whenever, next week, whatever, that's perfectly
fine too.  Such concerns as avoiding death are simply transcended; relatively
unimportant.  Amazing. 

"Just keep giving me my 'Daily Bread' father - your Work, our
Family's Work to do; that's all I ask.  Let me HELP! Please, let me Help."  SL

You understand.

Friends - please help. VERY important.

I'm hopeful, but about very few, right?  Yes, I'm a real grouch.  But there are a
few, a VERY few that really give me hope. 

PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT AND READ.

Please help BuzzFlash.com if you can.  NOW.  Please forward this to others:

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History, if we have on, will never again see the likes of this Leader: Obama Declares Swine Flu a National Emergency U.S. News & World Report

History, if we have on, will never again see the likes of this Leader: 

Obama Declares Swine Flu a National Emergency

U.S. News & World Report

An enormous gift I received this week: "Start, you are that bastard of a drill sergeant in 'An Officer and a Gentleman!'"

An enormous gift I received this week: "Start, you are that bastard of a drill sergeant in 'An Officer and a Gentleman!'"

BuzzFlash.com, ok, I'm ready for your death blow now.

My dear, dear friend at BuzzFlash.com , ok, I'm ready for your death blow now.  It's ok.

:-)

Your last 6 hr page right now is so powerful, so stunningly energizing,
so totally appropriate, so hugely CONSTRUCTIVE, so
appropriately leading, so mature and responsible... that I KNOW
that you are taking me to the heights of ecstasy so you can
dash me on the rocks for the final time tomorrow with a flurry of, well,
you know... negative, destructive, cowardly, childish, whining,
myopic, scapegoating, hypocritical, sadistic... articles tomorrow. 

:-)

But I'm ok with that, cuz today you made it clear to me what
you are capable of.  I was right all along about your potential!!!
I knew it!!!
  "I have seen the Mountain Top," said MLK Jr.

"Tomorrow is a good day to die," to paraphrase that Klingon
on Star Trek, Next Generation.  What's his name?

Start

ps: Warf!  I thought I'd remember!

pps:  Except, you should have published this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DN! 350.org (1) Holds International Climate Action Day in 170 Nations
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzOSn5oM8vQ
IT IS HUGELY IMPORTANT !!!!!!!!!!


We westerners ARE Tom and Daisy Buchanan (Great Gatsby), "Thoughtlessly wreck everything."

I thought I'd seen every movie ever made!  But over several nights at the Vigil
(it was too painful to watch all the way through at one time)  I watched it,
hadn't seen it before - AND IT WAS US. 

We are Tom and Daisy Buchanan -
We "thoughtlessly wreck everything."

It, is a real Terror movie.

We, are the real Terror.

Fitzgerald tried to
show us, in
time.

We
Christians,
Peace Activists,
Progressives,
Lefties,
Jews....

"Church:" Where we go to maintain the illusion we've not become degenerate inHumans, including the "Churches" of Progressivism, Activism, Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Academia....

"Church:"  Where we go to maintain the illusion we've not become degenerate inHumans, including the "Churches" of Progressivism, Activism, Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Academia....