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12.18.2012

Cancer Update - Searching for advice, for a way forward 12.18.12

[To: 

Doc C., Unity Health Care;
P. G., Patient Advocate at Howard Cancer Center;
M., nurse Practitioner Christ House -

Angels in Residence all three]

Dear, dear, dear Friends,

I am totally fine, in every way, well, except the cancer, which itself doesn't concern me much.  I was going to resume my 24 hour per day vigil, in the rain, to avert global ecocide, in front of the Canadian Embassy last night, but I was so knocked off balance by what I learned from cancer doc M. at Howard yesterday that I instead returned to a friends house in Philadelphia where I could have a roof over my head and try to get my bearings and figure out how to move forward.  Yes, sadly, I'm more of a wimp than I wish I were.  But, there it is.

BTW, what I understand from the cancer meeting yesterday is at the end of this email, below.

Expecting to hear 6 WEEKS of chemo, '6 MONTHS, for STARTERS' is what I learned.  Big deal?  This is why it seems to be a big deal for me.  As with my dad before me, I experience that the reason to be alive, and the WAY to be alive, is to Serve our Global Neediest, 7 days a week, every waking moment, and this I've done with ever increasing Joy throughout my life as best I've known to do; and in recent decade "sacrificing" virtually everything material we value in this society so I could serve the populations I was called to serve in the ways they seemed to need from me.  Finally, according to each of the 3500 global phd climate scientists, we have weeks, not years, to finally implement a 6% reduction of fossil fuel emissions, beginning 2013, or rapidly unfolding ecocide will be impossible to ever avert; or at best, averting it will utterly destitute, financially enslave each of the next 200 billion kids born on earth as they try to survive a planet we've near totally destroyed, and turned against them.  2013 is the most pivotal year in human history, and I'm going to be TOTALLY taken out of the fight, for half of it?  This is incomprehensible for me.

So, being homeless, in DC, THANK GOD Christ House, worthy of the name, seems willing to take me in for the 6 months chemo.  But they are necessarily a massively restrictive environment because a large portion of their clients are recovering addicts.  Hence I'd be facing 6 months of total removal from my work - zero internet, zero outside communication, zero ability to study, write, publish - no computer, no online.  And my BODY says YES, go there, the care for my body would be perfect.  But my Spirit says nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!  You must be able to work, those days when you are able!

That's the problem. 

Can you advise me?  If you know of any of the following, or pointers for me to follow up on, please let me know?

1.  Is there a suitable, but less restrictive environment in DC where I'd have a roof over my head, but the ability to be on-line, at least, those days that my body was able?  And maybe even free to move about the city when my body was able; sort of, as any of you would do, that God forbid you were in my shoes? I mean, people that have homes, they continue to work, many of them I'm learning, when they go through chemo, just missing some days when the fatigue is too much.

2.  Would getting care, including Medicaid, in the Philadelphia area be out of the question?  I have friend here that would probably be happy to have me with them the 6 months.  I'd be removed from DC, but at least I'd be able to work online.   Any ideas on how I could see if this is possible, and make arrangements?

Thank you friends for all you've done for me.

Any and all reply you can give me will be immensely helpful.  Answers?  Pointers?  Any clarity at all?

Loving u all, no matter what

CANCER MEETING WITH DOC M. AT HOWARD:

*  2 tumors, not one, were found.
*  Pathology report reveals that the larger tumor was fairly advanced, had been around for quite some time, and probably has been spreading it's off-spring around my body.
*  The spot on my liver is quite large, and concerns them.  They don't know what it is and have ordered a PET scan for me in early January.
*  They've also ordered a brain scan and that's scheduled now for Jan 12th at Howard, as I recall. 
*  I'm scheduled to meet with Doc M. Jan 15th to review test results and begin final arrangements for the chemo.
*  She spoke of a 6 months regimen - 2 week intervals, come in, get chemo, wear a pump for 2 days, get the pump removed, come back in 2 weeks, repeat....
*  If I accept the 6 month treatment my likelihood of survival is 50-60% after 5 years, and if I were to make it past that point, the likelihood is I'd survive quite a few more years as well.
*  If I refuse the treatment, so I can keep fighting in these most crucial of all weeks and months, presumably my odds of surviving and working even 5 more years goes down pretty dramatically.  Wish I had more clarity on this.

12.17.2012

Victims' families share photos of Obama's Newtown visit USA TODAY

Victims' families share photos of Obama's Newtown visit

USA TODAY - ‎8 hours ago‎
The White House has not released official photos of President Obama's visit with Newtown, Conn., families Sunday, but several pictures have been posted on social media.

Cancer - I'm a bit in shock. Need some help. I'm OK. 12.17.12

It's not what a thought - 6 weeks chemo.

It's 6 MMMOOONNNNTTTTHHHHSSSS chemo, for starters?

Mid to somewhat advanced were the tumors they removed.  Two, not one were found, one quite large and advanced.

Large is the spot on my liver.

6 MONTHS???? God bless Christ House - I know they'd take me, but I'd be dead there - Work, Serving is Life - and I'd be prevented for 6 months?

If I get the chemo - 50-60% survival expectancy by 5 years.

I want to try to get back to Philly tonight late so I can think.

More later.

12.16.2012

INDISPENSIBLE MEDIA: IN THE WAKE OF NEWTOWN, AND EVERY DAY. MSNBC

THIS MEDIA IS A GODSEND.

MSNBC DAILY.

BOOK MARK IT.  WATCH IT DAILY.  DAILY.  DAILY.  DAILY.

IN MY LIFETIME I'VE NEVER SEEN THE LIKE.

NOTE ALL, ALL, ALLLLLL OF THE PROGRAMS.

'Up' with Chris Hayes, and MHP (Melissa Harris Perry) are the two Sat and Sun 2 hr programs.

All these programs are free online, posted within 2 hours of airing.

For God's sake, use these, as I have, to return to my Citizenship.

DEMOCRACY IS NOT, NOT, NOT... A SPECTATOR SPORT.  DICTATORSHIP, FASCISM ARE.

OH GOD. Newtown school shooting Remembering the victims. WashPo

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/special/nation/newtown-school-shooting-victims/?tid=ts_carousel

**** Meet Scott, a young Christ-like, by Whatever Creed



Scott Montgomery was raised in southwest Virginia and was privileged to have access to a fine education and an environment which instilled the value of a strong work ethic. By having great mentors such as his teachers, athletic coaches, Boy Scout leaders, and family members he had already acquired many values needed to succeed in what they each expected he should want to achieve. In his last year of high school he learned a lesson of mortality when his grandmother’s life was cut short after a routine medical operation. He drove the family to Florida the next night and at the funeral (with little understanding) he promised that would make her proud.
In college he began to learn how to operate outside of a comfort zone, until during his second year he learned that he had the digestive disease, Crohns-Colitis. He was told he would have to take medicines in order to live with it from that day forward. He learned during the rest of his studies in accounting at Longwood University lessons of struggle, enduring, and even dollar value retail method LIFO. He was able to graduate having only missed one week of class during a hospital stay.
Upon graduating he began studying for the CPA exam and was well for a few months. This was due to now taking a drug called Remicade in an intravenous form each month. Six months after graduation he had completed one of four parts to the CPA exam, but became ill again. By the end of February, he was in worse health than ever, receiving recommendations to have his colon removed, and was 90% of the time reserved to his childhood home. Before visiting a specialist at the University of North Carolina, he had begun changing his diet and overall lifestyle after learning of individuals healing without the use of medication.  After discussing his plan with the specialist, he was told that he would return “even sicker” than his current condition of making trips to the bathroom every hour of each day.
Scott spent two days completely relearning everything he thought he knew about food and began a plan to become well. By then he had exposed a flaw in the common knowledge of Crohn’s disease and no longer accepted that the cause was a design flaw within his body. He had acquired faith that it was an absurd idea that he was put here to suffer. Therefore he would one day be healthy again if he respects and listens to his body. By the end of the summer after nearly six grueling months he was beginning to live a normal life and he began studying again.
After this experience and with the help of some new role models, he began to realize what he had learned over the past six months. These role models had learned what he was starting to learn, that the goals and aspirations which he was exposed to until now were goals that are unlikely to satisfy even the dullest of individuals. How many celebrities have found no happiness in satisfying all of their material wants and desires?
Unlike his prior role models (who he still uphold as fine persons who have many things to be proud of) their focus was how to reach true happiness and improve the lives of others, most importantly the ‘least’ of these persons. (greatest need)
After finishing the CPA exam he applied for a few jobs with little enthusiasm, but also one which appeared to be everything he was looking for and even within two hours of his hometown. Within four days of sending his cover letter and resume, he was working as an accountant with Kissito Healthcare and Kissito Healthcare International. KHI at the time was supporting a government health center in East Uganda and also in process of constructing a hospital in rural Ethiopia. Scott was excited to travel overseas. Due to having many wide responsibilities at Kissito, as well as a demanding accounting position, he was unable to travel during his first one year with Kissito.
In September, Scott was offered the position which he had originally applied for, with a change of being stationed permanently in East Africa. The timing was perfect, and he immediately began winding up his affairs and packing to leave in one month. Over the past year, he had learned many skills and facets to managing all the support functions of a nonprofit. This opportunity would now teach him the challenges and skills required to accomplish goals of sustainably improving the lives of others. He was now reassured that he was on the right path, by fate or chance he was saved of a life of pleasure with no purpose. Alternatively he became aware of an alternative filled with immense and nearly unbearable challenges, but also with the opportunity to live a valuable life.
Scott is now working in Mbale, Uganda with Kissito as an accountant as well as completing some small projects in his spare time. He is currently investigating what areas to greatest serve those with the greatest on the planet. He is also considering enrolling in a Master’s of Public Health course through either an African college or online.  He is currently setting up a website and planning fundraisers for a vehicle to both research projects for the long-term as well as complete short-term projects during his employment with Kissito Healthcare. If you wish to volunteer, assist financially, or simply join his mailing list, please email: scott.montgomery at roots-international dot org.

SHARE: Talking Points for Children re Newtown Massacre - Na. Assoc. Schl. Psych.

Our sister Cathy, lifelong elementary school educator, forwarded this.  Read.  Share.

http://s3.amazonaws.com/dfc_attachments/public/documents/3168494/talkingviolenceNASP.pdf

Cancer Update - I Expect to Resume DC Vigil Tomorrow Night - 12.16.12

My body really hates the plan, but the Spirit of Christ, Loving, within me, is winning out it seems.  I Pray so.

My Body craves more time to recover, but it is not necessary for my body, and what is necessary is getting back to fight against the one-sided genocidal war against irreversible Ecocide, stopping my abandonment of Diane Wilson and the few others fighting for your children and grandchildren's future for you; for the Joy, Love, Life and peace of Heart of it.

The incision is still draining.  The entire abdominal area feels extremely vulnerable physically, which it is.  The Bowel remains unstable.  But all of this should be quite manageable after these 14 days or so of healing, back on the street in front of the Canadian Embassy.

Tomorrow at 1pm is the 1st meeting with the cancer doc, in DC.  I expect to be told I'll need 6 weeks of chemo beginning mid-January.  If so, to my surprise, I expect to accept.  If they will allow it, I'll endure the chemo while maintaining the vigil.  I've been told however that they will not perform the chemo unless I'm at a place like Christ House, because the immune system gets so compromised.  My current guess is that the right choice between between:

A.  Reject any further delay or disruption of the vigil in front of the Canadian Embassy, my part of the fight against permanent Ecocide, rejecting the 1.5 months for chemo, thereby shortening my years of service physically here on earth by some number years, presumably.  I have no aversion to this.  My only concern is that I use every breath to do the most possible Good.

B.  Accept the chemo, trading a 1.5 month delay in my Warring, Waging Love, in favor of the possibility of years more to Serve, years more to Live, each Breath, for our Global Neediest Family members.

My current thinking is that despite the Unassailable Truth that every HOUR, every MINUTE NOW is more crucial than at any other time in history with the possible exception of the Cuban Missile Crisis, crucial to avert Global Ecocide by Green House Gasses, my efforts are so invisible, amongst the swarm of we 300 million Affloholics, that I best serve our Global Neediest by accepting the delay, for the chemo.

I'll continue to seek the mind of the Creator, in my Heart (as must you, every breath), but this is what I am Hearing thus far.


'SNL' & Newtown Shooting: Show Opened With 'Silent Night' Tribute

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/16/snl-newtown-shooting-show-silent-night_n_2310589.html

***** nd 'Christ-ian's North Star: Our Global Neediest. EVERY BREATH. EVERY BREATH.' Loving

nd 'Christ-ian's North Star: Our Global Neediest. EVERY BREATH. EVERY BREATH.' Loving

12.15.2012

"nd" = No Details

"nd" = No Details

nd 'Flesh, Head know only their own Pleasure, Pain. Heart knows that, but the Pleasure, Pain of All. Hence Head, Flesh FEAR Heart Totally.' Loving

nd 'Flesh, Head know only their own Pleasure, Pain.  Heart knows that, but the Pleasure, Pain of All.  Hence Head, Flesh FEAR Heart Totally.' Loving

nd 'Our Job is to become Undeserved Grace in the Lives of Others.' Loving

nd 'Our Job is to become Undeserved Grace in the Lives of Others.' Loving

nd 'The likes of Diane Wilson will be killed unless you join them, now, fighting Ecocide.' Loving

nd 'The likes of Diane Wilson will be killed unless you join them, now, fighting Ecocide.' Loving

nd 'Neurologically - the ONLY Joy - Slavely Surrender to the Heart, in Every Breath.' Loving

nd 'Neurologically - the ONLY Joy - Slavely Surrender to the Heart, in Every Breath.'  Loving

nd 'Loving resides entirely and only in the Creator's Kingdom - the Heart, Christ's Home. Neurologically. NEVER on Pleasure Island.' Loving

nd 'Loving resides entirely and only in the Creator's Kingdom - the Heart, Christ's Home. Neurologically. NEVER on Pleasure Island.' Loving

nd 'Christ-ian: By their Behavior want's the Kingdom of Loving on Earth more than EVERYTHING.' Loving

nd 'Christ-ian: By their Behavior want's the Kingdom of Loving on Earth more than EVERYTHING.' Loving

nd 'To my immense Joy and Shame I gave all I am to just three; two of whom have discarded me like used toilet paper. So Tragic for them.' Loving

nd 'To my immense Joy and Shame I gave all I am to just three; two of whom have discarded me like used toilet paper.  So Tragic for them.'  Loving

nd 'The material 'Price' I've Paid to Serve? Price of the Winning Lottery Ticket.' Loving

nd 'The material 'Price' I've Paid to Serve?  Price of the Winning Lottery Ticket.'  Loving

Christlike: NYT - Newtown Staff Gives Lives for Our Kids

New York Times

Lives saved by teachers, custodian and even children in Connecticut school ...

NBCNews.com - ‎1 hour ago‎
Sandy Hook Elementary principal Dawn Hochsprung died in the attack after reportedly running toward the gunfire to protect her students.

***** vlog 'May I Teach You Jesus' Gospel? I 'get it' now.' Loving




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tiDKwdmFqW4&feature=youtu.be

***** Bernstein's Mass - BBC Vid - Most Sacred Art Work, Ever

http://thepiratebay.se/torrent/7926476

Cancer Update - Hmmm. I seem to have become an Apostle (Vessel) of Christ, a Son of the Creator. 12.15.12' Loving

Cancer Update - Hmmmm. I seem to have become an Apostle (Vessel) of Christ, a Son of the Creator. 12.15.12' Loving

I didn't see it coming, but  I seem to have become an Apostle, a Vessel of Christ - the Spirit of Loving, in recent weeks.  I'm quite sure of it.

This complicates things.  When Jesus had become such a Vessel he chose to live for three years more.

I'm 2 days now without Percoset, and doing ok - able to Serve with little distraction, tho yesterday I slept about 15 hours.  Bowel remains unstable - two or three problematic movements per day vs one.  I remain hobbled by the signals from my mid-section that they are wayyyyyyyyyy vulnerable, which they remain, depriving me of strength and surety of movement.

Monday in all likelihood the cancer doc will tell me my life depends on a 6 week chemo regimen beginning mid January. 

Am I to terminate my life maybe a decade early so I can avoid a 2 month delay that would mean full recovery from the surgery and cancer, by resuming the vigil immediately to avert irreversible Ecocide, or at best the perpetual, near total economic destitution of those children whose parents choose to have them born; as the center of their existence is attempting to survive the Hell on Earth we are NEEDLESSLY handing them?  Maybe!

It may be that my vigil at the Can Embassy would anyway, maybe immediately, be temporarily made impossible by preparations and security for the Inauguration of Pr. Obama.

Am to remain among you a while longer as this Vessel of Christ, as a Prayer that others may be more likely to find this Heaven on Earth, as well; or could this be better achieved exactly by forgoing the chemo?

I don't know yet.

***** vid Here's Christ's House. WATCH IT.

http://www.christhouse.org/about/index.html

Why aren't you Living like this; if you are not, already?

***** nd 'Jesus Gospel: Insanity is taking our spirit of Flesh as Reality. Reality is the Spirit of our Heart, Loving, Christ, God....' Loving

***** nd 'Jesus Gospel: Insanity is taking our spirit of Flesh as Reality.  Reality is the Spirit of our Heart, Loving, Christ, God....' Loving

nd 'How Tragically we confuse the sad life of working to Be Loved, from the Joyful Life of Loving.' Loving

***** nd 'How Tragically we confuse the sad life of working to Be Loved, from the Joyful Life of Loving.' Loving

vid Vicki Soto died Shielding our Kids in Newtown

http://abcnews.go.com/US/connecticut-elementary-school-shooting-victims-hero-teacher-principal/story?id=17982784#.UMx40nfAGCc