It is hard, for me anyway, to love someone in action for most of one's life and have it not reciprocated. It happens.... all the time I'm sure. But it is something my mind can't wrap around. But what has finally after 66 years wrapped around on my mind is that, James, this person accepts you in their life but does not want you in their life. 66 years. Half of that in this relationship. But only in the last day or so have I understood this. Of course I want to give that person their space. I just didn't understand it clearly enough until now, my fault, or no one's fault, but I understand it clearly enough now. And there are others, but to a lesser degree. I did not understand. Oh well, turns out you can't teach an old dog new tricks.