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9.02.2016

***** EFLIUS. Who besides King , Gandhi , Schweitzer, Bonhoeffer, and Tolstoy have understood the man Jesus? And taken him at his word? I don't see any..........

***** Who besides King , Gandhi , Schweitzer, Bonhoeffer, and Tolstoy have understood the man Jesus? And taken him at his word? I don't see any. Teresa of Calcutta? Dogma. If you get Jesus you don't need Dogma. If you get Jesus, you detest Dogma. Jimmy Carter? Too much reason, too much intellect, too much piety, too much sanctimonious,  and Old Testament, Dogma. If you get Jesus you don't need these things,  You Are revolted by them. Francis of Assisi? Too much fantasy, too much psychosis. If you get Jesus you live reality, you live creation, you live creator. You don't need psychosis. Tenzin gyatso, the Dalai Lama? Lip service lip service lip service lip service lip service lip service, full of himself. These and others have been good if not great Souls. But close only counts in Horseshoes and Hand Grenades. My last ten or fifteen years I have been in and out of a central fascination with the life and example of the man Jesus, the historical Jesus, my God, not the Theological Jesus, the religious Jesus, the Christian Jesus,  all of which I hate because it is instead of Jesus. The man Jesus. The historical Jesus. By her life Diane Wilson gets Jesus. By his life, some of it, William Thomas of the White House peace vigil got Jesus. Certainly there are others that neither I nor you know of. By every indication the apostles did not get Jesus. They immediately had to make stuff up. Christianity? Christianity hates Jesus, it's all made up stuff so that it can avoid who and what he was. It's a brand and branded products instead of Jesus. I think it's almost impossible in this small world of massive information for someone to be a catalyst that could turn Humanity away from now near certain demise that does not live reaction to the man Jesus, his life and example, that is profound Wonder, awe, amazement, reverence, for his life and example. I can think of one exception to this, a person who was horribly abused by those who professed knowledge and love of Jesus but in truth were the opposite. I put no one down with all this. I Elevate no one, including Jesus, with this. What's at stake here is coming up with a serum, a ransome, a Redemption, a cure, that is so potent and pure that it acts as a catalyst and dramatically turns enough of us, masses of us, from malignant deadly cancerous instruments of selfishness into the opposite, in time. Masses of Human Rights catalysts , in truth, in quantity, in time.

3.20.2015

vlog. SPDIF day 17: this death fast is for everyone I know and everyone I do not know. This death fast is against everyone I know, and everyone I don't know. (If the shoe does not fit, don't wear it.)

This death fast is for everyone I know , and for every one I do not know, born and to be born in the future.  I experience all of these as part of me.  I experienced all of these as part of my family.  That's just how it is with me.

And this death fast is a protest against everyone I know , and everyone I see involved in the so called free Palestine effort.  Against individuals?  Of course not.  Against grossly inadequate, cowardly, self serving behavior of nearly all the individuals involved?  Absolutely.

Every one of the people I'm describing may be doing exactly what history requires.  But to my trained eye none, with a certain exception of Diane Wilson (on other crucial issues), and the possible exception of very few others, with the near certain exception of the international solidarity movement activists in Palestine, with the near certainty exception of some other activists in Palestine.  With the fairly certain exception of much or most of Hamas, heroic, intelligent, informed freedom fighters.

But I just mentioned dozens of people on a planet with seven billion.  This death fast is a protest against the behavior of almost everyone, above the age of 12, on earth, particularly we over privileged in the United States .  We are behaving like the walking dead people that we are.  In willful, catatonic denial .  Fiddling while Rome burns.  Not lifting a finger so that our nieces and nephews, our children, our grandchildren, have a future remotely worth living in terms of democratic society , a planet habitable , other than the police state that is being developed in Palestine for export to the elites around the world. 

12.15.2014

detail. Surgery was a success. 3 hour operation began at 11am, I was... (detail click link)



Surgery was a success.  3 hour operation  began at 11am, I was waking in Recovery by 4:30pm and in my room by 6pm.  Little pain when I am stationary, huge pain if I cough (rarely occurring), they've prescribed pain meds that seem to manage that well, too.
Great, kind, compassionate, attentive, responsive, highly trained medical team.  Thanks to Obamacare it is available to me.  
Had one of the six  or so nicest surprises of my life today, that I can remember (so profoundly and deeply sorry to any of you that have been so deeply kind to me whose extreme kindness I may be forgetting at this moment, but I'm particularly overwhelmed by this one).   Please blame it on the pain narcotics they are pumping into me.
The five others, in no particular order: 
* 55year old Gerry and early 20’s John, in their suburban neighborhood, running hugely loud power tools on the lawn, till 2am... cutting me a hugely heavy  Cross... for me to walk with 200 miles to DC... to raise action to Save Darfur;
* Beverly nearly 'ripping the throat' out of a pastor she saw should try and rescue me from an extreme hike, while on hunger strike, ‘the most ‘Christian thing she’d every seen’) for the criminally disadvantaged children of Chester PA;
*  Dave and Mary Rachel bringing their new young son X from PA (where they work 7 days per week) to see me when I was living on the streets of DC so I could devote myself to averting global warming;
*  Cathy driving from PA, just moments before hurricane Sandy was to hit DC where I was living on the streets fighting Global Warming... to rip me off of them, to safety, braving the leadinng edge of Sandy all the way back to PA for me, with me; 
* My dad... for the 28 years or so before his death... standing by me, giving me everything he had to give... despite the near total, embarrasing, zero of a person I objectively was at that time....
Oh, I could go on with another 5, or more.  Most people never see such Love even once in their Lives... I've been criminally, entirely, undeservedly over-privileged in this (and every other ) way.  

[Side note: It is important, crucial... to periodically reflect such instances of Pure Loving in one's life, and or, such instances one knows of, even if in literature... for THIS is where we've seen God, the Creator, the Divine... Loving... and they must be the Star we steer by to be, become, and do the same... with every breath.]

The potential of my physical death has never been a concern for me, except as a provider to physical dependents (offspring, woman I was married to), and now, as a possibly consequential fighter for my Family in Palestine.  But personally, hey, you go to sleep, don't wake up, the ride, your 'turn,' is over.  What is the big deal?  So the tiny but real risk of death from any substantial surgery, such as mine this morning, was no concern to me. 

Cathy, my sister in Pennsylvania, to whom I was married for decades, offered, weeks ago, to come down, and I knew she wanted to, and it was from her heart I was sure... but I said the idea was ridiculous... bus picks up and drops me off literally at the curb... of the hospital and my homeless shelter... no, I said... too much time, too much money... too much carbon... zero point or need. And that was the end of it.  Didn't hear from her since... our lives are in near totally different directions.  
Signing in at the hospital this morning I gave Cathy’s  name and my friend Jim from VA, authorization to retreaive my stuff, in the uunlikely event I croaked  (with prior instructions to them that what meager 'stuff' I have go to the world's greatest activist Diane Wilson for her work)  But to the question 'is anyone here with you?,’ and ‘who to call in case of a problem?,’ 'no one' was my reply, as always, with which I was 1000000000000% at peace.  I hate resouces going in my direction… the purpose of my life is to get Loving resources flowing to my Neediest Family for Chists sak!  I was asked the same questions, and gave the same reply when I was in final prep, just seconds  before being sedated and put under for this 3 hour operation.  'No one,' and 'no,’ answers that are such a non issue to me, so habitual for so many years now… I gave them no thought whatsoever.
Three hours later, after what seemed like 30 minutes tops to me, I was in recovery waking up, "Your ex-wife (I hate the term) Cathy is here when you are up to see her."  I'm having trouble seeing the screen, and typing, as the sobs of wonder, Joy, amazement, warmth... come back to me, many hours later, as I type this to you.  I don't recall ever, ever, ever being so overwhelmed with such a Loving act, incomprehensible… Divine.

'I wasn't sure you would be 'ok' with me coming, she said, but I needed to be here, and if upon seeing you you wanted me to leave... I was 100% prepared for that... but I needed to be here.'(and return on the six hour round trip drive).

7.12.2014

nd.To those few traveling with me: Number one, my comments are never directed at you, although sometimes I think you feel that they are. :-) number two, all of us with hearts, tend to see history, historical figures, as though they knew the outcome beforehand. At least, I think most people do. Rosa Parks fought alone for decades before she's sat on that bus. She didn't know she would win. She didn't know anyone would notice. She knew only that she was going to fight. (Correct, Diane Wilson? :-) )

To all those traveling with me: Number one, my comments are never directed at you, although sometimes I think you feel that they are. :-) number two, all of us with hearts, tend to see history, historical figures, as though they knew the outcome beforehand. At least, I think most people do. Rosa Parks fought alone for decades before she's sat on that bus. She didn't know she would win. She didn't know anyone would notice. She knew only that she was going to fight. (Correct, Diane Wilson? :-) )

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7.05.2014

***** Activinos (activists in name only) do infinitely more damage than non activists. [This is going to come out so mean. But I am NOT feeling mean, or intending to be so at all.] Teresa of Calcutta said of the church, ' the greatest obstacle to people becoming Christian are those who preach the gospel but do not practice it.' Gandhi said 'if Christians would practice their Creed there would be no more Hindus.' We instantly see the truth of this, right? But not when it comes to activism, activinos do not see it in themselves. We deny it with all of our might. Maybe you knew what the English translation of the Greek for 'acting' is. I had no idea until a few years ago. Hypocrisy. Hypocrisy, in the Greek, means to 'act the part.' Now acting, can be a noble pursuit, right? Unless it is undisclosed acting, acting the part of a brain surgeon, for example. Then, it can be a murderous crime. Activinoism is such a murderous crime. Albert Schweitzer spoke what is probably my favorite quote of all time, 'example is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing.' If activists show that we do not really need to pay a dear price for what we want, that mere 'acting' will suffice, well then, A. Those who are influenced by such activists will do no more then the same, and B. Do you really think that the onlookers, and the opposition, cannot tell the difference between an actor and the real thing? The activino(s) himself has strong motivation to deceive himself. But the onlooker, and the opposition, have ample motivation to see the truth, the hypocrisy, and by gum, they always do!!! They always do. This is the 50th anniversary of the Freedom Summer. Does anyone today think those folks were acting? It was even immensely difficult, near impossible, for the most evil opposition, or the most cowardly onlooker, to think that those folks were acting back then. Why? Because what an activist does, what a true activist always always always always does, is offer to pay, in unmistakable terms, an ungodly price, and sometimes, unflinchingly, unfailingly, willingly pay the price if it is demanded. Watch Freedom Riders. Watch Gandhi. Watch Iron Jawed Angels. Watch Malala. Watch Diane Wilson in the mini documentary Texas Gold on Hulu and YouTube ( where I pirated it and put it up years ago). Oh, and by the way, if you watch or deeply ponder any of those folks, ask yourself this question: yes, as true activists, they pay an ungodly price, but would they rather be acting? :-) . LOL. Activism is just another word for loving, for serving the from the soul in solidarity with the neediest. This is the ONLY physiological source for joy, for the generation of joy for oneself. And it is generated with every breath for the true activist regardless of the material hell they invariably bring upon herself. Why else would folks like Jesus do what they do? They are simply the enlightened greedy, and if there is to be a future for creation it is long past time to learn to follow their example, greedily. Gandhi did not say 'act,' or preach of, or demand.... the change you wish to see in the world. He said 'be the change you wish to see in the world.' Be the change you wish to see in the world. It is the joy, the only joy, that surpasses all understanding.

* Activinos (activists in name only) do infinitely more damage than non activists. [This is going to come out so mean. But I am NOT feeling mean, or intending to be so at all.] Teresa of Calcutta said of the church, ' the greatest obstacle to people becoming Christian are those who preach the gospel but do not practice it.' Gandhi said 'if Christians would practice their Creed there would be no more Hindus.' We instantly see the truth of this, right? But not when it comes to activism, activinos do not see it in themselves. We deny it with all of our might. Maybe you knew what the English translation of the Greek for 'acting' is. I had no idea until a few years ago. Hypocrisy. Hypocrisy, in the Greek, means to 'act the part.' Now acting, can be a noble pursuit, right? Unless it is undisclosed acting, acting the part of a brain surgeon, for example. Then, it can be a murderous crime. Activinoism is such a murderous crime. Albert Schweitzer spoke what is probably my favorite quote of all time, 'example is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing.' If activists show that we do not really need to pay a dear price for what we want, that mere 'acting' will suffice, well then, A. Those who are influenced by such activists will do no more then the same, and B. Do you really think that the onlookers, and the opposition, cannot tell the difference between an actor and the real thing? The activino(s) himself has strong motivation to deceive himself. But the onlooker, and the opposition, have ample motivation to see the truth, the hypocrisy, and by gum, they always do!!! They always do. This is the 50th anniversary of the Freedom Summer. Does anyone today think those folks were acting? It was even immensely difficult, near impossible, for the most evil opposition, or the most cowardly onlooker, to think that those folks were acting back then. Why? Because what an activist does, what a true activist always always always always does, is offer to pay, in unmistakable terms, an ungodly price, and sometimes, unflinchingly, unfailingly, willingly pay the price if it is demanded. Watch Freedom Riders. Watch Gandhi. Watch Iron Jawed Angels. Watch Malala. Watch Diane Wilson in the mini documentary Texas Gold on Hulu and YouTube ( where I pirated it and put it up years ago). Oh, and by the way, if you watch or deeply ponder any of those folks, ask yourself this question: yes, as true activists, they pay an ungodly price, but would they rather be acting? :-) . LOL. Activism is just another word for loving, for serving the from the soul in solidarity with the neediest. This is the ONLY physiological source for joy, for the generation of joy for oneself. And it is generated with every breath for the true activist regardless of the material hell they invariably bring upon herself. Why else would folks like Jesus do what they do? They are simply the enlightened greedy, and if there is to be a future for creation it is long past time to learn to follow their example, greedily. Gandhi did not say 'act,' or preach of, or demand.... the change you wish to see in the world. He said 'be the change you wish to see in the world.' Be the change you wish to see in the world. It is the joy, the only joy, that surpasses all understanding.

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1.14.2014

***** EXTREMELY IMPORTANT FB DIALOG WITH MW. PLEASE READ, GIVE ME YOUR COMMENTS.

[[[ If any or all of the following at the top, is too much time and effort for you (you are reading this because you are a serious, busy, individual) then PLEASE at least scroll down, about 1/3, to the part marked *********PART B************.  But if you can go through the parts above too, it will be a richer experience for you, and potentially more helpful for me.

This is all massively life-changing for me, and I think it should be, for all of us - hence the benefit to you of considering what is on my mind.  Point being, I think a calm, courageous, thoughful, open minded read by you would be:

1. Important to your life (whether you agree or disagree with my view), and
2. If you have comments or suggestions to share with me you deem important, I'd be VERY grateful.

I never have expectations of what others should do. Mine is just to offer, and communicate.

Oh, if any of this makes your head SPIN, welcome to my world.  My head is spinning, and I am oscelating between utter terror at the world we've allowed to take hold, and Peace of Heart that I'm getting my bearings and seeing what is needed of me.  Sort of. ]]]

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These posts are important lead-up, processing, genesis... of the most important parts here -
 *********PART B************ below

*********PART A************ below

The leadup posts:

***** A FB dialog with a Friend tonight - detail...

***** Dialog with PC via Email this moring. detail...

***** Note to one of my closest friends, Jehovah's Witness Joe. detail...


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[MW is a very new, young (college student I think) (2 days ago was our first correspondence) FB correspondant.]

*********PART A************

MW:  
Keep doing what you're doing brother. Not even sure how I became friends with you, but keep it up. I've cared what others think for far to long. You're inspiring for those who know change must happen, but are afraid to demand it. I am no longer that scared little kid. For the longest time I would see 7 posts in a row from you and just scroll through. Just recently began absorbing the content. So keep it up. I'll begin sharing the coal/fossil fuel and injustice posts more.

 L:
Heart.

MW: 
And the titanic metaphor is right on the money. Never heard it stated that way before just now.

L:
We have everything we need to prevent it, everything, except millions of citizens that love their kids and grand kids (even unborn) enough to face the truth, and it is clear we don't have that. I'm not kidding - don't have kids - it is too cruel to them; and prepare for the worst, because, you are young, and it'll be utter Hell before you are gone. I'd be no friend if I weren't honest with you.

MW:
I’ve always thought the same thing. Spent many many hours considering population control. Just so ass backwards to compound our endless problems by creating more children repeating the same terrible habits. I long ago vowed to adopt.. Crazy the looks you get from people when you even propose the idea of not having multiple children. Especially living here, in utah.

L: 
Had I had the courage of my youthful wisdom, and a marriage partner of similar mind, I'd have done the same, even 30 years ago when things looked bright. I pray you find the courage of your convictions, as I did not.   

MW:
Question.. How do you get over the fact that no body cares. Cat pictures and misquoted bigots get a million shares. While bone shaking facts, and statistics get completely ignored. How do you deal with that because it is the single most reason why I am as stagnant as I am.

L:
In a body riddled with cancer, there are still a few cells that are healthy, and they do what they are called to do for the body, because that is what they WANT to do. I was born and raise to be a cancer cell - of by and for the rich. I've simply determined that I find it infinitely more joyful to attempt what the body of humanity needs of me, than to be a cancer cell - self centered. "When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad. That is my religion." Abe Lincoln. Me too. I prefer perceiving myself as a brother to humanity, regardless of what other's perceive of me, and I therefore act accordingly. Does the insane, deadly denial, deadness, self centeredness around me hurt? Yes, it is excruciating, for me, for them, for what it is doing to the world. But, I am not called by my human family to wallow, but to assess, and act. So, not too much time wallowing. That's how it is.

MW:
thank you

L:
It was a good question. You are welcome. I hope you ponder what I shared, deeply. I do.

MW:
It’s not that I care the perception of peers so much.. That’s not my business. It’s that I get very sad and/or angry when seeing how fine people are with the current condition. To use your titanic analogy.. why not just grab some wine and go dance with the band, if nobody is willing to work as a unit and invest in the future. But then again I feel similar to what you’re saying. Not that i believe so much in a heaven and hell, but for me continuing a passive life and not working towards solutions seems to be a personal hell for me and when I am unhappiest. I’m studying engineering in the hopes of working in biofules/ wind / solar farms etc. Something, anything that is working towards a solution. And late nights in a florescent light bulb filled library like tonight it becomes easy to begin doubting the point. Just curious what kept you in the fight.     

*********PART B************

L:
[A LOT of gloom and doom follows, below, but for many, also pointed to below - there is a massively bright future rarely seen in 1000's of years - the one I'm on the path of.]

Wow, I am so much were you are, EVERY DAY, in terms of confronting the two options - self centered or other centered life - it all comes down to that. Self centered produces the experiences of pleasure, intoxication... and it is 100% what our culture says is real, desirable, sane.... Other centered produces the experiences of Loving, Joy of the deep Soul; and our culture talks of these in patronizing, hypocritical ways, but really reviles other-centeredness, and punishes the Hell out of it, literally tries to kill it, except for brief instances where it sees opportunity to control it for personal gain. Those are the two choices, breath by breath, day by day, lifetime by lifetime.

And they tend to be life choices - hooked on one, or hooked on the other. I was hooked on society's self-centered for 45 years, and extremely successful, and always sensing it was not fulfilling; I've been other centered for 15 years.

So, I've done both. Other centered has cost me EVERYTHING that we value in this society, and to me, what it has 'cost' me is all garbage, was then, is now. Nothing, including torture or death would make me go back to self-centered, tho things like my last 18 months battle with cancer has made that other centering more difficult, but it hasn't won, it tried to get me back to self-centered, but it lost. No, Other centered living, every breath, is Loving and Joy - HEAVEN on earth, truly; and Hell, because when you are other centered you bear the agony of the Hell we've made of this world for our larger Family; but it is so worth it.

This is everything in terms of understanding the likes of Aung San, Lincoln, Eleanor Roosevelt, Gandhi, Alice Paul, MLK Jr, Jesus, Teresa of Calcutta, Malala, Mandela, Diane Wilson.. tho they might use different words. They got hooked on Life, being a force for Life... that is, Other-Centered living.

Nothing can make someone go back that has been hooked on it. It rarely if ever happens. But 99.9999% in our society buy what society sells - self centered (me and mine). And there are not 1 in a million examples around them to show them the Path out - to Heaven, if only Personal Heaven, on earth - other centered living - Loving, no matter what the personal price.

I am by training, formal and informal, a visionary leader. In the computer industry it got me six figures, and I saved lots of organizations and peoples jobs, and developed new markets. I 'see,' by training and use of my life, way into the future, and I'm willing, I'm compelled, to look at the dangers of where we are headed, to 'see' that the Titanic is going too fast, while EVERYONE ELSE heads for the bar; and then to mobilize myself, at least, around that vision of the future, trying to serve as many of the neediest, my global Family, as best I can. Yes, it is constantly overwhelming; but I, and really, all of us I believe, we are made for the task. But, surely, I am, however inadequate I may be.

My vision, after the last 5 years of total dedication to (unsuccessfully) helping the world avoid irreversible ecocide... my vision is that it is 99.9999999% clear to me, that we are NOT going to stop the ecocide. By way of analogy, scientficially, at this moment in time we needed to be EXECUTING the landing at Normandy to stop ecocide, D Day, and instead, our environmental 'leaders' (McKibben, 350.org, Green Peace, Sierra Club, EDF...) are deciding whether to send 4 people in polar bear costumes to Normandy Beach, or 5. Total, utter, clinically insane denial, across the board. It is over. Ecocide is NOT going to be stopped.

So hence forward, I am shifting all of my efforts, I'm very sure, to post/ongoing ecocide planning. That will be half of my focus - tho they are maybe, really both the same thing, post ecocide planning and what follows - mass economic Apocalypse.

My other focus will be the other Apocalypse - the global economic/social/political apocalypse - somewhat forced, accelerated, by ecocide, but even without ecocide - we've destroyed, and are now finishing the job, of destroying, vibrant, local, full employment, MEANINGFUL employment, compassionate community - replacing it, more and more by government fiat, mindless drone jobs for a dwindling few, with Corporate community for the few, and unemployment, meaningless poverty jobs, marginalization, mass imprisonment... for the masses.

The middle class in this country is falling into this latter category at a furious pace, and for the foreseeable future it is irreversible - we've let the uber-rich loot, and thereby own and control, 1000's of times too much; and the millions that would have to be in the streets, literally today, 2014, STANDING UNVIOLENTLY UNTIL VICTORY, to prevent the Fascist takeover in these final hours... well, there aren't even dozens ready to step up to what would be needed to wage the unviolent, but life on the line battles, that would be needed. (Oh, there are thousands on FB, but as the young google exec leader of the arab spring in Egypt, Wael Ghonim said, "History is made in the streets, not on the internet." We the people are not in the streets, and we are passionately unwilling to go in the streets.

The uber-rich and their technocrat, Fascist (I'm being academically descriptive, not hyperbolic) governmental, and military/police minions - ARE the Fascist government now - and the implications of that are beginning to unfold as we speak. And, and extremely intoxicating, self centered, joyless life, will be frantically pursued, and had, by the rapidly dwindling corpratocracy (engineers, scientists, marketers, computer jocks, brokers....) that prostitutes their lives to the uber rich. But with automation, off shoring, increasing mass poverty (fewer and fewer for the uber-rich to exploit (sell to - the masses won't have money), the size of that corpratocracy will continue to rapidly shrink. If you have not seen the movie "Elysium" you need to. That is where we are headed, fast, and nothing is going to stop us, it was now, or never, and we are not stepping up.

The Titanic, IS STRIKING, as we speak, TWO icebergs at the same time.

But there is a difference. Titanic I went down in a matter of hours. Titanic II, Earth, Global and US economy of the masses, will go down, but it will go down over centuries (tho the economic/Fascist government side for 70% of us is gunna keep plummeting for the next decade, and beyond... to a new, materially horrible, normal).

BUT, MANY PEOPLE, BETWEEN NOW AND THEN, WILL HAVE A WONDERFUL QUALITY OF LIFE, UNSEEN ON EARTH, HEAVEN ON EARTH, THAT WE HAVEN'T REALLY SEEN IN THOUSANDS OF YEARS!

Jesus saw the economic/social/psychological part, the destruction of community, UNIVERSAL FAMILY - and died trying to save us from letting it die. We crucified him, instead, and re-made him in such a way that 'he,' his corrupted teachings (words put in his mouth), would sanction our dog eat dog, corporate lust for stuff, and switch the Heaven of Brotherly Universal Community he died to create on EARTH, to one after we die, so we could have the best of both worlds - Not a real good bargain - none of us know if there is a life after this one, and we've made this one into increasingly a religiously self centered, me and mine, material/social/psychological Hell (and the ecocide part will be unfolding forever).

You, my young friend, are at historically terrifying, overwhelming, wonderful point in history. For the masses of we 7.5 billion currently on earth, and in the future, a whole new world/culture/community/way of living... of need must and will be, invented. 99.9999999999% of us in the foreseeable future, will run from this challenge like the plague - bury our heads in the sand, go even deeper into denial (tho this seems impossible), do what we can to find a chair in the rapidly dwindling chair-line of the uber-rich's corporatocracy.

You, MW, have the curse of being in college, with dreams of engineering, so you, tragically, can choose self-centered so easily, that you probably can't and won't resist it, anymore than I could at your age.

But there is a prayer for you that you will resist the siren call of the Fascist corpratocracy, self centered life (me and mine), and if so, what a wonderful, hard, Joyful, Loving life you would have. Extraordinary.

These two things, more than maybe any others, are the two things that will define the future - how fast, and how well, we create, define, develop and deploy them.

1. Renewable energy, a passion of yours, IS the future, just too slowly to avert ecocide. But it is the future. And it IS THE FUTURE FOR THE NEEDIEST 70% on earth - OUR FAMILY. Get your engineering degree... but USE IT FOR THE 70% - OTHER CENTERED. (contact Scott Montgomery, on FB (? https://www.facebook.com/scott.montgomery2005?fref=ts, and here - http://www.roots-international.org/category/scott-montgomery/ ), a young friend of mine, college degreed accountant, trying to find, and walk the Path I'm referring to, in Southern Sudan).

2. Local, complete, largely self-sufficient, Universal FamilyCommunity Living - IS THE FUTURE for the 70%. What Jesus died to show us. Deep sigh.

#2 will be my focus for the rest of my years, I'm quite sure. I'm at a different point in my life, than you. You, could devote your life to both. What an incredible, Joyful, exciting, hard... opportunity.


Regarding my personal path now: All of the above is a radical shift for me, on every level - the facing that 'it is over' in terms of stopping ecocide and avoiding fascist rule. But I'm quickly getting a sense of what it means for me personally.

I've lived at or near destitution for the last 7-12 years or so so I could devote my life to the world's dire causes - stopping the Genocide in Darfur Sudan was the start, and for the last 5 years - stopping ecocide; and most recently, trying to avert the completion of the corporate fascist takeover of world governments, really. And as I've said above, I find that all this has taught me - they are not going to be stopped, because we don't have .0000001% of the citizenry ready to do what it would unviolently take. They are NOT gunnna leave the Titanic's bar until the water is pouring in. They will not, they ARE not. And this was D Day.

So my life is radically refocusing on creating the post Apocalytic world for the masses - and that means my coming years will be massively study and learning, and writing intensive. I know enough to see that some folks have done some good thinking on re-establishing self-sufficient community, but it is really in it's infancy, so sadly, I perceive I need to jump in and try to do my part of the Visioning.

But how best to situate myself for that service, intitially, intensive study, and writing, for the coming years? I don't need to be on the street demonstrating 24/7 as I was, living there. I don't need to be in DC any longer. Best would be to live with other(s), but who, where, how? 


* If two of us were living together, among other things it might be done very efficiently (spare room, spare spot on the floor), and if they were struggling, I could start my Social Security and maybe help them struggle a bit less with some of it).

* Such a thing could be an accidental, or deliberate, part of the experiment of Universal Family Community living.

* I can go back to living on the street, and bank all my Social Security when I start it, to invest if and when I see the social opportunities to do so. In every case I'd want to do this with investing in others, as much of my funds as possible.

* I can look into low income housing with my Soc Sec, and be able to bank none of the funds, for other people and causes.

* I can move into a bug infested homeless shelter as a place to sleep at least, to do my work. 


Much to decide and work out. But, I will pay whatever personal and financial cost I must to follow this path, of that, I'm near certain.

Well, enough, for now.

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Friends, if you have comments, questions, advice, thoughts... I'm all ears. Thank you. 


01.19.14 Important UPDATE Here 


  

12.17.2013

***** nd. I think I know what's been disturbing me so much about the otherwise unspeakably sheroic anti fracking, anti-tar sands activism, Arctic 30, Idle No More, anti-coal activism... around the world. The activists are standing against the enemy. They are not standing against Family, deranged Family. It is all the difference in the world. There is no longer time to win battles, which they may do. We need to win the war. We need to win the Revolution, and the Only Revolution is global conversion to Agape, Universal Family, Unconditional Loving, Godliness... by whatever name, or no name at all. This is the Fact. This is the Truth. Few show us the way - Malala, Aung San Suu Kyi, often Diane Wilson....

***** nd. I think I know what's been disturbing me so much about the otherwise unspeakably sheroic anti fracking, anti-tar sands activism, Arctic 30, Idle No More, anti-coal activism... around the world.  The activists are standing against the enemy.  They are not standing against Family, deranged Family.  It is all the difference in the world.  There is no longer time to win battles, which they may do.  We need to win the war.  We need to win the Revolution, and the Only Revolution is global conversion to Agape, Universal Family, Unconditional Loving, Godliness... by whatever name, or no name at all. This is the Fact. This is the Truth.  Few show us the way - Malala, Aung San Suu Kyi, often Diane Wilson....

11.02.2013

***** nd. The True Activist treats CREATIVE TENSION like Scrooge treated $$$ - ACCUMULATING, BUILDING, STORING UNTIL IT IS SUFFICIENT TO DICTATE TERMS. (MLK Jr conception) Virtually ZERO 'activists' (save Malala, sometimes Diane Wilson, Tahrir Sq 2 yrs ago...) do that. They SQUANDER IT LIKE DRUNKEN SAILORS, raising and storing mere tokens - all else being too 'stressful.' Oh, and then they bitch and moan, and blame, for what they don't have. EARN IT? ROFL. LMFAO!!!

nd.  The True Activist treats CREATIVE TENSION like Scrooge treated $$$ - ACCUMULATING, BUILDING, STORING UNTIL IT IS SUFFICIENT TO DICTATE TERMS. (MLK Jr conception)  Virtually ZERO 'activists' (save Malala, sometimes Diane Wilson, Tahrir Sq 2 yrs ago...) do that.  They SQUANDER IT LIKE DRUNKEN SAILORS, raising and storing mere tokens - all else being too 'stressful.'  Oh, and then they bitch and moan, and blame, for what they  don't have.  EARN IT?  ROFL.  LMFAO!!!

9.23.2013

***** pic WOW. THRU TEARS: Put on my FB page by a Friend: "In honor of just such an activist - Start Loving." (Have I EVER felt so 'Identified?') "An activist is someone who cannot help but fight for something. That Person is not usually motivated by a need for power, or money, or fame, but in fact driven slightly mad by some injustice, some cruelty, some unfairness - So much so that he or she is compelled by some internal moral engine to act to make it better." Eve Ensler. Uh, that would be Diane Wilson, John Pope, Lizzy Arizona, Malala, WIRT.... (BTW, it is HELL. And Infinite Heaven - the only one - Loving, no matter what)

#ActivistsIn honor of just such an activist - Start Loving.
 
#Activists
***** pic WOW.  THRU TEARS:  Put on my FB page by a Friend: "In honor of just such an activist - Start Loving." (Have I EVER felt so 'Identified?') "An activist is someone who cannot help but fight for something.  Taht Person is not usually motivated by a need for power, or money, or fame, but in fact driven slightly mad by some injustice, some cruelty, some unfairness - So much so that he or she is compelled by some internal moral engine to act to make it better."  Eve Ensler. Uh, that would be Diane Wilson, John Pope, Lizzy Arizona, Malala, WIRT.... 

9.13.2013

Cancer Update: You won't like this. You won't like this.

There is a 45% chance they can keep me alive, keep me at war. So I could be sand in your gears for another 5, 10, 15, even 20 years.  And I'll have a 55% chance that I'll be gone from my war pretty soon.

As long as I'll be here, I'll not be found to become LESS GRITTY.  I'm at war for the next 200 billion kids, and all of Creation.  It is the most consequential war in the history of Creation, it is almost finally lost, seconds left on the clock, none by Diane Wilson, Norman Finkelstein, and a few others have a clue, or are fighting.  I'll keep doing what I can to be sand in the gears of your status quo existing, to save you the lifelong Hell near certain for you now, of 'If I had ONLY...,' and give you instead the Eternal Joy of, 'Oh my Good, I woke up in time to...!'

Any of you on the left need be particularly concerned.  Denial on the LEFT of Duty to stand and fight with your ENTIRE life, limb and treasure, unviolently, for the next 1000 generations makes the Left Creation Enemy #1, Citizen Enemy #1.

The right is irrelevant - unreformable lunatics.

You on the Left will be my primary target, your comfort, apathy, Soul and Creation killing excuses, excuses, excuses, excuses, excuses..., YOUR CRIMINAL DOUBLE STANDARDS - HOLDING PR. OBAMA ACCOUNTABLE TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS, IN YOUR TIMEFRAME, but YOU have ZERO MEASURABLE GOALS AS CITIZENS, ZERO TIME FRAMES FOR ACHIEVEMENT, ZERO PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY, ZERO PERSONAL ACCOUNTABILITY AS A CITIZEN, HACTIVIST... ONLY EXCUSE AFTER EXCUSE, AFTER EXCUSE, BUT NO EXCUSE EVER, FOR THE LIKES OF OBAMA....  Vomit, Vomit, VOMIT.  STOP YOUR DISGUSTING DOUBLE STANDARDS. STOP IT. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT.

And yes, there will never be any breath where you need to worry about me violating your personal boundaries.  You even hint that you want the door closed, I never again come thru, with my Loving of you undiminished - unconditional.


Dr. F, liver surgeon, 11am today at GUH Transplant Center, was, well, he couldn't have been more helpful. Extremely bright, to the point, patient, thorough, generous, pleasant, kind, clear, present, human, humane, excellent communicator, clearly authoritative.  We spoke for about 20 min, everything I needed to know.

The steps ahead are not as I had thought:

1.  This chemo bag hanging on me will be the last I wear, forever, or at least till after recovery from the surgeries.  Comes off tomorrow.

2.  My odds are about 45% for a 'cure,' a normal lifespan.  I had never been told, when they removed the 1/3 colon in Dec '12, they took out a whole bunch of lymph nodes (?), and all of them were free of cancer. That is a very good marker.  The fact that only 2 metastatic tumors have been found, vs 7 or more, is another very favorable marker.  A third marker for my case is an unknown, how long it took from cancer in colon to tumors in liver - could have been months, could have been years - we'll never know.  The longer time elapse, the better - less malignant.

3.  Doc F trains docs from Bolivia, all over, on my procedures.  Everyplace but Howard U. Argh.

4.  They don't remove the tumors!!!!! They remove 1/2 of my entire liver that contains the tumors!!! The whole thing!  Wow.  The liver, if all goes well, completely re-grows, re-generates, in about 4 months!!! If things don't go so well, it fails, I die, I guess. My Saint of a dad died from an operation that gave him better than 90% odds of full recovery.

5.  But first, next week if it can be scheduled that soon, another doc will start the process of killing the half of my liver that has the tumors, by blocking, killing, the artery that feeds that half, shrinking it, and getting a jump on the 4 month regen process, by forcing the other half to start growing, to over-compensate, NOW!!!  Reduces the odds of liver failure, too.  Freekin amazing.  That blood supply killing procedure may be outpatient, or may be 1 day in hosp.  A needle, or wire, inserted.... I meet with that Doc B, this Monday, 2:30pm, I just learned.  Procedure some days later.  Late next week, I hope.

4.  In about 4 weeks from now - major surgery - very large incision along the lower rib cage.  The liver is a big organ, and the half they remove, that's big too!  5-7 days in hosp., eating within 2 days. Mid Oct I'll guess.  

5. 6 weeks for full strength to return after the major surgery, but 70% return within a three weeks or so, I gather. Major operation 4 weeks after last chemo, which is four weeks from tomorrow, at the earliest. I'll guess this dreary Infirmary will be my cage for several more months.  Then, back to the Can Emb, Creation's Murder Vigil, and the streets.
6.  Wow, one of the tumors looked huge to me, on the high res CT scans. I didn't ask the Doc, but they looked much larger to me than the .7 cm and 1.5 cm I was told back in Feb. But I don't know.  I'll ask, next opportunity.

7.  I'm back at the Infirmary, ready for my 2-4 day Road Kill black out from the chemo, tho...

8.  She reduced the chemo procedure - eliminated one of the drugs, cuz surgery can't happen within 6 weeks of that one, Avastin, and eliminating a syringe 'push' of the 5FU that is in the pump - earlier infusions a very very large syringe worth of the the 5FU is pushed in ahead of the 2 day pump worth. Totally wiped me out for 80 hours last cycle, so that indicates eliminating the Push.


9.12.2013

***** I, S. Loving, have a dream. (details)

***** I, S. Loving, have a dream. (details)...

And, if you had asked me 5 minutes ago, or a month ago, or 10 years ago, or 30 years ago, or 55 years ago if I had a dream, I'd have honestly said, "No," and, "I don't know why I don't have one, have never had one," and if pushed, "I'm troubled and ashamed I don't have one... what is wrong with me?,"

... and in saying so, I'd have been dead wrong then, and I was dead wrong 5 minutes ago.

There is an old saying - The fish is the last one to discover water.

I've always had a dream, or rather, a Dream has always had me, weakly, and for 15 years now TOTALLY, A DREAM HAS ME, by the b*lls, uh, I mean, Throat.

My Dream, the dream that has Had me since my Earliest Memory... Is of an entire World, Earth, where:

* We are all Immediate Family to one another - nothing more.  Nothing less. Nothing else.

*  I mean Family where any Family member would GLADLY DIE if necessary for the wellbeing of ANY OTHER FAMILY MEMBER, such as is the case in EVERY HEALTHY, TRUE, FAMILY, SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME. OBJECTIVE.

*  I do NOT mean family of the sort where one member has power OVER another.  NO.  NEVER.

*  I have a Dream, born of 55 years of relatively intense learning, that this is ENTIRELY POSSIBLE, IT IS LITERALLY WHAT OUR DNA HAS DESIGNED US TO DO, but not 'naturally' in Morally Toxic Wasteland such as 2013 Culture of our Neglectful, near certainly now Terminal, Ecocidal, Clinically Mad... creation.

* I have a Dream that I, and You, are to JOYFULLY, WITHOUT HESITATION, FOR THE GREEDY JOY OF IT, GIVE OUR LIVES IN WHAT EVER IMMEDIATE (figuratively jumping on a grenade to save others), or over-a-lifetime, like Diane Wilson, Alice Paul, Susan B. Anthony, Eleanor Roosevelt) way...

to give Life, and mitigate Suffering of another(s)...

Because there is nothing more Wonderful, Heavenly, that we can see, than this World of Universal Family, nor anything more Horrible than the NEEDLESS SUFFERING, EVERY NANO-SECOND, THAT ITS COMING IS DELAYED.  "A person that does not know what she would die for, is not equipped to live." MLK Jr.

*  And, yes, it is the Exact Same Dream, by whatever name, that Gandhi had, MLK Jr. had, Jesus had, Eleanor Roosevelt had....

*  And it is the Exact Same Dream that HAD Gandhi, HAD MLK Jr, HAD, Jesus, HAD Eleanor Roosevelt..."She who would give Light, must endure Burning." Eleanor Roosevelt.

*  Well, maybe more later, but I've got cancer poison pumping into me now with this pump I wear for the next 2 days, 24/7.  Later....

ps:  The following has been playing in my mind recently, and it is relevant to this last 5 minute's Revelation. It is from the Musical "Don Quixote," that I've ADORED, the Musical, my entire life.  It is often my hunch that an entire movie, story, musical... is crafted and created, ultimately, to deliver 1 line, and here is what that one line was for Don Quixote, delivered by Cervantes, from the bowels of an Inquisition Prison, awaiting certain torture and death:

"TRUE MADNESS IS SEEING HOW THINGS ARE, 
AND NOT, HOW THEY SHOULD BE."

8.29.2013

***** My Revered sisters, I'm dying of cancer. I have a request of you, ALL...

My Revered sisters, 

I ASK NOTHING MORE THAN that you read this WHOLE post, deeply, courageously, holding your nose if need be...  HEAR WHAT I AM SAYING IN THIS. HEAR DEEPLY, WITH YOUR SOUL.  Yes, I am boring as Hell. I put glaciers, polar ice caps, to sleep - hmmm, that's an idea.  But can you really turn down what may be my dying wish - to deeply read this whole thing? Just that???

I'm dying of cancer, the odds are 80 percent as things stand, that I'll go non-functional within about a year (was supposed to happen by now) (hmmm, where'd those tears come from? I never cry about this. Well, I never think about it, cept this moment, on the bus from the Hospital, sharing with you. Hmm.), and terminal within about the following year. I'm wearing a poison chemo pump for the next 46 hours, hoping to shrink the cancer, so it is operable, before the poison kills me. LOL. If in 2 weeks, Sept 12, they find the tumors haven't shrunk enough, they'll offer me $60,000 more of chemo, 4 more months, already knowing my answer, 'NO, I'll not take $60,000 of my future world-children's money for me to have another year or so. Not going to happen.' I've already told them, many times now.  But, if they discover on the Sept 9, intensive CT scan, that the tumors in my liver have shrunk enough to operate, they think they can give me a 40% chance at another 7-15 years of fighting, or so. To that, my answer would be Yes.
 
So, maybe you can cut me some slack, and hear what I'm saying. I ASK NOTHING MORE THAN that you read this whole post, deeply, courageously, holding your nose if need be...

Oh, and pls, try to remember, I wrote most of it, on my Android, riding across DC wearing my chemo pump (typos, dyslexiaisms, idiocies...)? Thanks.  I have few lucid moments left, before this chemo levels me, for the next 4 days.  Just try your best, hard, that is all any of us can do.  :-(

I'm willing, I'm pretty much expecting, to lose my last female friend over this, as excruciating as that WILL be for me. 90-95% of those I've found to be Friends, Family, fellow Warriors, are you, sisters, in the last 15 years, through today. Oh well.

I'm tough, no worries.  Truly, ZERO worries about me.  ZERO WORRIES FOR ME. JUST, WHATEVER YOU DO, SAVE MY NEXT 200 BILLION CHILDREN. YOU ARE OUT OF TIME. YOU ARE OUT OF TIME (http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/04/dying-4-u-2-c-averting-ecocide-20-nasas.html ). YOU ARE, BY EVERY OBJECTIVE MEASURE, INTO OVERTIME, WITH SECONDS ON THE CLOCK.  SECONDS LEFT TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL BEFORE THE FATE OF YOUR BABIES ARE DETERMINED. LITERALLY.  ACTUALLY. FOREVER.

In the following I am NOT, not,NOT... talking of seducing (GOD NO, THERE IS ZERO HOPE IN THAT. ZERO. ZERO. INFINITELY TOO WEAK, TOO UN-LOVING. TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE.), I'm talking the nuclear option, what has worked in history, withholding - imagining, and unfolding, a STRATEGIC, MIGHTILY STRATEGIC STRATEGY, FIRST PIN-POINT, THEN UNFOLDING STRATEGY... of WITHHOLDING.

Sparking, inspiring, unleashing a strategic strategy of withholding.  Read on.

Yes, it would be a miracle to achieve, and only a miracle, now, BY EVERY OBJECTIVE, SCIENTIFIC, TECHNOLOGICAL, ECOLOGICAL, ECONOMIC MEASURE, NOW, 2013, will give a future to the next generations, to all of creation, to every creature that will ever be on earth.

NOTE: HERE'S THE WHOLE SCIENCE, TECHNOLOGY, ECONOMICS AND ECOCIDAL HELL, IN ONE DRY AS DIRT, AUTHORITATIVE, 30 MIN VID http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/04/dying-4-u-2-c-averting-ecocide-20-nasas.html  ). TOOK ME 5 YEARS TO ASSEMBLE FROM THE GLOBAL SCHOLARLY LEADERS, AND YOU CAN HAVE IT IN 30 MIN. THERE IS NOTHING ELSE LIKE IT, TO THE ETERNAL SHAME OF THE INTELLECTUALLY ELITE ARMIES MORE CAPABLE THAN I. THE COWARDS.

Per the video, per 97% of the 3500 PhD climate scientists on Titanic (if you get them in a corner and help them find the guts to tell it to you straight), it is 2013 to cause the only 6% reduction in fossil fuels PER YEAR, forever, instead of the 3% per year increase, now locked in...

..... the best case as things stand:

A.  the next 2 generations will experience economic destitution paying an estimated 15-25 trillion dollars to try and suck co2 out of the atmosphere (oh, btw, that won't save sea life - all of that will be gone, for 1000 generations); an estimated 20-50% of their lifetime earnings, on top of what taxes you've ever paid, to just try and survive what we've given them, and to remediate some of the future for their kids; and

B. infinitely more likely - ecocide, irreversible, forever, earth hell, earth as eternal, perpetually writhing, Titanic Hell.  Lifeless Venus-like earth, will be the eventual, end-game - WILL CERTAINLY be the endgame, unless you sisters work the Miracle. Now.  See NASA Dr. James Hansen's, "Storms of My Grandchidren," Venus Syndrome, here and here.


Withholding. You know in History, it has been tried before. You know it has worked before - WITHHOLDING.

As you know, in truth, but maybe don't like to face, all wars have been fought, and will always be fought, wars of violence that is, for the real estate that is your female bodies, YOUR FEMALE BODIES. THE GUYS THAT ORCHESTRATE, OR THAT FIGHT WARS, WANT THE PLUNDERS OF WAR (STUFF, FAME, BRAVERY, MONEY, THE HIGH OF YOUR ADMIRING THEIR MACHOISM [IF ONLY IN THEIR ADDICTIVE MINDS...) BECAUSE THEY THINK IT WILL GET SOME OF YOU TO SLEEP WITH THEM.

YES, THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS.  The exceptions, the exceptions, the exceptions... prove the rule. Virtually all men, in one way or another, do near everything they do in life, to have sex with you. The exceptions prove the rule. I'm not saying I like it, I HATE it. But that's how it is.  Maybe we'll make it different in the future. BUT WHAT I'VE JUST OUTLINED, IS WHAT WE HAVE TO WORK WITH, TODAY.

You know the history better than I, and near all of you are smarter than I, so you know what your sisters did, for the sake of peace, thousands of years ago - Greece? Rome? I forget. Other times and places, too?  Are there such smart, strong, wise, disciplined, wise, humble, committed, courageous, LOVING... women today? If not, can the few who are, awaken the many, fast enough? NOW?

Senator(s) wife(s) was pivotal in getting your right to vote. Their Mothers were instrumental to getting the Senators and Congressmen, to vote the right way, as you know better than I. And what of today's Senators? Congressmen? President?  Governors?  Even, Captains of Industry?

By every objective measure, you are the more compassionate sex, more attuned to life, to the soon terminal life un-worth living for all life on earth. You are the best organizers, and even better among your sisters. By a piece I saw yesterday, you are objectively the smarter sex - the two highest IQ's ever measured are females, I read.

AS I'VE JUST OUTLINED, JUST REMINDED YOU, THE TRUTH IS, YOU ARE THE MOST POWERFUL SEX, BY FAR.

THAT IS THE HORRIBLE, WONDERFUL TRUTH.  IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE IT, WE'RE DOOMED. IF YOU DO HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE IT, AND GRASP IT...?
THEN, THERE MAY BE A PRAYER.

Maybe what I'm saying here, strategically, has zero possibilities.

But decide, ok?  You, decide, ok?

I AM NOT OPEN TO DISCUSSING IT. I AM NOT. I WILL NOT. It is your baby, now, or it is stillborn.  Do, or don't do.

IF YOU THINK IT HAS MERRITT, AND YOU HAVE NOT ALREADY, YOU WILL FIGURE OUT WHAT I'M INCAPABLE FIGURING OUT, BEYOND WHAT I'VE SHARED HERE, AND YOU'LL GET IT GOING, remembering, "Full effort is full success,"  Gandhi.

Remembering, SUSAN B. ANTHONY,

"FAILURE, IS IMPOSSIBLE."  

Remembering, ELEANOR ROOSEVELT,

"THOSE WHO WOULD GIVE LIFE, MUST ENDURE BURNING."

Remembering, DIANE WILSON, and here, and here, and here, and here...

"Reasonable women adapt to the world,
and unreasonable women make the world adapt to them. And we need more unreasonable women." 

IF IT IS STUPID YOU THINK, WHAT I'VE SKETCHED OUT, HORRIBLE, POLITICALLY INCORRECT, HATEFUL, OFFENSIVE..., WHATEVER, WELL, DO WHAT YOU WILL REGARDING ME.

BUT NO MATTER WHAT,  IF THERE IS TO BE A FUTURE FOR OUR NEXT 200 BILLION KIDS, FOR ALL OF CREATION, YOU WOMEN ARE THE ONLY ONES WITH THE POWER, OBJECTIVELY, IN TRUTH, IN FACT, TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.  

"Gandhi, what is this soul force, this satyagraha, you speak of?"   

"I'm talking of the mother's love for her child, the strongest force in the universe."

Again, I AM NOT OPEN TO DISCUSSING THIS WITH YOU. I AM NOT. I WILL NOT. It is your baby, now, or it is stillborn.

I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOUR MIGHTY POWER "OVER" - FORCE.

I AM NOT TALKING OF SOME CHEAP, MEDIA ORIENTED, UNDIGNIFIED RANTING.

I AM TALKING OF THE UNSPEAKABLE DIGNITY, AND COURAGE, SHOWN BY YOUR SISTERS DURING THE SUFFRAGE DAYS, THE GREATEST IMPLEMENTATION OF UNVIOLENT WARFARE IN HUMAN HISTORY:

"A Women's Crusade  here and here,"

"IRON JAWED ANGELS, here and here," the book;

Iron Jawed Angels here and here, the Movie;

INEZ MILHOLLAND here and  here

I'M TALKING OF YOUR MIGHTY, NEAR INFINITE, POTENTIAL POWER 'FOR' - LOVING, IMPOSSIBLY TOUGH LOVING.

My favorite quote, ever? My favorite quote of all time? Thanks Cyndi Weaver, for inspiring me to remember it:

"Some day, after we have mastered the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love. Then for the second time in the history of the world, we will have discovered fire.”  Pierre Teilhard de Chardin.

Everything that is NOT full EFFORT, is full failure, more finally now, than at any other time in the history of Creation.

Sisters, like it or not, the future is in your hands.

If you are honest, you know I will keep doing what I can, and will do EVERYTHING in my power to support you, you that step out, with Diane, with my last breath I will. Just ask Diane Wilson. She might not like what I do, :-), she may hate what I do (I'll never know), but she has to admit, I've done everything in my power to support her Divine Sherosim. Important what I do? No. I'm only saying I put my Life, all that I am, all that I have, every breath, where my mouth is. And never more than now.

"I'm talking of the mother's love for her child, the strongest force in the universe." Gandhi.  Me too, that's what I'm talking about. That's what with every breath I Live to embody.  "I'm talking of the mother's love for her child, the strongest force in the universe."

THAT'S THE OBJECTIVE TRUTH OF IT....

...EXCEPT, FOR THE CHILDREN.  HMMM. THE CIVIL RIGHTS WORKERS. THE ANTI-APARTHEID WORKERS, FOUND A PLACE FOR THE CHILDREN... AT THE FRONT, THE FRONT, THE FRONT OF THE MOVEMENT. AND IT MOVED MOUNTAINS. THEY WOULD NEVER, NEVER, NEVER... HAVE MOVED THE MOUNTAINS WITHOUT THE CHILDREN IN FRONT.

AND WHO HAS THE MORAL RIGHT TO KEEP THE CHILDREN FROM FIGHTING, WITH THEIR VERY LIVES IF NEED BE, FOR THEIR VERY PLANET?????????????? NO ONE. BUT WE'VE KEPT THEM TOTALLY IGNORANT....

THE MOTHERS, THE WOMEN, COULD MAKE THAT HAPPEN, NOW.... WILL THEY? WILL ANYONE(S) LEAD?

THE  MEN, CAN NOT DO THAT.  DUH. BUT, THEY CAN, AND WILL, FOLLOW.

Your brother forever, no matter what, Loving

ps: I AM NOT OPEN TO DISCUSSING IT. I AM NOT. I WILL NOT.

pps: I wonder if any of you are going to share this. It is of ZERO importance if you do, THAT I KNOW.  And if you do, it would be infinitely better if you reformulate it UNDER YOUR OWN NAME. LEAVE ME 100% OUT OF IT, ONE TRILLION MILES AWAY FROM IT. I'M PRETTY TOXIC, BY NOW. THINK, PLUTONIUM.

ppps:  Oh, I wish I'd thought of this. Saw on FB several days ago. Something like...

pppps: Sorry, one last, obvious, thing. The issues you care about - women's rights, equal pay, education for your kids, economic opportunity for your kids, ending wars, quality of life for your kids, gender equality, immigration reform, health care... did I mention, ENDING WARS?  Gone, for the next 1000 thousand generations, objectively.  The next 1000 generations will be nothing but one extended war for survival, a death spiral, unless you work an impossible miracle, now. FACT.  And you won't, unless you try.

"The person that wants to do something, finds a way.  The person that doesn't, finds an excuse."